someone said something online to me..it brought me to tears... i wasnt there to read it when it was posted but the impact was even greater.. cos all these times.. i never knew... i really never. argh...why hold back what i wanted to do all along? until things changed i was sure that i wanted to save that very first for you..but it was not to be anymore... tke care...

once again... think9 back to the old me.. the one in sec sch... no chance to be the same anymore.. i dont like it but i have to accept that it is no longer the same and will never be the same anymore... forget it...

hi ppl..been sometime since i last blogged..always wanted to but always stopped..
to that u i respect so much..thanks for takin care of me.. what u said put me deep in thoughts..i was hurt that this is what u had to say but i guess this is what u felt..sorry that this had to happen between e both of us..just i'm sorry..i dun mean it that way but i doubt there'd be any chances for us to talk anymore..know u'd never be able to see this..i am sorry...sorry for pissing u off...
haiz..workload always increasing..stunned by alot of e wk..sigh..is it me who does nt understand or what...but basically things are still fine..not like i'm totally behind or what...well..
horsy..back to wk le..hope everything is fine..hugz tight..
to another U..pls tke care of urself when u go to brunei k? hmmm.. i still care..pls dun tink i dont ok...i know i dont do many of the things i used to anymore but it's not cos i no longer care..hmm. i dont know hw 2 explain things anymore..many things i didnt know..i never guessed...
many things in life cannot be explained..when they happen, they just happen..i dont know if this makes sense or not la but ya.. cheers..幸福自己寻找吧。。
to all tke good care yaya?

因为你。。。

hihi ppl..home now..just had dinner so decided to blog abit before going of to do my tutorials..haha...back to life of work le..first semester tryin to tke it ez first slowly let the pace increase..:) just went for hall dinner yesterday..guess it was pretty fun..didnt take many pictures though..left early didnt stay back with them at the suite..didnt want to anyway..went back to NTU to pack my things instead...
Thanks horsy..muackz..for being there with me...am glad for e things that happened..grateful in every way...hugs...
cant stand the way some things are..but even if it's w/thin my reach i'm not going to do anything anymore..i am not going to stoop to that level..if things are like that so be it..just be careful who u place your trust in..maybe i dont see things that way ba..too bad..if u want attention that way..so be it..i have to admit that leopards never changes its spots...
full of hypocrites all around..dont assume u know everything cos u dont...yes i trusted u for a moment..i thought u've been through it and will prob know a lot more..but i was wrong... too bad for me i guess...
firewks outing for 04 girls tml..havent decided if i'd be going yet..see how ba..missing those in nus, even ning, min, ping, shan who r in ntu with me...missing u all...
to all..tke care n cheers...bleah...

hi ppl..here i am..hehe..blogging again..yuppiex..i just got my laptop..haha..something to be happy abt..? yeah..cos i've been waitin for it for such a long time now...hahabut still not used to the keyboard though..kept on hitting e caps lock button when i'm trying to type my a..hmmx. well well.. things moving on..lessons are still ok..catching up for now..but mind is still rusty havent been doing much wk..that's for staying away from bks for 6 months...
Hall Ball tml night..duno whether i'm looking forward to it or wad..no feeling... just another event organised by the hall..think hall 1 is so much m ore happening than many other halls..which is good.. but in the end..i still need the points to stay so..see how ba...
finally saw the doctor yest...he was kind of shocked that i've already been unwell for close to 2 wks..probably get chased out by my roomie if i continued this way...i know i am a stubborn one..yes yes i'll listen...wellx...
havent been meeting up with the class much..missing the girls from 04..think ping is organising an outing..?hehe...will try to mke it...
many things are different now..no longer what they used to be.. i dont want to assume and end up wrong...so let me know if u have anything to say...i will still be here so dont worry... why do u tink i dun care anymore..? i still do..this was the feeling i used to have long ago...i doubt u knew it too..? suan le..it's over..let nature take its course..how abt that...
to all tke care ya..cheers....

i'll leAd u in....

hi all...it's national day and here i am back in hostel...lol...but it has been a quiet yet one of the best national day i ever had...thankz alot horsY..HUgs tight..for bringin me to see great scenery and simply just spending time with me..i know u dont want me to say it but thanks..c",) cheers..
august 9, 2005, HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY Singapore... haha... national day has never been a day i really celebrated..but this one will be one good memory:P
actually main purpose of this blog was to rant about something else which has been spoiling my sleep since i came back to e hall this afternoon..but shant spoil my day today...blog abt it another time.... to all cheers and take good care...argh..my cough is back again....

hi..said i would blog again when i get my com but that's like so long ago and up till it's still not here!! haha...so here i am blogging using my roomie's pc...woke up early to do my tut bt yup.. realised that ive gone all rusty le..after all this time this long period of time away from e bks...argh.....lesson only starts @ 1130 so i have some time to spare...
things have been goin ok for the past 2 wks since the beginnin of school..one wk into e official beginnin of lessons i began to get realli pissed w myself...it's like u know u should know how to do the question yet u can onli stare blindly at it not being able to do anything abt it..haiz.. it's ok though i guess..just have to jia you abit more...
haiz..i thought that feelin was over after i left JC..i thought ppl change bt yet again i was proven wrong...it's just very me to do it but i was wrong..argh..totally disappointed totally disgusted..to tat U..do wad u want wad u like..i don't care..dun assume u noe everything though cos u dun..sorry bt i have my limits...u have crossed it and that's it..girl..wadeva u do..tke care..u wont see me much in ur life anymore..
many mani things happening but no hand in doing anything so i'll just leave it as it is...some things are just meant to be seen i guess...some ppl just like to do things tat wy...
wei horsy pls tke care of urself ok.. sorry abt it...i'm still worried for you...pls get well soon k..? HUgs tight....
to all take good care of yourself...see you ard...