joanne

2009-09-08T21:28:00.003+08:00

hello world..
it has been 2 months since i last blogged.
things have changed.
i have started work.. and the most common question now is, " how is everything?"
just want to let whoever still reading ard here know that, thank you! i am doing fine. (:
Just need time to adjust, but i know i can make it. =) i will hang around here for a long time... ( i hope) haha. if things go my way, great! if not, it would then just be more lessons learnt.

dear roomie, i know fyp has been an ass.. Get ah bai to kick it ok? Just a few months back, fyp attempted to kill me(literally). POs are never the most wonderful people to start with..but eventually, you'd realise how much they really care. Attempt to be less 'stubborn' and love the PO more ok? Jia you! i have total faith in you. My roomie you know.. (: Sorry i cant be around when you are doing fyp.. the way you were when i was doing mine..But anytime you want to complain, just dial ok? go go roomie!
dear ah bai, as you know. Gan ma is working now, unable to meet you guys all the time.. You must help gan ma take care of your zhuren ok? and sharpen your teeth.. should PO bully zhuren, then just do what you want to him ok? no worries.. gan ma help u clean teeth.. =)

to the rest of the people out there. take care.. cos i care. (:

2009-06-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

it's sad to hear of failed relationships, even sadder when the people involved are close to my heart.
heard of many endings. so many reasons. yet, i guess the one reason that might never give closure.. would be it just ended, there is no reason why, but she/he just doesnt seem like the one anymore, that one dont feel the way she/he used to feel anymore. On a positive note, when one door closes, another opens for you, yet, on e other hand, after putting in so much effort into a relationship..can it not stand the challenges.. i dont know, but i guess..hearing of failed relationships, makes me wanna cherish the one i am in more. ((: to those who fell.. stand up again.
jia you!

2009-06-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

i'm zoo-ing tml!
haha i am so excited yes!
OH hello world! i havent been here for zeons!
and chak says i have been ignoring it. not that many other people read.but for those who do!
hello~ !!!
zzz. haha. jojo is fine..! and i hope you guys are to!
i will try to blog more consistently! i hope*=P
hahaha~
will return!

2009-04-26T14:16:00.002+08:00

it's down to the final two..
panic striken..but not as much as compared to the previous examinations.
maybe its cos.. after so many semesters.. it has finally set in that, this is the final semester!
i dont know if i should be feeling excited.. hahaa.. but i'm definitely looking forward to the end of it all..
=)) i'm so looking forward to phuket.. haha..

Dear you,
who wrote me a blog letter..this is in reply to it!
haha.. thanks alot for your support ya!~for not judging..
it's been many many years since we've known one another, and like what i said before,
it's going to be many many more years worr..
i'm glad u came around..((:
evil girl. ur exams have ended.. but,
wait for me ok? i be done soon tooo!
Love ya for being ya! ((: *hugs.
and jojo loves octopus.. so will eat them up for you!
grinx.. so please dont worry about the octopus anymore ok!
((;

and dd leeee! thank you for lunch delivery..
soggy but nice.. ((:
and full of love..
thank you.. =P

2009-04-14T08:44:00.002+08:00

for the past couple of years in uni, i have been either studying in hall or at bukit merah's macD, but this last sem, i wanted to study at home.. but the long weekend that just passed kinda of confirmed that i can no longer do what i do when i was in secondary school or jc whereby studying at home wasnt too big an issue.. perhaps due to the fact that i havent really been home much for the past 3+ yrs..my room is half invaded by my lil bro. and perhaps too, due to the fact that they havent seen much of me at home.. when i am back home, everything seems to be a breeze.. i wake up at 11 when i usuallly wake up at 8 when i am in hall.. haha. haha when i wake up, i have breakfast waiting for me. settled.. then i'd do what i always do.. which is to browse newspapers.. haha. then after which watch a little tv.. then i'd feel sleepy again and off to nap i go.. when i wake up from my nap, i see lunch! hahaa.. then i'd entertain the dog a little.. and by then it'd be like 3pm.. then i switch on my laptop, check my emails.. all these done on my comfy room with comfy aircon.. and oMg.. looking at the dog slp makes me feel sleepy again.. then not too long later dinner is here.. i seriously think i am too well taken off at home.. hahah! DO YOU realise there's no mention of me taking out my notes to study?? it's cos the bag is still sitting at one corner of the room! conclusion, i should not attempt to study at home! hahah~ so wrong... =X

well here i am before 9, already in mse lab.. with notes on the table.. not that i started studying.. but then isnt it a stark contrast than when i am home? haha! ((:

on a heavier note....

i feel the pain when i realised that you've been crying for the past few days.. one part of me feels happy that you are finally breaking out of this.. and you no longer need to be locked in something which i dont see a future in. but seeing how much it pains you, make me bleed. u know i always want the best for you only... i'm sorry i no longer am the joanne you can turn to whenever you wanted. blame it on me that i never really tried to find out more about you.. how you're doing and all. but in any case, i hope that you'd take care of yourself from now on, no matter what happens. you will find better. ok? it's no longer the pen and paper days where we could write long long letters and you know how joanne doesnt say how she feels over the phone or face to face..but.. if there's anything.. i'm still around kk? take care chewie.

good luck all for your upcoming papers! jia yoU~

*hugs. all for you, my dear.

2009-04-07T09:10:00.000+08:00

an hour away from my last quiz in my university life...
AND.. i'm so having butterflies in my stomach.. ahhhhH!!!
all the best jojo.. hah~ you can do it! zzzz
such positive spirit from me.. so unlikely. =X

2009-04-06T23:00:00.002+08:00

it's QC quiz tomorrow..and it's the last quiz in NTU.. whoa. time flies. haha.
all the best peeps... ((:
and my dear wendy.. your nightmare about me..wont come true ok! (:
how can i ever get pissed off with you?
((:
shoot that lousy nightmare down ok?
*hugs*
thank you, for being around, really..it's been 10 yrs.. (:
and many more yrs to come! ((:
love,
joanne

2009-04-01T12:49:00.002+08:00

in the once-in-a-while-feel-damn-lousy mood...
let's hope it all passes really soon ok? =(( haiz.
report is submitted..
here comes the exams..
jia yoU!

2009-03-23T20:18:00.002+08:00

i realised something..
i am a beef lover...=X
and i especially like the dip beef slices into boiling water and eat kind of beef..=X
haha SO! next time if u wanna ask me go steam boat or what! must make sure got such thing k...!
haha.. right right i am joking... i just happen to be in a beefy mood today..
=X sounds so wrong.

ah bai.. when are u coming to visit gan ma again?

2009-03-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

hi world...
went to have dinner just now and saw this deaf mute kid.. having dinner with his parents.
it suddenly dawned on me, what does everything feels like in his life..? is it all quiet? or even peaceful..? but is it even peaceful because the noise that probably exists come from the internal struggles in the heart n mind? but in any case, he looks happy, and i wish him well. (:
try to keep in mind, that i am a fortunate one... even as things dont always turn out the way i want them to. but then again..isnt it just fortunate enough to be living? needs to find the courage, to face the world...

love,
joanne

2009-03-18T20:58:00.002+08:00

submitted my report draft to prof loo today.. sudden relief...
yet sudden comprehension..that there's still so much out there waiting to be done.
PV quiz...ens presentation.. qc quiz...exams...
sigh..not much time left..but just abit more to go...
but the mind's thinking.. but the heart and hands refuse to do the work..feeling so nua. =X
looking forward to the end..of exams...
then grad night...
then..phuket...
jia you JOjo!

2009-03-18T08:18:00.002+08:00

at long last, my first draft to the supervisor is ready for submission! well to be honest, it really isnt the first draft with the many many times that i have editted it..thanks lots weili.. i know.. that i dont appear to appreciate it, but deep down.. i do. haha i just dont know how to express myself can? i'm not sure if the draft is good enough actually... albeit very last minute.. but in any case.done.. need to go bind it up and submit later on..
next up.. PV quiz and QC quiz...argh...it's a never ending thing isnt it? ha~jia you guys. take care!

2009-03-17T15:10:00.002+08:00

8days 'quoted' me in saying that ice cream is a happy food! hahah!
i seriously think so! =X just like the other coursemates of mine.. who will randomly go like..
let's go eat ice cream...and off we go to mac..for ice cream cone..sundae or flurry... haha.~
it destresses me for that moment. and bliss follows.

i love ice cream. =))

2009-03-16T19:32:00.003+08:00

ok nightmares dont really come true.. =X
that i concluded from the meeting yesterday.. haha~ =X
but in any case.. take care ya.. ((:
went for dinner with avril and avril's random friend weijian. haha

think fatigue and the lack of time is something of the norm lately.
hardly enough time to do the things that need to be done..
hardly enough time for the people who matter.

but i still care..
and still love. haha~

double choc famous amos..
yummm.. sudden bliss.

take care.

2009-03-15T11:08:00.002+08:00

good morning world...

2009-03-15T02:50:00.002+08:00

why does everything seem to go wrong at the same time?
last night i had a lousy dream.. (lee lee i forgot to tell you)..
haha. something so wrong. yun suspects its FYP stress that's getting to me...
i dreamt that i quarrelled with my mentor over FYP, cant recall what's the issue..
in it, we were quarreling so hard, i ended up crying.. haha~ amazing..then somehow avril, i duno why she popped out..came in between to stop us...when i awoke suddenly from avril's interception, my eyes were kinda damp...i dont know if i had really been crying in my sleep man..sigh. maybe it was an indication that something had gone wrong or set to go wrong?
and guess what happened today?
i got around to editting my report..and when i plugged my thumby in, i realised that the folder i have saved all my SEM images were in it was being quarantined cos virus was detected in that folder..OMG. can u imagine how i felt at that point in time? i really seriously and honestly felt like crying..that was over 40 images of SEM! and joanne didnt have a back up.thankfully i have great friends with great brains and i finally managed to restore the images...with no hiccups so far.. sigh.. things cant get any worst can they?? OmG la..
i need to find back the composure.

thank you for ben ben..

*hugs.. i love you*

2009-03-14T10:40:00.002+08:00

and so the tickets have been booked as well..which means..the phuket trip is confirmed? =)) i'm so looking forward to it.. meanwhile. i need to do the editting of my report.. focus on the remaining of the semester... and get everything over and done with...Busyyyyy....!

chak chak~ haha! it's kinda of settled..=) let u know more ok! hahah~ see when u coming again then i let you know.
wendy! haa i havent got ard to googling that thing..so..=X let's hope for the best haha!

maybe age has certainly got me to think into things so much much more.. no longer that selfish anymore.. no longer that impatient anymore...and thinking more about the things that i really really want.. so much more. like what i told yun yun.. signs of age... not trying to say that i'm becoming very matured in thinking or what..maybe just slightly more...

and i was telling * that.. go with what the heart wants ba... even if you dont get it in the end, at least you know you've tried right..you have the right to your own happiness..and the decisions all really lie in your hands.. Is it going to be the right decision? ask yourself... =)) but meanwhile..maybe we really should focus on the more important.. the graduating properly part! =) haha!

