i realised something..
i am a beef lover...=X
and i especially like the dip beef slices into boiling water and eat kind of beef..=X
haha SO! next time if u wanna ask me go steam boat or what! must make sure got such thing k...!
haha.. right right i am joking... i just happen to be in a beefy mood today..
=X sounds so wrong.

ah bai.. when are u coming to visit gan ma again?

hi world...
went to have dinner just now and saw this deaf mute kid.. having dinner with his parents.
it suddenly dawned on me, what does everything feels like in his life..? is it all quiet? or even peaceful..? but is it even peaceful because the noise that probably exists come from the internal struggles in the heart n mind? but in any case, he looks happy, and i wish him well. (:
try to keep in mind, that i am a fortunate one... even as things dont always turn out the way i want them to. but then again..isnt it just fortunate enough to be living? needs to find the courage, to face the world...

love,
joanne

submitted my report draft to prof loo today.. sudden relief...
yet sudden comprehension..that there's still so much out there waiting to be done.
PV quiz...ens presentation.. qc quiz...exams...
sigh..not much time left..but just abit more to go...
but the mind's thinking.. but the heart and hands refuse to do the work..feeling so nua. =X
looking forward to the end..of exams...
then grad night...
then..phuket...
jia you JOjo!

at long last, my first draft to the supervisor is ready for submission! well to be honest, it really isnt the first draft with the many many times that i have editted it..thanks lots weili.. i know.. that i dont appear to appreciate it, but deep down.. i do. haha i just dont know how to express myself can? i'm not sure if the draft is good enough actually... albeit very last minute.. but in any case.done.. need to go bind it up and submit later on..
next up.. PV quiz and QC quiz...argh...it's a never ending thing isnt it? ha~jia you guys. take care!

8days 'quoted' me in saying that ice cream is a happy food! hahah!
i seriously think so! =X just like the other coursemates of mine.. who will randomly go like..
let's go eat ice cream...and off we go to mac..for ice cream cone..sundae or flurry... haha.~
it destresses me for that moment. and bliss follows.

i love ice cream. =))

ok nightmares dont really come true.. =X
that i concluded from the meeting yesterday.. haha~ =X
but in any case.. take care ya.. ((:
went for dinner with avril and avril's random friend weijian. haha

think fatigue and the lack of time is something of the norm lately.
hardly enough time to do the things that need to be done..
hardly enough time for the people who matter.

but i still care..
and still love. haha~

double choc famous amos..
yummm.. sudden bliss.

take care.

good morning world...

why does everything seem to go wrong at the same time?
last night i had a lousy dream.. (lee lee i forgot to tell you)..
haha. something so wrong. yun suspects its FYP stress that's getting to me...
i dreamt that i quarrelled with my mentor over FYP, cant recall what's the issue..
in it, we were quarreling so hard, i ended up crying.. haha~ amazing..then somehow avril, i duno why she popped out..came in between to stop us...when i awoke suddenly from avril's interception, my eyes were kinda damp...i dont know if i had really been crying in my sleep man..sigh. maybe it was an indication that something had gone wrong or set to go wrong?
and guess what happened today?
i got around to editting my report..and when i plugged my thumby in, i realised that the folder i have saved all my SEM images were in it was being quarantined cos virus was detected in that folder..OMG. can u imagine how i felt at that point in time? i really seriously and honestly felt like crying..that was over 40 images of SEM! and joanne didnt have a back up.thankfully i have great friends with great brains and i finally managed to restore the images...with no hiccups so far.. sigh.. things cant get any worst can they?? OmG la..
i need to find back the composure.


thank you for ben ben..

*hugs.. i love you*

and so the tickets have been booked as well..which means..the phuket trip is confirmed? =)) i'm so looking forward to it.. meanwhile. i need to do the editting of my report.. focus on the remaining of the semester... and get everything over and done with...Busyyyyy....!

chak chak~ haha! it's kinda of settled..=) let u know more ok! hahah~ see when u coming again then i let you know.
wendy! haa i havent got ard to googling that thing..so..=X let's hope for the best haha!

maybe age has certainly got me to think into things so much much more.. no longer that selfish anymore.. no longer that impatient anymore...and thinking more about the things that i really really want.. so much more. like what i told yun yun.. signs of age... not trying to say that i'm becoming very matured in thinking or what..maybe just slightly more...

and i was telling * that.. go with what the heart wants ba... even if you dont get it in the end, at least you know you've tried right..you have the right to your own happiness..and the decisions all really lie in your hands.. Is it going to be the right decision? ask yourself... =)) but meanwhile..maybe we really should focus on the more important.. the graduating properly part! =) haha!

*hugs.

just met up with steven n violet for discussion.. booking the tickets tml...once violet's passport is available!=) and booked the hotel today.. i'm so excited! =)) phuket here we comeee! haha i anticipate lots of fun! just the 3 of us..!

advisory note:
please book ur tickets early..especially by budget.
the price shoots up within the week!

post number 333?
haha. right.
in mse lab already, with a mad rush on my report.
but need some sort of entertainment... hah~
now that online streaming for mediacorp radio's channels is no longer available, and even safra's radio channels..i have to bring my earpiece along... and..here in mse lab.. reception to 883 or 933 is bad..so the next clearest channel that i could obtain was class 95.
then i realised how entertaining class 95 can be.. here i am listening to the station, typing my report...and smiling to myself.. hahaa. highly entertaining la!
i miss the music on 883 but ya class95 is damn funny.. well shall make do with it till then.

i guess at close to 23, one starts to think a little more than before. one become less tolerant to certain things, and the patience run low. am i becoming less accomodating or am i just thinking more and more? i dont know...

and..panic is in the air.. the pace is quickening. i cant catch up.

some personal thoughts..
has it been increasingly difficult to manage stress these days?
certain incidents have occurred lately...that questioned me.
What led to such incidents?
Can nothing be solved rationally?
there was a probably a time where i probably thought that death could solve anything..
but the idea probably doesnt really appear too strongly that i remember vividly.
there were rash and irrational moments in this life of mine. too many failures that i can hardly comprehend. but i got over them. probably due to the support of the people around me, or simply because, i havent seen enough of the world yet..or maybe just because, i need to believe that..success will come one day. i cant fail all the time right?
yes. i fear.. i do fear more failures, but i will hang in there..
there's so much more.. right?

fyp report is due soon. panic. will panic keep me going? hahah.
jia you everyone.
we can do it.