tryin to find joy in everything i do lately.. i kind of enjoy my job at cpf..though i always meet ppl who are demandin..and always refuse the side of my story.. well.. i got to meet ppl from all walks of life..yeah. at least i met nice ppl too...well.. two sides to everything..hmmz.. i've got nice OICs.. but think my 'life' being sucked off by the job.. feet blistered.. tired at the end of each day.. worst still..i cant get to sleep and the cycle continues.. geex.. well.. blah..new year's eve tml.. well well... ok..to all take care..

haiz..hurting everywhere.. geex.. dont know la.. bleah..
something is missing..but i dont know what.. had lunch today..surprised?.. think i wont ask for packed lunch anymore..haz..due to rain today..less ppl though still alot.. but we'll just have to expect bigger crowd in the next few days..whatever..to all..take care ba...

hmmx..blah... tired..vv ba..stood 10 hours..and best thing..no one mentioned lunch to me.. then i not wearing watch.. then keep handling customers..filling up forms.. doin ushering..bearin verbal abuse..argh..ya..by the time anyone asked if i had eaten.. it was close to four..so many ppl enquiring..clnt even afford to leave..so no lunch..worked ot till 630 by then..i tink gastric juices started eatin my stomach..blaH..nvm..i tink it's to be expected..?
geez.. blistered feet..nevermind la..have to get used to it..shouldnt complain.. at least i survived today..and it's a good beginning i hope...haiz..ok.. tt's work.. haz..EXHAUSTED...

ha..hope this colour turns out nice..well..it has been a long day..sigh..though i've been left out of all outings with these relatives from abroad..time doesnt pass.. wellx.. just lookin forward to goin to work..wont have to think too much le then..well..at least i'm glad that there's some warmth with these little cousins of mine around..but it wont last for long ba...nvm..at least it'll last for a week at least..cute little cousins..matthew3 and nathaniel6.. well.. it's nearin the end of the year already.. reflections.. hax..year of adventure..
ok..i honestly dont know how i am feeling... i just dont.. tired...take care..

harloe...Hmmz. everyone is out..which leaves me home alone..No details given to me..then i rush here and there..ar..suan le..today is cHristmas..christmas is a season of givin..i know this shld apply all the time..but it's jus not easy.. Went to watch OCEANs 12 with jb,jy,dj, jy's bro and fren? ya.. didny catch his name..basically..i think the story is ok? BUt i dun get the whole show on the whole? Maybe it's cos i didnt catch oceans 11? hahaz..well..or maybe i was just too tired.. Am still tired.. Haiz..hardly caught enough sleep..headache is coming n goinG..geex..i guess it's due to fatique...it better be ba..
it's coming to the end of the year already...WHAT A YEAR...sigh.. i dont know.. time has past yet memories remain..some sweet..some bitter...:( Whatever path i choose to take from now.. i just hope it's correct.. sigh..weaknesses just too many..i'm not even sure if i'm doing the right things now..well maybe i dun feel it..but haz.. To all..take care ya..?

memories..--things that hurt just too much..

well..thanks ar yintheng for helpin me with this website..hehe..really appreciate ar! Haha.. so unfortunately i'm a computer idiot? Hmmz..been busy..have been locked out of this room too.. so many things going on at home..suan la..dun wanna elaborate here..sianz.. class steamboat last wednesday..was ok la..nothing much to comment..thanks yt again for makin it possible..then received call from adecco that i wad shortlisted for an interview at CPF..shocked.. well.. i got it and training started immediately..till christmas eve we had trainin till 6pm lor..ha..basically am glad that i got it la..one thing is that i'll be able to at least cover some study fees in future. Hmmx. teaChing tuition as well..haz. a pri4 kid..hope all goes well..even if not..i somehow have no channels to complain..sigh..for work..i'll be doin customer service and crowd control.. i'll probably die on monday..dont know..and worst thing is i have to wear heels and vv office.. they say that we need to portray a proper image..ha..ok..
Hmmz..how's life now..? everyone will ask the same thing..i guess i jus have to drown myself in work..sigh.. at least keep my mind off stuff for at least 8 hours a day.. Geex..
the other day someone mentioned that girls got jealous easily..really? i really wonder..hahaz.. not important la..haiz..why is it that sometimes we do things against our own will so that others are happy..? Is one's own happiness to be forsaken??? haiz..tired.. everything is moving so fast.. geex.. so fast yet so slow...:( oh ya..merry Xmas..take care..