*hugs.

2009-03-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

just met up with steven n violet for discussion.. booking the tickets tml...once violet's passport is available!=) and booked the hotel today.. i'm so excited! =)) phuket here we comeee! haha i anticipate lots of fun! just the 3 of us..!

advisory note:
please book ur tickets early..especially by budget.
the price shoots up within the week!

2009-03-09T09:52:00.002+08:00

post number 333?
haha. right.
in mse lab already, with a mad rush on my report.
but need some sort of entertainment... hah~
now that online streaming for mediacorp radio's channels is no longer available, and even safra's radio channels..i have to bring my earpiece along... and..here in mse lab.. reception to 883 or 933 is bad..so the next clearest channel that i could obtain was class 95.
then i realised how entertaining class 95 can be.. here i am listening to the station, typing my report...and smiling to myself.. hahaa. highly entertaining la!
i miss the music on 883 but ya class95 is damn funny.. well shall make do with it till then.

i guess at close to 23, one starts to think a little more than before. one become less tolerant to certain things, and the patience run low. am i becoming less accomodating or am i just thinking more and more? i dont know...

and..panic is in the air.. the pace is quickening. i cant catch up.

2009-03-07T16:33:00.002+08:00

some personal thoughts..
has it been increasingly difficult to manage stress these days?
certain incidents have occurred lately...that questioned me.
What led to such incidents?
Can nothing be solved rationally?
there was a probably a time where i probably thought that death could solve anything..
but the idea probably doesnt really appear too strongly that i remember vividly.
there were rash and irrational moments in this life of mine. too many failures that i can hardly comprehend. but i got over them. probably due to the support of the people around me, or simply because, i havent seen enough of the world yet..or maybe just because, i need to believe that..success will come one day. i cant fail all the time right?
yes. i fear.. i do fear more failures, but i will hang in there..
there's so much more.. right?

fyp report is due soon. panic. will panic keep me going? hahah.
jia you everyone.
we can do it.

2009-02-18T21:36:00.001+08:00

sometimes all we need is a little encouragement.. =((

2009-02-05T17:59:00.002+08:00

in lab now..waiting for time to pass...sigh. Lab is becoming more n more like a vacuum cleaner..having a meeting tomorrow I hope it all turns out fine.. Panic in e air.. Someone teach me how to stay calm. I'm suffering from final year depression Haha... Bleah..tired. after graduation I'm going to slp for all I can man.. Haha right...wish me well for fyp..and in job searching...lucks joanne..

2009-01-15T11:17:00.001+08:00

love my e71. Haha..cos while here I am in lab centrifuging, I can go online and blog... Something that I didn't really bother to yan jiu in e past... Haaha.some feeling I have now. Maximum panic. Sigh.. All the best to me... Haiz

2009-01-13T00:24:00.003+08:00

havent been around for some time already.. i hope everyone's doing really well!=))
time flies... i've been in NTU for 3.5yrs already.. doing my final semester and final yr proj at the moment.. in no time, whoosh and i'd be thrown into the working world, and into a new phase of life...
right now.. my mind is silently screaming out for help.. i need the motivation to do my final yr proj! i need to make do with whatever little results or no results that i have.. somewhere somewhat i know that it's not time to give up or anything like that.. i cannot turn away when the journey is ending. i need to carry on. i need to find something to keep me afloat.. joanne, jia you!

to my boy.. thanks for tolerating my nonsense..for giving in to my nonsense all the time.. haha~ luP you lots! it's sometimes the little thoughts that go a long way.

2008-11-28T16:27:00.002+08:00

suddenly realised how inter-racial marriages in Indonesia are such a no- no thing. my chinese catholic indonesian cousin has been together with this malay guy for four years.. and finally, they have decided to get married.. alright all along it has been a hush hush relationship, but even so, for me, even if i heard of such news, i would be happy! i mean, a happy couple are finally going to get married. they can accept each others' differences, find happiness with one another.. i know parents and family members have some say in one's marriage..but at the end of the day, the union is still between the both of them! what's wrong with inter-racial marriages? What the couple need right now is the blessings of family and friends, not discrimination or whatsoever. There has already been one inter-racial marriage in the family. things being ugly at first, but eventually accepted. Why must they allow the same situation to occur again. A marriage is supposed to be a joyous occassion, the union of 2 persons in love. I know i have no say, just stating my opinions here..but i hope that eventually, they will be able to get the blessings from my side of the family. well each family has their own set of problems to deal with, and i have to say this, i am already more fortunate than most people are.

ok, done with my random ramblings of the day.. take care people! (=

2008-11-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

hello world!
(= i'm back! it's been some time before i found time to blog.. exams are finally over.. one year since i last took exams then went on IA.. well i have to say that it's a good feel that it's finally over, for now... but means..FYP continues! I highly suspect i'd be doing something similar to starting all over again.. maybe not to that extent..but it has been some time.. i cant really rmb much of it.. =( think wei li will kill me.. so will joachim.. sigh.
ok the papers were killers... in my account.. but exams have never been easy for me anymore since jc.. sigh. cant seem to remember much of what i read anymore..and so it seems..i know that they say as long as i've tried my best, it's enough.. but.. study so much, so hard..but still. =( enough said.. let's get on with the unhappy things. ha.
EXAMS are over for now! jump jump jump! went to raffles city with another 8 coursemates today.. for lunch sit down n chat..it has been some time sia.. haha! but stone...stone.. stone...joanne is tired. the long hours as 趴地虎has taken its toll on her.. bah..
ok.. going to jio as many people out as possible the next few days before i start on FYP again.. need to relax one corner for abit.. i'm going to miss some people..especially those who are going to graduate this semester.. * =(( . but all the best.. find a job real soon! (:
shall blog again soon! take care everyone!

2008-11-07T00:12:00.002+08:00

叛逆..haha i guess that's one of the main reasons... wanting to go against. but otherwise... it's passion..doing something that i yearned to be doing... i dont know when the cat will be let out of the bag..or ignorance is being feigned but till then..

exams are around the corner..less than a week to go..everyone...must jia you ok? (: those who are leaving this semester.. work harder!!your last exams alr! (: blehhh.

went to catch avenue q w vril yik n violet... really nice musical..must catch it if you all have the chance ok? though i finally understood how come it's NC 16.. really had some crude content..*stunned* hahaa~

my parents n lil bro has returned from bengkulu.. other than my lil bro having diarrhoea on duno which day i guess they had fun.. ? exchanged smses with lil bro.. got into the triple science combination for sec 3... congrats man.. though i always pour cold water... hahaa.. i always believed he is damn smart.. (of cos la...he's joanne's brother lei)..hahahaa...

late..going off to bed..i know...another random post..

love...or waste or time... it's a fine line in between..
but you're* worth the time...

2008-11-01T17:49:00.001+08:00

已好久没有更新部落格了。。
虽然很多感言，但因忙碌而‘忽略’了这里。
用华文的理由很多，但在此不方便透露。想知道来问我吧！
哈哈。相信此刻只有男友只道原因。
也已好久好几没用华语沟通，请原谅错字与用词不当！
最近发现其实很多思想很不成熟。。可能我没资格说他们，但是这是我的想法，不认同的人,too bad. 很多人可以为感情付出一切，也可以因为一段断了的感情而不折手段。
‘你’的一举一动已暴露了你那丑陋的一面。很庆幸你只不过是陌路。我想对你说的是，我不会在你面前做戏。也不会伪装为你的朋友。每个人都有个的脾气有限，别怪我人狠心。
life's been ok..how's yours?
(: joanne wants you all to know..that she's thankful for the many wonderful friends..(:
to vril n yun who has been listening to my complaints lately..(:
and buddy yip...for your msges..(:
and..whoever matters to her..(:
wen, chak, ah bai,...=P
i miss 04/03
work hard for exams everyone!

and..
darling leeee...hahaa
i not 霸道ok！haha. complaining to you and getting your fridge filled up with chocs for me..makes me feel..very 幸福! yayness. hee.. *hugs <3*

2008-10-10T18:54:00.002+08:00

whoa.. my blog is growing dust already.. not that many people read it in the first place... but probably a short entry before cobwebs start to grow.. getting more and more difficult to find time to blog.. hah~
hey world, how's everyone out there??
i know it's probably a never ending cycle of lectures-fyp-lectures-fyp now...where there's practically no time for anything n everything now..but everyone do take good care of yourselves k?
have been in this state of...lost..but fight on joanne fight on! it's less than a yr to grad...jia you you!
randomness...
but there's a couple of impt dates to look out for other than exams and quizzes...
17 oct
18 oct
31 oct
1 nov
and my parents n lil bro are going to indonesia end oct...means hall is going to be my home for close to 2 months.. hmmx.
happy birthday to the october babies! hahaaa

with love,
joanne

2008-09-20T18:36:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my mum's 53rd birthday. it had been some time since we celebrated either parent's birthday with a cake. dad's birthday is next month.. keyan, u and gor's turn to buy cake hor.. =P and after all these years... realised my mum does act cute.. lol~ let me put up her picture of her trying to blow the candle. she didnt want to appear old, so we only put up one candle. lol~

see my mum also know how to act cute one k...lol~

that aside..

i realised that negativity has once again found its way back into my life. i feel stupid... that no matter how hard i worked, i dont see any results. it's a painful realisation and it has it has impacted me hard. i just don't seem to be able to do well in anything. i feel lousy. i know i have already come so far, and there are other people who are having it worst off than me, but what gives me the right to complain...? =( sigh~ i dont want to be a disappointment, but... i cant help it.

feeling lost.

and helpless...

2008-09-08T04:57:00.002+08:00

good morning world,
=) slept really hoping that i'd be feeling better by the time i wake up...
but...my nose has yet to stop leaking...and i feel a slight cough coming up...
sigh sigh~
let me go blog a little then go on to study...(hopefully)
hahah since i cannot get back to sleep, i shall attempt la..
maybe cos it's past the optimum no. of slp alr...
there has been a sudden increase in the number of ants crawling all around my table..
so irritated by them. haha~what's making it even more irritating is that i cannot find the source of these sweet loving creatures. no killing, just using the scotch tape to niam them.. sounds friendlier right..
met up with ziyuan for breakfast yesterday. as usual, i enjoy my usual chattings with her..though it was a short one since both of us were rushing for time. but it's always enjoyable=) i'm glad that you're having a wonderful life out there... as for a guy, no hurries in getting one la! hehe.
some times, it's not cause i want to be selfish. i just want to make sure that the decisions made are for the best. there's no time for regrets. not that i dont trust, but in making important decisions like that, there really isnt any room for error... (: no avoiding. when the right time comes, i'd let u know. (:
hmm.
hey wendy... how's your computer..? i havent seen you around u know.. take care k, if u ever see this...

sometimes, in life, we just miss one another. crossing just right next to him/her without noticing. someimes, it's just being at the wrong place at the wrong time. just wait and see. keep on believing.

i heart you*

2008-08-23T21:58:00.002+08:00

pissed off...
who gave you the right to hurt me like that?
sigh...='(
that's no way to show support or respect for me ok?
damn it...

we all need a little hug sometime....='(

2008-08-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

i'm back home! =)
tiring week it has been for me..
congratulations to the new 9th Committee.. =) and wishing you guys all the best in the new term to come!
hmm, think there's half a million things that i've missed out this week. so i better catch up, like seriously..
i realised one thing recently, that no matter which route i choose to embark on, i always end up in the same destination. It isnt the best thing that should happen, but more often than not, there's nothing that i can do..=(
some things just cannot be forced...=x

2008-08-17T19:36:00.002+08:00

this is a more than late post already.. haha.. the above is taken during the perhentian trip with the MSE club com members n steven. ignore the timetable at the bottom right.. used that as my laptop's desktop backgrd. Didnt save the psd file..so..zzz let's just ignore that part of the picture.

ok.. right it's all part of the 'joanne thing'. thank you everyone for making it such an enjoyable trip for me. =D loves*.

school has started, and it's coming to the end of the term as FC for me already.. Best wishes to whoever is taking over me! =D i'll pass down whatever i know.. to the best of my knowledge...and school's still fine for me now.. first 2 weeks have past..

this semester, i have embarked on something that i've been wanting to learn for a long long time. i know it's probably not too smart to review it on the blog..cos of certain readers.. haha but i guess if you want to find out, you can always ask me! =D wish me all the best! dont worry for i'll be careful..

so many things have happened over the past couple of weeks..obviously sincei i havent been updating to close to one month already.. i remembered the last post with me ending off with 'brb on the unhappy issues', but i never really got around to returning to them huh.. well.. it has all been mixed up.. so i dont know how to start..

to wendy! thank you for listening to me complain all the time.. i know i probably am in this state of denial.. but i seriously dont know how i should be complaining.. sorry. seriously you can go on and complain about how much you dont like him cos i totally wont mind. i know you only want the best and it's something in you that's screaming out..your alarm bells are ringing.. i understand...

i dont know what will happen from now on, but let's really hope that our alarm bells are faulty. sigh. and i'm sorry, for not able to be there..when u need me. but.. ring me or sms me k.. i'll really try..!

i guess.. life is that unpredictable. you never know who will appear suddenly.. in the most unexpected ways. you can never really judge a cover by its looks. catch who you want along the way. there's no right or wrong in any r/s. go and try out what you want.. i know it's probably not as easily done as said... but go all out.

good luck to those taking 4525 quiz tml! jia you jia you! best to me too!

2008-07-21T15:21:00.003+08:00

supposed to meet my manager avril, daniel and a few others for badminton now..but the rain is so huge, i think i have problems reaching there dry... and you all know how joanne is a non-umbrella girl. =P so.. here i am, stuck in hall 7, trying to reach src dry. this is an issue nw, cos i no longer stay in hall 1. which is damn near src. but i have no complains.. really. =)i like my cosy little room now. =P

anyway,here's a picture, of me and my colleagues at fels...

so instead of many many pics, i decided to put them all into one! hahaha=)

think i shall make an effort to take the shuttle bus over to src to meet them first. =) nvm the rain i guess. =P

brb on more unhappy issues...

2008-07-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

hello world!
today marks the last day of work in keppelfels.
i've been there for 6 months and 5 days. almost comparable to the longest period of time at cpf.
5 months as an attache, one month as a temp clerk+ as a temp clerk..
leaving is sweet sorrow in this case. 6 months, true friends made indeed.
thank you everyone in steelstock and warehouse4 for making the time such an enjoyable one for me. and people like arjay, bright, tay, gareth. thank you. if i do come back in a yr's time, you guys will definitely be the people who i would like to meet again. 6 months on, i'm going back to school, leaving behind a whole bunch of wonderful people. something sweet about leaving is the fact that maybe i will shed some weight...cos these people really feed me well too! hahaa..and leaving behind all the politics...well, i know this is inevitable in any environment. special thanks to hani, shidah n sab darling. you guys made me cry like 5 times today lah! thanks for everything. sab darling, dont so upset over me leaving, we'd be in touch right! i will post up the photos soon!

on a different note, this is an excerpt for wendy's blog.. i hope you dont mind babe...

"lowly MARRIED men flirting.
insulting the true meaning of a marriage.
plus, married and they have kids.
flirting with us.who do you think we are?
impressionable young girls that you can take advantage of?
have you ever spared a thought for your wife?scumbag."

she sounded really pissed off. haha~ i think i can understand why this entry...
but, hey i think this doesnt happen all the time right?
dont lose confidence in guys cos of this k..
i cant say for sure, that i am really confident in any relationship, but giving trust to the person who loves me, makes it all easier.
i have seen both types of guys, the ones who go out flirting, and the ones, who really love their girls.
but it's true if they've let you down once, you will tend to be more wary.
and guys, dont blame the girls for being suspicious, if u hv disappointed them before.

my fav boy, is moving on in his career, jiayou k dar..muackz.
it's been a long long time since i posted...i duno if anyone still visits, but i want to let you all know, i miss all of you. Hugs~

starting on my FYP soon...
i should.. jia you everyone, for the final yr to come..

2008-06-09T20:41:00.002+08:00

hello~
think most people should have ended their attachment by now...
but i'm extending as a temp for another one month or so...
think it'd be good for me to earn that few extra dollars...=D
more or less planned out my timetable which i want next sem....let's hope enuff i get it.
joanne needs to really really work hard or else she dun need to graduate liao..
i hate to say this, but over the years, i kind of feel dumber n dumber...
results slipped ever since JC and it doesnt appear as though i am able to pull up much, but in any case.. i will work hard hard..jiayou jiayou! at least i should make me proud of myself. =X
i was looking through some blogs lately..then i realised something so familiar..some times when we seek help from others, we tend to forget that these people are under no obligations to help. sometimes unknowingly, these people actually start to feel as upset as you are even if the matter dont really concern them. then when they realise that they put in so much effort to help you..but in the end you chose to give up, they will be utterly disappoint.. yes it's true, people dont wish to help those who wont help themselves. Its an irony...unknowingly, it's actually a cycle... it falls back on you eventually. i guess the really 'highest level' is when you help someone, not wanting anything in return, and no matter how these people may choose to view the help you render, it doesnt matter, cos all you want to do, is to help them from the bottom of your heart. i dont think i have been able to reach anywhere close to it. hah~i guess i was also one of those who didnt hold on to the hands offered to me when i was down in the deepest pit last time.. more often than not, i chose to sit down there at the bottom, waiting for day to see light.. when i see a hand stretched in to pull me out, i chose to ignore...and yet some times when i try to climb on my own, i ended up bruising myself more than ever.. staying in there forever. but things do change.. and believe in it. no matter how difficult something may appear to be, keep believing. miracles do happen.
some times, words can be so harsh. many a times, as much as you dont mean what you say, it just slips out of your mouth... give and take bah~ leave the knives out... and put a little sugar, it doesnt really hurt that much no? am sorry to those whom i've hurt with words. i know it can be painful.
you know, even the best of friends can one day become enemies... and even the best of friends will leave you in the lurch one day... i used to believe in forever friends, but maybe not anymore. hahaz.
this is yet another very random post with ideas running everywhere, pardon me though.
*i think i am falling ill....oh man.
oh..and i think i am a 幸福little girl. =D i had mac breakfast this morning...*blissful* hehehee...smuacks! <3>
take care everybody... joanne misses alot of you...

2008-06-04T21:32:00.003+08:00

hello world, =0
i havent been here for some tim e alr..
another very random post i'm going to have here..
IA is supposed to come to an end soon on 7th June, but guess?
i'm extending my service with keppel as a temp.
=) happy in the sense that i wont be leaving these people at work so soon

and i have come to one coclusion in recent days...when i have my own kids in future, the last thing i really would get for them would be those squeak squeak shoes..just the other day i was on the mmrt train... this little kid was jumping all the way from boon lay station all the way till toing bahru where i alighted.. can u imagine.. the noise from all his jumping on the squeak squeak shoes +the squeaking noise from the train carriage... whoa, max noise level up! hah.

hmm i guess the theory goes on, that what will go wrong will go wrong. and whatever meant to be will be.new relationship builds, some thought to be strong fail. but in the end, life goes on, whether youl like it or not. alot of things dont have to be said.. just need to put your heart in and feel it bah... some friends, despite being away from you for some time, when u meet them again after some time..you just feel like telling them everything, as though it was just yesterday that you last met her. some people you know for a long long imte, but at a flick of the finger, everything goes down the drain. some things dont need a reason to happen.

=)having this lab safety talk and quiz tml.. took leave for that and to settle some things at finance office side. then i'm going to meet my long 'lost' fren yuan! hehe*excited*

for a change, i think i have started to look at things at a different anf\gle these days.. is it because i have grown older or something along that line? haha i duno for sure. but i know for sure, anything can happen, whether you like it or not...

when u fall down, learn to pick yourself up.. maybe it's late, but it's never too late...
last week has been a sad week, but we all move on. take care sham, take care fit, you guys will be missed.

i still like that *tinkle in your eyes... your pretty smile. =D

2008-05-25T18:39:00.002+08:00

hi world,
i'm back. =)
it's 2 weeks more to the official end of IA...
shall start planning on what i really want to do after IA ends.
dont think i will be looking for any jobs or whatsoever...
maybe start on FYP or something...
i feel old suddenly...
i mean it's going to be my final yr... and whoa. =X
hahaz.
recently there were some issues with some one.
i guess that's it.
i thought guys always put their egos ahead of other things...
but i think this one person has none. some things i just cannot accept, tolerate
all the best.

randomness.
fellow-ia-mates...
jia you!
take care everyone.

2008-05-20T21:11:00.002+08:00

hi world...

it has been at least a month ago since i last blogged...

no longer updating that often...

for all those who want to know how i'm doing...

here's how i look like now..

still happy and glowing! =D

it's coming to the end of IA... and the past couple of weeks have been quite interesting..

thanks sugrin for the opportunity to step out of the office for the past week.

it has indeed been enriching.

seems like the world is having a harder time than me..

with all the natural disasters happening around me, i guess my life is fortunate alr.

world, you need to be stronger.

there're so many people that need support.

more updates on my life..

coming soon.