arGh...swam yesterday..think i'll go again soon.. shall go alone... not many ppl interested anyway.. geEX.. I guess some ppl are just busy..nothing i can do? haz..every1 busy now..Suan le..i'm no one.. went to 4 job agencies today.. whatever la.. hope i get something? At least i wont be thinkin too much if i occupy myself with something.. At least that's what ive been tryin to do.. to stop thinkin.. NO one at home..then ask me come home for WHAT? wad craP..tired.. my headache has not 'subsided'... how long liaoz..? haiz.. nvm..nvm...take care.

haiz.. sian diao? Maybe.. ArGh...headache from last night le..pale? dunno la.. i will never hear it from you i guess..suan le.. ha.. take care.. Pissed with myself.. Tired.. sleepy

hmmz..dont know what to say..maybe things can never be the same again..maybe i didnt need to know? well.. fine with me ba..ya.. dont understand the way certain ppl think..sianz. haiz... what a day..nevermind.. some day..i'll learn... live and let pass?sianz..almost kena knocked down..i better open my eyes..second time this week.. haiz.. Ok..To Ms Goh..congratulations..and live happily ever after..haz.. To all..take care ba..take care..

haz..stupid? I dont know..well.. some saw through it..some didnt..sigh..doesnt matter.. as it is..behind a smile lies anything but a smile.. geex.. i know myself only too well.. cheers..take caRE.

interesting jus how some ppl think.. whatever happens i guess i have to continue to have faith..have trust that i'm not alone..even if i am.. ha..at least i can take pleasure... will continue to cherish nonetheless.. well.. if that's the only way to remain cheerful..haha..have to try it and overcome all e displeasure right..? whatever.. To me..being the middle child never has its benefits...geex..so what if i'm jealous..? as if they care...

可能我错了。。这么久了。。一切还是无法改变？ ..Sorry..I guess someday i'll learn.. don't hold on to hope for too long? Ya.. especially when u know that what u are awaiting will never happen.. haz.. sigh.. time to step out ba.. Friends.. how do u all define this word.. lame but have been thinking abt this.. realised that i've been so wrong about so many things.. again..maybe someday i'll learn.. haiz.maybe it's just too bad for me la..ha..bye..take care...

time to sleep..but here i am again..thinking too much again..? ARgh.. i don't know.. haiz.. lost moments will never be back.. silence that can never be replaced..ha.. rubbish? maybe...

ya..ok.. i'm bad.. haha.. i dont know how to defend myself.. maybe it's true that's y i couldnt defend myself.. maybe... whatever.. lost in thoughts.. what am i supposed to do..? haz.. to all enjoy ur holidays.. take great care ba..:(

hi..it's been a really long time since i last blogged..after As ended on 25th Nov..hahax.. i left for indonesia the very next day and spent the next ten days there... then grad nite followed the day after i returned.. followed by a three days two nights chalet..hahaz..well.. havent slept well..haa.. how's life now for everyone..soon we'll hardly even be hearing from anyone.. ar..ha...dont know la..already feelin lost about all these..so what? haa.. why think so much when u have the choice not to? Suan le la.. hAz.what i hoped to do..i dont think i have much chance already la.. relatives from indonesia coming on christmas..from then i doubt i have time for other things le right..? haiz.. dont know la.. hahaz...smiles.. nothing to say le.. to all take good care of yourselves.. ByE~