2008-04-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

something in those eyes...tells me you are in love with me....i think i love you too.
Xiaobai, love you! okok..enough enough..for those who know who xiaobai is, =) for those who dont. hahaz. i will reveal some day..
anyhows,
had an early birthday celebration with ex-rmie-to-be chak and als.. =) yay. i hope that massager works for your mum as well for you. =P and i hope you liked the mango thing and the dinner...meanwhile good luck for your exams k? and your driving...heh your favourite rmie yong yuan support you! i know 23rd April is between 2 papers... so you study hard in the room while i get you dinner that day k. dont tell me you going out to celebrate. hahaz.
went to batam with als and colleagues after work on saturday...not too bad a trip but als n i ate and ate and ate. wrong, but hehh..next time we shall go for massage and stuff, but let's stay overnight or something there...
i have this sudden impulse to start exercising again, lose those fats bulging from everywhere...i hope so. =X
randomness..but i just felt like blogging...
in any case...
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY to my little bro Keyan.. hope you enjoyed the duck rice! and the doughnuts! =D jia you for exams...make sure you do better than your sister in studies k! =D
and i know my MSE frens are having exams too...lucks k people?
cheers.
=)

2008-04-02T21:52:00.003+08:00

with the rising cost of single rooms, i have decided to do away with the idea. =X and i think there's this very high chance that bai and plopper will get to meet one another. no? =P
have been busy lately..no time to blog.. so no updates. fell sick and got well again, having some issues over and again... but most importantly, spending lots of quality time with my other half. yes i am happy. very happy. even dinner can be so entertaining. ok i know we two are like 2 small kids but haha we like=D. thanks darling <3.>
some dedications:
to my 0403 gals..when are we meeting up? good luck with exams..and u know joanne loves you!
to yun, han, wen, woods, vivian, etc etc, see ya all soon k! haaax! jia you to those having exams!
to wendy..stuuuupid chewie..havent met with her..i miss ya...
to rmie chak and ah bai.. i'm coming! arrrrrr..
to sze n alan...see ya all back in spore! =D i want my can move CJ7!
to goaty bro-tke lots of care n have lots of chocs k? little sis miss ya! jia you for exams~! pass ya some chocs soon~!
to those who havent been in my life lately, take care.
to my o/r half- i heart you. =) let's psycho mummy daddy together k? then we go batam with my colleagues. =D jia you at work..

it's appreciating simple things.

2008-03-17T22:14:00.002+08:00

aiks my cough is back, though less serious this time but it's gd friend flu came along with it... and u knw how much i hate running noses. and any med for flu usually makes one drowsy, so i did away with it. =X then again, i know i should be sleeping to repay my rest.. but there're certain things which i want to blog about..or rather, many different issues..
i know sadness lives in everyone. some more than others.. some people tend to be harder than others. but i choose to believe that no matter how cold or heartless one seems to be on the outside. i know they feel. these people just dont know how to express themselves. just dont want to show people the soft side of them. i know U feel, and something tells me u arent the type of person of person people think you are. although i know U will never get a chance to see this. But i truly admire U. This U i a colleague of mine.
i'm tired.. zzzz talk abt the rest soon.

2008-03-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

i'm f**king pissed off. Please dont make your piece of shit my piece of shit. You know i dont deserve this. And your words stung on impact. But later i got to realise that HEY. i know very well i have done nothing wrong, and i agree with what wendy said. It's your imcapability to keep your guy. Dont conveniently use another girl as the excuse.

i bought a new printer, and happily trf the old one to my piggy's place. and at the moment we're high on printing our own picrtures. Lol. IT fair meant a new printer, and a new mouse and a $5 headphone w/mic. =)

so many things to say, but i'm tired.

no tears from you Joanne. your tears are not to fall for those unworthy.

darling. i think i need choc therapy. =X (excuse)

2008-02-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

i have a bad bad throat...it hurts each time i swallow saliva. which is pretty bad. my system goes this way, when start to fall sick, it's usually nothing much or really really bad. it has been some time since i last had a sore throat...and this time round, this is bad. *ouch*. and here i am, all alone in hall, nursing a bad sore throat, on a super quiet recess week friday night.=( pray hard i dont get a running nose, cos i hardly do, but once i get it, i take 2 weeks to recover? haha i think i need honey water or something along that line...someone be nice enough to get me some? hahaa
It's Friday! and i had two days off this week for the yearly MSE-IMRE challenge... pretty much a success i would say. i guess some people change when they reach the top.. but that's pretty much a sad thing in life...
so many decisions in life to make. sometimes, you look back and regret the choices you make, but what doesnt turn out right only makes you stronger right? i know one wrong step may just lead you on a wrong wrong path. and what happens if you cannot find the way back to the correct path? would someone eventually lead you on the correct path? or will the lessons learnt on the wrong one give you the experience to find the right way out?
So many people i've disappointed in this life of mine. sorry. i know i'm not very capable. that i fell bad once and could not pick myself up, but i'm surviving ain't i? sorry for the many mistakes i've made, the many wrong decisions i have made. for all the evil i've done.
found out alot of things that shocked me this week. you know how different things would have been if figured out earlier...but its abit late...things could never be the same again.
we make a choice. we're products of our choices.
on a lighter note...
hey shiva! how's itchy and scratchy? =X i want to see pictures of them! =P i know they love you! and tell me you love them too. =)
I wanna play tennis.. go swimming and work up a tan...wait till i get better first.
Hugs.. i miss so many of you...i know i'm not doing enough to meet u all..

2008-02-22T00:14:00.002+08:00

ah, i'm sorry. I dont even know how to comfort myself when i'm feeling down, let alone others. i feel the pain with you, but i dont know how to express myself. i feel lost as well, but i dont know to share. it's heartbreaking...to be unable to do much as a friend. i know i have disppeared from alot of your lives, give me time to come back ok?
recent;y gave away of some of my hammies. i know they will have new happy homes. hey hammies be good with your new owners ok? =D your godma here will rmb you little guys. but i know you are in good hands. I'm sorry to hear abour Baby. when i heard the news, my heart fell apart too, i'm sorry i couldnt say much over the phone. but lBaby has gone to a better place ya? Cheers
you know, it's never too hard to keep a smile on... even if one's aching that bad inside. been feeling emo these days, aRGH. but i be fine. =)

2008-02-18T22:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to shi-va-nannnn..

Happy Birthday to you...=)

2008-02-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

Joanne sings*

Happy Birthday to you...

Happy Birthday to ZiYuan,

Happy Birthday to you~ =)

2008-02-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

man i think i havent been here for a long long time. i kind of feel sad about the life that i am leading now... it's practically like no life to me, and the feeling sucks. it's like being trapped in a bubble with no where to escape.
chinese new yr came and is passing soon. it's close to 2 months into work, and alr i feel like an old lady. big sigh. i feel tired, but all that seems to be most happening is spending time at work, and listening to the jokers at work joke. i must admit that i have really wonderful colleagues. but then in my view, things get so political that it does not feel as enjoyable anymore.bah. outside work, i face a room-mate who prefers to keep quiet just like me, and not take the initiative to talk, just like me.
i have been OT-ing that i hardly get to meet my two saviours chak and ah bai in hall. bai gan ma miss you. and bai, take care of zhu ren for me ok?=D
i miss my course mates. i miss those in spore n overseas.=( i'm getting too emo for my gd =X
alot of things to say, but i am tired. i shall blog more.. soon i hope...=)

2008-02-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

hi everyone...
some updates here.. i lost my phone... yes.. ouch=( my htc touch. lost all my contact numbers as well, so everyone who see this msg, please send me your contacts ok? haiz, i shall not go on to describe how i lost it... want, come ask me kk... stupid me. that's about it. =(

some people just dont know how to appreciate things when it's just around them.. they wait till they lose it before they regret it.. sighness. but that's what everyone do aint it? bahh. sighz i think it's the extent of it ba..

it's chinese new yr ard the corner. how time flies. work at kfels for almost a month liao.. i find it really ok.. and i mean it. just pretty pissed off with certain things and people. it's always like that. talk big, lick boots, get promoted. this never fails to appear in many organisations. the humble pies just dont get recognised. appreciate what i am doing, and dont insult. i can be nice, i havent been mean. but dont try me ok?

looking forward to seeing everyone soon... =( it's sad. to not be in much contact with anyone. bai gan ma misses your smell... promise to see you soon. haha.~ muackzz..

thx darling. <3

take care everyone...

2008-01-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

after so long, joanne is finally going to blog Yayyys. =X i do hope you guys missed me. =)jumps ard.. ok, i admit... work is draining the life out of me... but i am learning, that's what is most impt at this time. =) but i hate office politics. and i dont like to be stuck in between. well, it;s like two different camps... just like hougang..the opposition vs PAP.. lolz. but then again, i just try to do my best. and joanne needs to learn to talk more lahh... bah! hahhaz. people always comment that i like to smile only no talk. my smile nice mah right? right dar dar =P hahz. i know i am going to learn more.. soon. and i will meet ya expectations sugrin. i hope. =) hope everyone's enjoying what they do at work man! if u all want to know, i am currently issuing out pipes...u knw in keppel, they do semis and oil rigs? u know the different different projects will send a request, then i will help to issue pipes out to them. soon i be able to see and learn identify pitted pipes.as promised? BUT u know, at work, there's no such thing as promises. bah.. everyone take care ok! me tired. going off to bed. i miss you. hugs~

2008-01-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

hey everyone!!
after 2 days at work, i've come to realise, i miss everyone back in schOol.. i actually miss going for classes.. and ya IA is not the way i have expected it to be like.. sobs. but it's ok. we learn..i hope to gain enough from this job.. *hopeful*
hehh. 2nd day only and i missed the company bus.. man 179 takes forever to come in the morning.. sadness.. hahaz.
i'm still alive n kicking though.. i wana see all of you soon.. hugs...

2008-01-04T16:10:00.000+08:00

look at this.. iw as on my bed, then turned to look at my dog... and see what i captured! lol... so human being can! she has her head rested on the pillow, sleeping so soundly.. i think my dog here has a ultimate good life... =X and ya in any case, my parents treat her like their little daughter, and i treat her like my little sister.. =X so cute lah!=X dear gou gou, i love you wor...<3>

i'm going back to hall to start cleaning up tml...and i really got to start preparing for IA. so many different versions of smart casual, i think its better for me to be overdressed on the first day.. shall wear short sleeved shirt n pants..LOL

2008-01-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

down to blogging... saw this picture online, and thought it kind of fitted what i have in mind.. i am fortunate i must say... look at the four glasses... i hope my relationships will be like the one on the furthest left.. it's sad to hear why some relationship simply shatter into pieces... some people hold on forever to get what they want... even if they're warned of the possible issues that they may face. some couples iron out their differences. some dont manage to.. some manage to salvage the situation when cracks start appearing, others simply let the cracks propagate...

and i realised, 一直把分手挎在嘴边，迟早会分的。。many people around me have gone through this before...guess it really isnt something that should be taken lightly... cherish those you love...

it's usually those you really love who hurt you.../you hurt people you really love....very easily...

school is reopening soon for uni ppl... and Industrial attachment starts for me next week... goodluck! =x thanks mel n daniel for the birthday gift! appreciateD!

darlicious, get well soon..*hugs*

2008-01-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

happy new year everyone! it's 2008! =) 快乐时光虽短暂但能永远留在心中！=）把不开心的事抛在后头！each year at this point in time, i without fail will look back at the past blog entries. haha. no doubt there will be various up and down points throughout one's life, but let's move on! the wonderful memories will stay, in the heart, but leave the negativity behind right? =D 时间过得真快，转眼间2008年到了。2007 has been a relatively good year for me, i guess? as compared to the previous year? hahaz i made many new friends like bearieee, huat, kaiwen... joined mse club 8th comm, and celebrated my 21st! =) many activities throughout the year which leave memories that i could keep for a lifetime...
in 2008, i want to remain a happy girl...
i wish for you to continue loving me..
i wish for the best for my attachment at Keppel.
i wish to lose lots of weight!
i wish for happiness for all my loved ones, friends...
i wish for health for everyone..
i wish for ah bai to rmb gan ma... and love gan ma as much if not more..
i wish everyone enough of everything they want....
to those going overseas for IA, take lots of care of one another alright.. have great fun wherever you guys are going!
take care...and as usual, joanne loves all of you...

2007-12-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

hello all! i'm back from china! yay fulfilling trip indeed. i didnt buy anything though, but the scenaries from guilin, priceless.. let me take you through my journey, which is going to be a super long one.. =P

19-12-2007

我的二十一岁生日就在新加坡机场，深圳航空，南宁机场，和凤凰酒店度过了。。

the security guard that was standing at the departure hall wished me happy birthday when i went through the departure hall. haha for a while i 冷了一下。。quite shock la.. yep.. the flight onboard shenzhen airlines took close to four hours, and upon arrival in nan ning, the journey to the hotel took another 45 mins. was slightly introduced to the tour guide yangyi and nan ning. then checked into phoenix hotel. not too bad a hotel.

20-12-2007

after breakfast, we set off for a 4.5 hrs journey to 德天瀑布。。it's this waterfall that lies between vietnam and china, can u imagine, i can see vietnam across from where i stood taking pictures.

and this one trip took us the whole day practically, cos it was a 4.5hrs there and return.. and as usual, Joanne liked to 自拍。。
21-12-2007

this was a trip to a beautiful park and the nan ning's 'EXPO'. And we spent several hours again on the road to guilin. =) slept alot on the bus on the first couple of days...

22/10/2007

went to this village far far away where the yao minority lived. very nice scenery along the way..=) interesting traditions they had too..

23-12-2007

this was a day of many new adventures. we went to the caves, and they were several ways to get around. amazing. got to ride this 'kart' look alike thing. haha. and then the cable car.. look at the pictures.. went up the highest mountain in guilin by cable car. admired really scenic views. amazingly beautiful.

24/12/2007

went to visit more places of interest, and a 'preserved' university compound of the olden days. haha.. got to see the examination halls, which was well pretty not the type of place we can imagine ourselves to be in..taking an exam. hahz.

25-12-2007

got around alot on the rivers. toured li jiang on ferry, saw the olden days fishing on the bamboo poles made 'boats' and took lots and lots of pictures. beautiful. as the saying goes, 桂林山水甲天下。i truly agree. things you always thought could only be seen in pictures, appear right before you.. seriously, it takes every breath away from you. =) and on this christmas night, i went to a so-called 'club' in nanning with yang yi, zhang fan and celine. it was an interesting experience. thanks to yangyi and zhangfan for the outing. realised that beer has little effect on me, but that doesnt mean i will drink... haha. and thanks celine otherwise known as xiaoxu for the company that night.

from all the pictures, i guess you all would have figured out that i really enjoyed myself. 可惜欢乐时光短暂。。时间也不会因此而停留。thanks to those who made the trip a wonderful time for me. i recommend guilin! =P

2007-12-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

i had an enjoyable 21st birthday celebration yesterday... =) i'm a happy girl. thanks everyone for making it such a wonderful time for me. i hope u guys enjoyed yourselves too. and i'm sorry for not being to entertain everyone! as expected, some people didnt come but it's alright i know you guys have your reasons.. =) thank you everyone for the gifts and well wishes, the special song dedication from yun han and chak=) the hand-made gift from han, and the many many other things. thanks alot. and to my dear boy, thank you so so much, for the not vv well kept MIB secret...the chalet, the customized cake, LOL. thanks for everything. i <3>

2007-12-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

i know how i shouldnt allow these kind of crap to put me down, but knowing the kind of person i am, most of you would know that this, will no doubt affect me in some way or another. fortunately i still have people around to help me maintain my sanity. you see, being nice doesnt prove to yield expected results. i backed out long ago, realizing that it would only do more harm then anything else.. choosing not to interfere, not to bother, even to ignore. but then the soft-hearted me decided that hey, our paths met, why go to such extent... but this decision to be nice, was a wrong move. wrongly accused, sleepness nights. ended up in an irritated and pissed off me. i dont want to hate you, so do the right thing...enough of this.. shant spoil the entry..
falling sick relatively easily this holidays. the first was a fever after 2 days in the rain during the isg. then now i'm down with a cold and slight cough, watery eyes and all...uRGh. must be the rain and the fatigue...
played a couple of games for isg this time round. unfortunately for me, unable to go further for IH with the rest of the oners.. going to guilin come this 19dec to 26dec. so jia you if we get thru the next round, i dont mind playing IH tennis when i come back! =)
as i approach 21 yrs old, i suddenly feel old.. i hope the celebration on 15 will be a good one. =) yay with the people i love spending the moment with me. yay! hehh =) preparations are on the way...yeppx.
lots of pictures i wanna post... so many many pics in my cam, shalll do it all at one shot when i come back from china kk? =D
cheers all...

2007-12-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

been wanting to blog since i got so much time..but then hahaaa each time i rem, something else will distract me from blogging.. hehe i have been busy ds-liting and reading blogs while in hall, cos have training meeting and ISG, didnt see much point in going home then coming out again.. so yepp.. preparation for my birthday is ongoing, although i really am not doing alot of stuff.. got to thank my mama for volunteering to cook, my older bro for helping to settle my buffet, and my daddy for sponsoring the food=P heh..and most importantly, not forgetting the fav boy of mine... for the booking of the chalet n the miscellaneous stuff. hehe.. u say nothing will go wrong one ah =X hehe.. and also thanks the girls who volunteered to help with decor, that leaves the upcoming birthday girl with nothing much to do...thanks many many..love you all! and oH ya not to forget to mention that i am going to Guilin-china from 19-26 dec...yepz u people must rmb to miss me ok..=P nothing much has been going on lately.. my goaty brother failed his driving.. ALL THANKS to the same reason why i failed my 2nd time.. i mean not totally the same reason, but the circumstances leading to it..dang... i was like what the! but it's alright right bro, there's always next itme. =) cheers. think sophia and chak rmie also going for their tp soon.. all the best yaa=) jia you jia you! havent heard from many many people, guess all busy with their own things...meanwhile i shall go pay my bed a visit, thanks to the wonderful weather=) take care

i realised how fragile life could be...
appreciate.

2007-11-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

mouse for my lappie ( maybe a wireless one?)

a laptop casing/skin for my 15.4 inch laptop

facial/skincare(bio-essence/neutrogena)

hair care products

formal/semi formal denim-looking jacket( havent been able to find)

watch (maybe a formal digital one? been wearing sports watches since duno when)

a RED DSlite (muahaahaha to spend my IA days with)

a big formal bag

salon voucher(is there such a thing?)

small handbag for going out(fits a hp, long wallet, small bottle dslite=x and keys)

earrings(those hook on dangling kinds)

TV-tuner card(usb)

*small and italic means taken*

heh here to blog again...was told to take certain items off the list so that i wont be receiving like many many bags or different watches from different groups of people...=D thanks people, but heh your presence would be more that suffice too.. otherwise if you all headache, can always bao me a big big angpow one u know hehe..cant remember who told me that for my 21st, i should just buay paiseh, what i need jus tell people. lol... well well, as long as you think it's something that's useful and i would likely need it, then i am ok liao ok=D just that no chocolates, no tazzies ok? but i havve ever since added a few more items =D

cheers. yawn yawn, had a good time with the uni people today at chinatown singing..=D round 2 with the jc peeps tml.. sadly i dun reali sing well...=x

2007-11-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

whoaaa it has been a superly long time since i last blogged? and yes i am here to announce that exams have ended.. so happy! though there were less papers to take as compared to the past sems, the papers have significantly taken alot of energy out of me. i guess for now, all i want to do is to have a really good sleep..thank you all those who have played an active role in keeping the sanity in me in these tough times to fight off the battle, thanks to my fav for the neverending understanding of the totally stressed out me and thx esp to those who answered my calls to give me understanding to the simplest of the questions. thank you... =D shall blog a little on the events of the past few days.. exams officially ended yesterday..basically all the papers didnt really go too well. with the past yr papers having almost little relevance.. this time round, i'm praying really hard that all will go well. for now i will also be on a 7 months break away from my books=D yes i will be on IA next semester, hoping that it goes well. meanwhile will also be making an effort to prepare my birthday party... =) will take time off to have a good and well-deserved rest..spending time with my coursemates before they start to fly off for GIP or go to our respective IA companies. And also means i have more time for my special someone=) not having to worry about exams and lects and tuts....
digress off a little... i want to say that people come and go, while there are some people you hope will come and remain part of your life, there are some who wished had just been acquaintances. time goes, people change. and usually when the changes are made, it's jus too much effort to undo. that is especially so when u come and go as you wish. the heart may yearn at the beginning, but eventually, it numbs and forget about it, and then the matters get happily settled at one corner of the heart.. when u decide to treat another person as someone you will go to in need of trouble, and shove aside when you are going on happy with your life, then you should be ready for the restrictions that you may face when you try to move the feelings that have settled in the corner of the heart. eventually, it just becomes stubborn.. and remains settled. how many times do you want to try to stir it? you know, sometimes, it just isnt about both parties putting in effort to change things le.. i mean to keep a simple friendship going, does it really need to take so much effort? i dont blame anyone for the circumstances. it gets irritated when the same thing happen over and over again..and again. i aint going to be putting in any effort, if you want to, i hope it's something significant enough for me to change whatever impression i have for you...
yep... that was quite an amount of digression.. good thing it has been put off till now.. anyway i caught Enchanted with Sze yest..=D it's a superly superly nice show.. ever ever after does happen with the right person haha.. so fairytale..but it's a show you shouldnt miss, beautiful script, mesmerizing music, wonderful ending. yeppz... i seriously wont mind catching it a 2nd time. and just like any other person, i look forward to a happy ending in whatever i do...=D cheers all, do take care and jio me out! i'm free=X

2007-11-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

hi all, rmb the wishlist i have previously? hahaz =X

mouse for my lappie ( maybe a wireless one?)
a laptop casing/skin for my 15.4 inch laptop
facial/skincare/hair care products(getting older, need to look better haha)
formal/semi formal denim-looking jacket( havent been able to find)
watch (maybe a formal digital one? been wearing sports watches since duno when)
a RED DSlite (muahaahaha to spend my IA days with)
a big formal bag

haha have removed some of it and the ones that are smaller, i already have people who are offering to get it for me or i alr have it...=D hee

meanwhile..i am preparing for my quiz tml... and the exams that start next wed... good luck... till then, jia you everyone!

2007-10-27T09:37:00.000+08:00

hmm..abit early, but then since some people have asked... so i shall make a post...=P ok, so to those who are wondering what's on my 21st birthday wishlist, just want to mention that.. no more tazzies for me ok? unless you want to buy a house to house them.. hahaa=X and no more chocs for me? unless you all want to buy slimming pills along with them.. =X although these two are my current favourites, haha but yehh i have quite alot of them at the moment..=D

my wishlist is as goes... maybe not the full one but..=P

a mouse for my lappie ( maybe a wireless one?)

a laptop casing/skin for my 15.4 inch laptop

facial/skincare/hair care products(getting older, need to look better haha)

formal/semi formal denim-looking jacket( havent been able to find)

watch (maybe a formal digital one? been wearing sports watches since duno when)

a RED DSlite (muahaahaha to spend my IA days with)

a big formal bag

OSIM's UZap or its like..( hahaaa time to lose the size)

Dieting pills?

...

hehee to be continued..

jia you with studying

2007-10-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

havent really been blogging lately.. dont exactly have much time for it.. exams are around the corner, i have a presentation next week, a quiz the week after.. panic big time... haiz.. then there's 3002 assignment as well.. have recently sent out birthday invitations and have gotten back quite a substantial number of replies.. thanks people! =D appreciate lots.. =D

i witnessed an accident yesterday while driving out of NTU.. i mean i have seen alot of accidents, but mostly the post accidents state... yep, yesterday was the first time i witnessed the real situation of an accident. fortunately or unfortunately, it wasnt serious. just damage done to the front of a subaru and the back of a hyundai family car.. pieces flying alll about.. it's either that i've been on the road more lately or there is an increasing number of road accidents lately.. people, be careful when u drive alright? =)

jus received news my lil bro topped his class again.. hahaz. is he smart or wad( lucky=X) alright... anyway congrats lil bro...

gota go off for lessons... take care to all...

2007-10-21T08:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st NingNing...

attended her 21st Birthday yesterday.. been attending many many 21st recently... hehe best wishes to all okie! i'll be sending out my invitations too... before the exams...early but yep..need to settle place everything early mahz

read through a couple of blogs lately...

to you, i'm sorry to hear of the break-up. i think guys should learn not to be so petty, if not it doesnt go down very well on them. it should be learning to accomodate and compromise. and giving in a little to the girl wont hurt as long as they are happy, and it keeps the relationship going. i'm not saying that guys should give in all the time(neither should the girls) but simple things, why let the relationship turn sour...and often enough, the guys' ego bring them down.i believe that when mistakes are made,esp a long time ago, it brings no purpose in raising them again, unless you are so keen to spoil relationships..in any case, you take care ok...

beginning to really feel that open blogs free to all access arent exactly where too personal stuff should be shared.. haha. but i guess yep, you read what you want.. if you dont like it, dont read it...

i've moved on, shouldnt you?

2007-10-15T21:16:00.000+08:00

hello world...
havent been updating.. here's something to share...

Dear Zhang Yingyan Joanne,We are pleased to inform you that you have been selected by Keppel Offshore & Marine after the interview.Programme Allocated: Internship @ Keppel [Programme Code : 1641]Programme Scope: 1. Material Corrosion Checks2. Material Corrosion Prevention Programme3. Site/field and hands-on experiencesField & Work Nature: Steel Materials (Site Checks, Analysis, Reports)Pre-requisites: NilAttachment Location: 50 Gul Road S(629351)BY CAREER & ATTACHMENT OFFICE

is this a cause for cheers? i definitely hope so.. so much for the irony that i didnt want to get it after the interview..but i guess its all fated.. so let's stop 'mourning' over it.. the very people who i thought would have gotten the interview didnt.. sigh~ but i shall try to make the best out of it.. 5.5 days workweek, so be it, i'm pretty used to it alr anyway right? =x

mountain of assignments..reports... helpz...

2007-10-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

some of my recent creations.. from the many many photos that i have...

2007-09-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

abit of blogging before i zznngg off to bed.. the recess week has past..jus like that... and it's sunday already... bigger sigh.. there's still so much work left undone..=( stress's building up... and i forsee myself indulging in chocolates again soon..

attended yet another 21st birthday party yesterday.. we're all growing up, arent we..few years back we were still 'little angels' maybe with a little tail =x in school uniform..from white&blue to blue&grey and finally algae green... we have already transformed to one in many colours.. and we start getting our driving licenses, start betting on 4-D=X.. how much we have changed..

it's heartwarming to see that the 04 frenship has not died.. we remain close even after taking off in our own paths 3 years ago.. 04 wan sui! though some people have no doubt left without any news, at least the bulk of us are still together.. it's good to know that there are some people you can continue to suan about her 'blurness'-xinwei... two to mention about their highness when together-geok and huiping.. 2 i can call dardar..wei ning and xw, someone i can talk about her long long hair short short fringe and fingernails about-liping.. someone i can 'irritate' and stand in between her n ning but not angry-leemin... and that forever very lihai teacher-to-be-lishan and the one who has her own car!-sab...love the 04 girls! =)

people change.. we all do... sometimes, we jus have to accept that others will not be the way we want them to be..i mean who are we to determine who others are...=)

on a happier note.. i have a new tazzie into my collection! thanks alot to my <3

cheers...

2007-09-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

dear blog, i'm here to update you again! =X
so many things has happened since a year ago, some good, some bad..
some things linger on forever, but some things just disappear..
changes are inevitable..this time last yr i had rmie chak with me, but now i dont.. had xiaobai to celebrate mooncake festival with, but this yr i dont.. but why dwell on to the past.. at least i know chak will be near me soon, and i still get to celebrate mooncake festival with sophia and gang... =)
it's the recess week, or rather the not so recess, recess week..
for the uninformed..my laptop's mouse died on me.. and one of my frens asked me... huh ur hammie died?? when i put' my mousieee died on me' on my msn nick..lol~ =x okok i shall stop laughing at you..
my favourite recently introduced me to wowtv.com..some free movies online.. and though movies played are abit backdated, but some are really nice to watch..
going klunch with yun han and xuan. =D they are so going to sing for me! =P
alot of things to blog about actually.. but will hold for now.. take care people, and miss me kz?=)

2007-09-23T00:19:00.001+08:00

hi world,

have not been around for some time already.. =X but here i am, to update again! =D before you all miss me too much, here's a picture of me.. lol~ zipaied with ning ning at sab's bdae party.. at blooies restaurant.. whhaahaa..

cannot confirm as of now if i am still going to bengkulu for my birthday.. having just been hit by the 2 7.9 earthquakes, i think my mummy is not too sure if its going to be safe for us.. though everyone of us jus decided that it will be safe already by then.. plans currently are to go there about a week before my birthday and stay there till christmas so it will be about 2 weeks. currently we want to go semarang as well.. so it's singapore-semarang-jakarta-bengkulu-jakarta-singapore... though things are on hold now... i still hope to go..

it's the recess week upcoming but i have lots and lots of things to do.. but it's not unexpected.. well, just have to try to work hard.. =D jia you everyone!

on this note would also like to congratulate MSE Club for having done well in the sales of the Swensens' Mooncake.. good one there friz! and thank you everyone for making it successful!

The IA interview schedule are slowly being reviewed.. so for those who have been shortlisted for interview, wish you all the best! for those who havent been informed, dont worry ah~ hmm..been shortlisted for interview at keppel... people wish me luck ok? u all know how jing zhang i get during interviews and all.. =haiz..

there's been good stuff, there's been bad. let us all take it a little easier.. we dont want it, but it happens.. and once again.. chak and xiaobai, here something for u... AAAAAAAAAAAaarrrrrrRRR. (inside joke) hahaa~ cheers everyone.

2007-09-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

hello all..it's been almost a week since i last blogged. was proven wrong that despite the absence of electives, i am still busy like mad.. the number of project work to be done is a truly amazing amount..have been attending alot of 21st birthday parties this yr, with many more to go.. and i have decided that i probably wont be organising a large scale party..but a simple get together during the dec holidays.. think i will go book a bbq pit at east coast park or maybe have it in hall.. or something along that line... no chalets and such...and there are plans to go to indonesia to celebrate my birthday... yay! birthday+christmas.. wanted something different and told my parents..and they kind of agreed... =) meanwhile i shall save up for organising the party...=)
hmmz.. long way to go, but yaa...
and i have a nice phone now..thanks to dar dar...=D hugs~
cheers all...
and jia you everyone

2007-08-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy girl today... i should be everyday.. =)
lol~ back in hall.. last week has been busy.. rallying, campaigning, elections..
thanks everyone for the support that you all have shown. and congratulations to all who were elected into the 8th management committee..
tutorials are in a sense piling up.. so much that i dont understand..sigh. 3002 is killing me the way that 2008 is.. haizzzz jia you joanne. it's only the 3rd week into school... =x hahz
i look ahead to the challenges that lie ahead.. some things, i already forsee.. we'll see..
take care =D

2007-08-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

dear blog,
sorry for not having update u for so long...=x
i know being busy is no excuse.. but i have even been neglecting my camera...!
but i will try to update it as frequent as possible.. i am not being lazy!
tml is elections day.. i hope all goes well.. what is to be will be. =)
i realise i am someone who always dwell onto the past.. i am in wendy's terms. a worry-wart.. i tend to be so negative that it brings me down..
there's no point in dwelling on, and if u calm down and think about it, maybe things will not be as bad as u view it. this, something that has been trying to get into my mind but to no avail. those who know me well enough will know.
to keep positivity up is something that i havent been able to do.. but i am trying.
hmmz. it's a wonder..hw some people never fail to cheer u up, and some people never fail to put u down..
u will succeed, only if u keep trying...
cheers all!

2007-08-18T13:52:00.000+08:00

i have been busy these two weeks, and it will get busier even the coming week.. but for the passion of it, i will keep going.. learning to time-manage would be something essential. dinner with the 7th Management Committee is tml night.. going to Sakura..the one in clementi.. =) think i am going to drive there? shall see about it...

been busy with the campaigning things.. heard last year they prepared like 500 pieces of things to be given out on election day.. whoa..amazing.. i did only about 300. thanks to dar.. and my board is also up..simple..but the point is there i guess.

tutorials start next week..ouch.. need to find time to do them.. =)

for those who havent seen me lately.. here's me.. hahaa. another one of those zi pai pix as usual.. yes yes i know i am still expanding horizontally..=x but i already cut down on my chocs liao ok! =P hahaa take care peeps. weather has been bad.. so keep warm, and healthy..=D

2007-08-14T21:24:00.000+08:00

just want to thank all those people around who have been supporting me.. it feels good to know that even people i have barely known for long gives me their fullest support.. thanks guys...and to dar, for the upteen times i changed my mind, thank u for supporting me in whatever decision i made. love u..=) there's so many factors to consider to this decision. special thanks to duen sze eric anz for the great support.. and also to han han and yun for being my nominator and seconder..hahaa.. love u guys too. and to rmie chak and wen! love u all...=D hugs...
like rmie said, even if i dont get it, at least i tried..
=)
thanks chak!
school has started, been meeting chak and i am happy =D hahaa..

despite some of the unhappy issues, despite positivity on its down side... u all keep me afloat..
hugs~

2007-08-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

hi all..been busy these couple of weeks... MSE Day 2007 was a success... i guess all the preparations didnt go to waste.. it was a wonderful feeling to see all my efforts..the teeshirts, the banner.. the paperbags.. thank u 7th comm for making it so enjoyable. and for the support throughout the year..=) love all of u to bits =D
i'm still thinking if i am going to run again next year...maybe doing something different would be beneficial for me.. i mentioned i want to join wsc? yupx...
so many things happened this week.. and one memorable thing to mention is my virgin solo drive.. hahaa. =x thanks dar for the confidence in allowing me to handle your car.. i realised i am not that lousy afterall.. hahaa..at least that's what the passengers i had over the past 3 days said to me after realising that i had only been driving for 6 months..i have a good teacher that's why! =P and also my virgin lorry drive... i realised it isnt as difficult as i had expected it to be..lOL..it dint have the trouble i thought i would face... point taken.. i need to try things out...
to ddd, jia you with your new job... =D
sorry i am more unreasonable lately.. but u dun mind right=P hugss...
take care...
i want to find time for everybody, but i cant...
=(

2007-08-06T02:04:00.000+08:00

my year 3 starts tml.. it's a new year, a new beginning.. =) it's going to get busier even..
the past week has been good.. my family won the best family otherwise known as the best og.. =D truly commendable.. great job simpsons! love u guys... traditionally small but wonderful bunch of peeps!
i have a new room-mate... bai, gan ma miss u and zhu ren.. and niu niu.. i havent even got the chance to meet u much.. but roomie..... wednesdays are booked for the both of us ok! since we both have a shorter day on that day.
more updates... till then. tired..=x

2007-07-31T08:34:00.000+08:00

it's my last day of work at CPF Tampines.. oh yeah..after almost three months here, my holidays is almost over.. and school is starting soon.. have been juggling between publicity stuff and work.. and i have come to a conclusion on certain things..i've learnt alot of things... and made a few decisions..
-some people just want to appear that they are doing work, but in actual fact they arent.
-there are also people who wants to act as if they are very lao jiao.. when they are only here for a short period of time..
-and please remember, people are not obliged to do what they want you to, even if it's a favour u are asking of them..BUT it does not make them useless, its a choice they are entitled to make. if they will do it for you, great.. if they dont, then it's just too bad for you. if such simple things they wont do it for you, it either means they hate you, or they just prefer not to do it for you, or that it is not convenient for them..
-sometimes, its better to do things yourself then to rely on others...
-some people, you just dont want to work with them again..
someone asked me if i will miss the people at work having worked here for 3 months.. i answered that i used to take it very emotionally when i had to leave or when people left.. but i come to realise that eventually, most of the people dont remember you..but the temps who i worked with, farhana, jasmin, wani, meow win, victor, pakkin, eugene, hairul.. these are the people i wil really miss.. it's again, all part and parcel of life..
more updates later.. i am still looking forward to 5pm..back to hall

2007-07-27T11:03:00.000+08:00

it's raining outside.. and it's freaking cold inside here.. this seems to happen everywhere these days.. the air-conditioning everywhere seems to be free.. at work, in school.. even my jacket seem to offer no comfort anymore lah~ freaky weather.. it's been raining day in day out... and i realised i have become less tolerant of the cold.. sigh. weakness.

and i realised i really cannot donate blood due to this particular blood disorder that i have.. heh i was bored so i went to wiki for it.. and this is the results of it...

"

Any given individual has two β globin alleles.
If only one β globin allele bears a mutation, the disease is called β thalassemia minor (or sometimes called β thalassemia trait). This is a mild microcytic anemia. In most cases β thalassemia minor is asymptomatic, and many affected people are unaware of the disorder. Detection usually involves measuring the mean corpuscular volume (size of red blood cells) and noticing a slightly decreased mean volume than normal.

Thalassemia Minor
Contrary to popular belief, Thalassemia Minor patients should not avoid iron-rich foods by default. A serum ferritin test can determine what their iron levels are and guide them to further treatment if necessary. Thalassemia Minor, although not life threatening on its own, can affect quality of life due to the effects of a mild to moderate anemia. Studies have shown that thalassemia Minor often coexists with other diseases such as asthma, and mood disorders

"

haha.. it also explains why i easily feel faint when i stand up suddenly... not enough blood going to the brain i guess.. haa..it's fortunately i am usually not alone when it happens...
just had lunch...
your sudden disappearance frightens me...

have been reading a blog of someone i randomly found in my fren's blog..like i said, it's always interesting to find out what's happening in other's life, as well as learn from other people's point of views.. its learning too... i realised too, that i dont have friends whom have stuck together with me for a long time.. the only people i am really in contact with are my jc frens, and a rare number of secondary school friends.. missing out on alot of details in others life.. but yup i know it will happen one day... just want to let alot of ppl know that.. i may not show it, but i really have u all in my heart..-hugs-

maybe i dont want to go join the comm anymore..
i want to do something more meaningful.. not saying that club wk not meaningful, but i want to try something different=D
shall see about it..
cheers all..
HUgs~

2007-07-27T08:48:00.000+08:00

chocolate cravings..
maybe choc fondue or choc buffet...?
once before i cut on chocs?
anyone up for it? =X

2007-07-26T08:28:00.000+08:00

after the meeting yesterday night, i am even plagued with more things to do.. best subcom cert, additional logo, investiture cert.. tickets need to be done out, decor.. taureza u are so better going to be helping me with the stuff. 800 tics. so you get ready to print them at mse lab.. will be starting with the publicity things come next week.. it's going to be real busy.. sigh.. wrong choice to end work that late..but i need the moolah$$.

with alot of things to be bought before i start school again...
to buy list:
-iron +ironing board. enough of crumpled clothes...
-body foam, and maybe shampoo +conditioner too.. the current bottle in hall is depleting..
-maggie, canned corn..tuna.. need to save the moolah..
-new skirt (maybe)
.
dar acc me kz? =X giegie...=D

till later....

2007-07-25T14:58:00.000+08:00

there's something which i have been wanting to blog about...just that it slips my mind each time.. it's amazing how people can repeat the same thing everyday.. each day as i sit here at the singpass counter.. most of the time, i know exactly what the person in front of me will say next.. when u tell them that singpass minimum 8 characters..at least 8 characters.. they will tell you, " minimum 8 ah, 6 also can right..." then i will -__-'' amazing.. then at the end of signing.. they will tell u, what's my singpass huh? then i will be like 'huh? the one u just keyed in is your singpass..' and another thing is, u ask for their ic..then they wil give u their credit card ah, atm.. anything but the ic.. it happens everyday..and a few times at least that is.. haha it's interesting..but still i am looking forward to the last few days of work..
back to school soon.. looking forward to the books? haha.. not.
the next time, i want to look for a non-govt job...see how it feels like to work in other environments.. i tink i have been in cpf for too long.. =x haha. oh but i will get the chance next sem.. i will be on industrial attachment.. anyway i be starting in jan i heard, so i am thinking of making a trip overseas during my 21st.. get daddy to sponsor.. wanna go indo celebrate.. dar come with me? =X so let's hope what i heard is not wrong..
it's 45mins more to go.. joanne jia you!

boredom....

2007-07-25T11:48:00.000+08:00

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$4950.00

2007-07-25T08:07:00.000+08:00

hi all, it's been some time since i last blogged properly.. still dont have the chance to do that now, cos work continues.. and i tried to ask for my last day to be on sat, but they wouldnt allow that cos they cant find replacements as yet.. sigh which means that i am going to have a really tiring holiday..need to start on the publicity work for mse day... mentioning that i tink my banner is going to be delivered today i hope it turns out well.. then the teeshirt too... dang~ no reply from the supplier yet... i hope nothing screws up else reza u be in trouble..(ur recommendation =X)
lots of pictures taken during foc, till i have the time to post them up.. currently my arms are in the process of peeling.. i've got awful looking arms in addition to the bad itch from the regeneration of new skin.. bigger sigh. i tink its a lesson learnt.. in future if i am going to go under any sunlight of that 'tenacity' i will use sunblock.. something i honestly havent been using much of. alright i shall stop being stubborn...dont want to be scare of by roomie's ' your colour is so wrong..'
need to go back for club meeting tonight.. sigh it's a long journey from the east to west..but good company always makes it better. =D
just smsed the supplier. delivery can be done this week. but i doubt i can make it to receive the delivery.. then it cost $15 for delivery... dont knw whether they want to collect or ask for a delivery.. but shud delivery be this week, someone has to be there to rec.. shall check with the others tonight... at 0920 in the morning, i am already looking forward to 1700.. lol..i knw i should stop dreaming a little.
recently someone told me that i am so different online and in person. ya that's really true. i tend to open up to people online more than i do in real life.. it's a problem i face.. i may have half a million thing to say to you when i am online but when i see u in person, it may be a totally different thing.. for me, somehw it feels safer to talk to someone behind the screen, cause when u r online, u dont see the person. and u really need to know me before i go crazy in front of u people.. i take a really long time to warm up to people..so i am really not all that shy... =X right dar?

it's been sometime..
but the feeling only gets stronger.
love, me. =)

2007-07-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

wha long long time since i last blogged..have been away for a week for FOC..tired out man... slept for many many hours already..but still feel so tired..work continues like tml.. i'm working again till the end of this month..still got alot of things to settle on the publicity side.. (sigh..if only u could take a little initiative...i wouldnt treat u this way.) but nvm! happy with the freshies,yooo vanguard gogo! fun bunch of them..things were great from day1..great sun, great ppl..nice sea, relatively great weather, alot of photos, one bad clubbing experience where too many ppl got drunk... basically summarizes my 6days haha! well...=D looking forward to hall camp as well which will be after next week.. take care till later people.. cheerios.!

2007-07-14T08:25:00.000+08:00

today is a sad day.. i mean.. need to rush off after work today..to go home, to do the remaining packing.. sigh.. i cant join my colleagues for lunch, the last day or last time i see them at work... did a file for those i wont be seeing when i come back to work..but...but... my thumbdrive cant open at work.. so cant a couple of others...nvm, i shall send it to them online.. heh...
considering the emotional freak i am, i really hate to see people leave.. alright i know i should have gotten used to it by now, but i dint.. well, maybe then it's good that i dont go for the outing with them.. save the teary scenes... just want to wish all of you luck and well wishes in whatever u venture out to do..and remember the times we had together alright! =D

2007-07-13T08:12:00.000+08:00

it's the weekend again! =D happy in a way, worried in another way.. happy that the week is ending.. that i can rest.. that i am shifting back to hall tml, that i can start purchasing the materials for mse day if the weekend permits.. that i will be going for FOC soon...yay! excited in a way..
BUT u are going away on a holiday... without me=( when the weekend ends.. i am so going to miss you..but on a happier note, at least u chose to go during the period of time where it is going to be v busy for me.. good n bad.. but enjoy urself over there and sorry i cant make it there with you... phuket is going to be great fun for you i hope! =D and no looking around ok.. =x let creative remind you...LOL..(inside joke)
once again i'm blogging here early in the morning... this is one advantage sitting at the reception. hmmx.
went to sakura clementi yest..to celebrate dar's daddy birthday. think this is the best sakura branch i went to.. forgot to take my camera down so no pics.. this sakura is double storey.. the uncooked jap italian western and the desserts/fruits..and level one is the drinks icecream, cooked/fried food area.. nicenice.. hehh. and the best thing about this outlet is that, it's halal.. so can bring muslim friends over as well. yums...
and oH i received a set of perlini's jewellery.. necklace and earrings many many... thanks...love u to bits =D nice nice... will put it on after camp.. dont want it to turn yellow that quickly..
think my life has been boring recently., but blogging is a therapy... hehh.. dont care. =X want to watch transformers.. since it's supposed to be such a good show... lol...dar, harry with me...+D
and i need a new broom, mop for my rm. and clothes clips..
till then, take care everyone..=) see some of u ard camp...=)
and mcj..my souvernier...=) hehhhh~

2007-07-12T11:47:00.000+08:00

to the simple one, stay strong ok my friend?
life wont forever be bad, believe in that alright...
like i was always told, dont hold back to tell someone something just because u feel that it would affect them. it wont, and dont assume it would. more often that not, it keeps their mind away from their own problem...
each problem would have its end.
you dont have to be the best, as long as u put in your best, it's enough.
i know the feeling of being behind others sucks.. but why make urself unhappy abt it,
when u can be happy by knowing that you are good in ur own ways and there are things that u can do that others cant...
i guess it's all about being satisfied about things.
dont be greedy and want to be the best in everything. dont be selfish in order to be the best.
tired..and looking forward to the end of the day...5pm here i come

2007-07-12T08:24:00.000+08:00

took some time for the past few nights to do publicity stuff.. alright i know that i'm left with a relatively big pile of work undone. decor idea is out but materials un-bought. sigh.. leaves me sighing.. lol. think i want to go discuss this with the rest on sunday after the chairs' challenge or something. someone commented that i look very tired doing singpass. i agree.. cause over here at the recept, u sit the whole day.. giving out queue tix and creating singpass.. it is a very boring process. lol.. but i really shouldnt complain..at least my feet are no longer complaining. once again i am looking forward to 5pm.. alright joanne i knw u shud stop dreaming for awhile, it's only 840 now. haa. this sat is going to be the last day for wani and hairul. the bunch of colleagues here are intending to go for lunch after work on saturday, but sat prove to be a busy day for me. geok has her 21st bdae held there.. if i choose to move back to hall on sunday, do u think i will have the time? sighh... maybe not i want to finish the packing on sat so that i can spend my sunday morning with my fav before he flies off to phuket alone... the unpacking shouldnt take too long but the cleaning up may take more time. the room has been vacant for say close to 3 months.. probably more dust than ever ba.. and i hope the body of the dead cockroach has ever since been destroyed... =x if not i will defintely get help =p i'm almost ok with other insects, but i detest xiao qiangs.lol. wad a pests.
oh ya and i havent uploaded pictures of my 1st time at ajisen... lol ok i am mountain tortoise.. cannot ah. but it was a wonderful experience. nice nice food, but high high price.. but i dont regret stepping in for the 1st time.. =D
i used to dislike taking pictures, guess why? cos i always feel that i am the largest in the picture. lol, but i come to realise something, it doesnt matter that i am big, wad's impt is a beautiful heart.. and i know that my smile brightens the days of others.. so joanne will smile more. hehh =x.. =) =) and ever since, i have been taking pix at an amazing rate.. lol. so i dun really have alot of pics ard the timing of pri1-sec4... used to be very conscious of how others may think of me, but no longer.. yeh. i'm a fat but happy girl. lalala....=x.
i'm thinking of joining the welfare services club in ntu next acad yr..anyone interested in joining me? liping?? shan? ning ning?
everyone take care ok... we are less than a month away from sch reopening... ahhh!!
i need to finish up my publicity things... like real soon.

2007-07-11T08:45:00.000+08:00

i think i know what has been the source of my neck aches these days.. painful and sore. it's the sitting at the reception with the head turned at a weird angle towards the computer... this morning the pain just got worst..sigh.. i cant turn my head properly now.. turn off. zzz i'm tired again..slept super late.. doing some publicity stuff...
missing you even before u are going off..sigh~

2007-07-10T08:01:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. i'm left with a pile of publicity stuff to be done when i get back from work each day.. with the event drawing nearer, it no doubts put pressure on me, i want to make it a bang, but it's laid with so much obstacles. just yesterday, we realised that the ppb design that we had werent of sufficient resolution. ya cos i took a couple of pics online and merge them together.and did abit of blending here and there...but the pics were of low res. stupid me didnt realise. i only put together my idea, but poof... sigh... think we gotta change a new design... it wont look good on the ppb... meanwhile trying to look for designs of similar concept...sorry people for the delay.. meanwhile, the booth labels are out, the decor idea is more or less out also. integrate my partner's ideas and mine together should make a good one. i hope. now i am also assigned with making the tickets.. anyone able to help me with the serial no? haaa. other than excel is there other way to change the serial no other than manually? think i need to go ask hairul.. hehH..
tired.. at least its a consolation that i am seeing u tonight... looking forward to 5.=D
take care all=)

2007-07-09T09:28:00.000+08:00

does it mean that when u get into a relationship, u all supposed to lose all contacts with friends of the opposite sex? recently i have this once good friend of mine. let's name him Z. upon getting into a relationship with this girl, he was made to delete all the girls off his friendster and msn. i thought that this was a totally dumb thing to do.. is this the way to make ur girl trust you more.. if u need to do things to such an extent, i think there isnt a single bit of trust. what's the point? i've gotten too used to what you would do when the girl leaves u sad...stop being so selfish to others and yourself... zzZz t told u before i had enough, i truly mean it
take care all...=)

2007-07-09T08:15:00.000+08:00

sunday has passed and here's monday... went to play tennis yesterday it's been a long time since i've been such scorching hot sun haha. but the play was good... tiring but fun.. =) think i'm losing my backhand.. sigh.. trying to get my one-handed backhand properly...ziyuan msged me last night... hee so long never hear from her le..she was in the same class as me in pri 5 and pri6 but then we only got closer when we entered cedar and joined tennis together, so happy with the friendship i shared with her.. i miss her... havent reali been in touch with her for a long time.. sigh.. many atimes, i think of the friends i used to be very close with...alot of whom i am no longer in contact with.. honestly, i miss them. but nvm..they created footprints in my life, never leaving.
i'm so going to start packing tonight.. lots of things to shift back to hall with... hehhh.. jia you joanne...

2007-07-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

chocolate mousse

me and my food hah!

mee siam mee rebus

happy me during fatal indulgence...

i went for my 1st high tea ever today... nice 1st experience, but once enough liao.. too taitai-ish. not my type of place. honestly i would choose to go to hawker centre and get cheap +good food.. haha not say the high tea wasnt good..but too pricey liao..so me being me, took many many photos, all my yummy food, and all the fatal indulgence..choco mousseee yum yum! hahaa and i want the whole world to know! i love my camera! hahaa. i can take pix everywhere i go lah! nice nice.. hahaa...

this inclusive, i not that short hor! just that i one step lower only! haahha..=x

i realised something, i rather be fat than quit chocolates... but i know something, happy jiu hao le! =D going to play some tennis tml...after all the food today, i honestly should.. lol..night ppl..

2007-07-07T08:31:00.000+08:00

i hope the rain goes on and on and on and on. =x so that it would be a quiet quiet saturday morning.. let's not hope too much.

looking forward... to 1pm!

2007-07-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

my favourite bully >.< brought me to the arcade to play tennis..cant play it for nuts...LOL.. realised that i cannot do alot of things that require lots of hand coordinations. =x
watched many many movies this holidays.. shrek, spidey, fan4, pirates, and many many more.. lol.. gmmm..how time flies, in no time, holidays are going to end... then the new semester begins.. and i feel old suddenly, i am going to be a yr 3! OMG. lol so old.
i bought my lil bro a shoe bag today, feel happy. lol. dont know why spend $$ also happy. =D
in support of earth day, let's all wear green tml! =D
looking forward to the weekend...
i saw something on someone's blog... have this to say... if you are into it, then i am out of it. i had enough of you.n never want to have to work with u again. =x such displeasure. hahaa

2007-07-06T08:08:00.000+08:00

i recently came upon this blog...this person has been lamenting about how life with his family was.
something i want to say is that if your family didnt think highly of you, they wouldnt have put so much pressure on you. and if dont share with them, they will never know of the overwhelming stress that is being placed on you. i understand that. take a step back and think about it, without your family, then u wouldnt even be living the life u have now. u go to church, i believe u understand this more than me. i have a defiant sibling, have u not thought of the times you all spent together? thought about what u could do as an elder brother. like i alway said, if you give up on him.. then who can he turn to. if you dont keep believing, how would you ever let him change? i know i am not in your shoes and will never understand the type of pain you are going through.. jia you bah.
i havent been catching up with anyone other than my colleagues. now that i've been 'transferred' to doing SingPass, i hardly get to catch up with anyone le. i know i havent spent enough time with some of my friends, one of whom i know is going thru a hard time battling with matters of the heart. i am sorry i havent been ard, and i wont be i know for some time. at least i know there are people who you can turn to for help. take care alright babe. i know i am a lousy friend. with the pessimism i have for things, i believe i wont be able to give any useful advise at all. and pls, dont assume everyone is happy.
i realised i am easily influenced by the things that other people say. i still recall a time in primary sch, i was best of friends with this girl. then i heard rumours from other friends that she was like talking behind my back and all that...while all these times i have never heard of any.. then i started to back away from her, to become cold.. i never saw her again after we left HIPS but i believe it was a regret of my life. it's sad when someone you truly care for dont put you in the heart. but that's the harsh fact of life, we all know it. to always learn from experience.
to all, its the weekends.
cheers!

2007-07-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

yeah writing is becoming a therapy.. or rather blogging is becoming one..

lol..

i'm waiting for all the logos to be sent to me to complete my banner for mse day, one of which i feel very proud of, i love the design, and i hope it turns out nice in print as well. lavada has never let me down in banner printing..and i hope all goes well so let's hope we can chop chop finish everything so everything wil be in place.

life is full of politics.

u hear good things, u hear bad.

realised there's a hypocrite in everyone of us.

but nevermind...

thank you, for i feel loved.

2007-07-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

think i need to have lesser anger and sadness in me, yesh it doesnt help.
but i cant help it either... i think if u all know me, you all would have known that pessimism is my forte. lol...
i miss my roomie, and xiaobai..stupid HAS system...
to han han and the rest in usa, i miss u all too..

2007-07-05T10:13:00.000+08:00

saw this very meaningful quote on someone's blog...
'negativity and depression will prevent you from seeing the opporunities in front of you'
how true.. but this is something which i find hard to do...
there is no point in enying what others have in their lives.. you gain some, lose some.
i believe we are all good in certain aspects in our life..
joanne, get this in mind ok?
it doesnt pay to be negative... if even you yourself lack the confidence in yourself, how do u expect others to have confidence in you..
i've always allowed others to dampen my mood, i think this needs to change...

i've got this craving for white chocolate blondie, anyone?