hi all...i'm back...well..it's taking a toll on me.. decided to just..let it go...why make life so difficult for oneself...thanks horsy...i'll be fine... cooled it already..dont know what i'd do w/o u by my side.. hugs..
this thing has gone on for so long already...no point..really dont deserve to be so upset by all these. well..forgive n live by it..what can i do..? sigh..nothing can be done anywy..though damage has been done..so whaT? cheers...
wei horsy... just a short note to u..dont always give in to me alright..? when i go overboard let me know..cause u dun deserve all these nonsense from me alright? you ah...dun let me become so ba4 dao4 ok...sorry...hugs tight...thx for understanding...
and da ge ya..da ge..ya. i'll let it be dont worry. u tke care..
to all..cheers n take care....

just go away...i'm pissed off nw..realli reali down...damn...

ha..dumbest person u can find around here..--> me...
had a class outing today..went to changi airport to play badminton with 04/03..havent seen them 4 a long time. hahaha..one of the largest turn out ever...all the girls were present..then guys included zhaoyi, zitong, shili, jianhao, weijian, fengfu, daojian, yadong, brian...well...it's prob be last class gathering i'm attending...dont ask me y... ppl..take care..
totally disappointed..utterly upset... am i such a lowly person... do i deserve all these...damn damn damn! yes...i'm always the one causing all these huh...no one's fault..it's mine huh...yes. i'm the sacarstic one. i'm the one who doesnt bother anymore. yes. i'll take everything. i'm not upset. this doesnt affect me at all..nothing has happened...! indeed. i never bothered..i never tried. i'm the useless one. it's a right choice u make nt to remain in my life. all i cause is trouble. i dun need things to change 360 degrees... i'm cold blooded.................... damnnnnnn.

haiz..yes..i am the unreasonable one.. i'm no different. i'm sorry. maybe i really dont deserve it at all.. arGH.....jo! stop it.

finally got back home.. using the com at long last. ha..been at hostel the past week n didnt bring my laptop back so didnt manage to use much la.. yup.here i am now blogging..this week has been an eventful one...but it's coming to the end of mid-term break already..having two quizzes next week..sigh..okie.. mon i went tm mac to study.. quite conducive also..wed thurs n fri had stuff in sch..oh well.. dunno wad2say..maybe punctuality doest count in ntu...lol..

well..so much has been thru my mind..sorry horsy....thinking alot..guess it was scary to react in that way but..sigh..i almost snapped..hope u understand that i have my reasons 4 doing so.. i'm sorry. well...forgive me i hope but if u dun..i'll nv blame u..i'm e 1 who caused things 2 become like this...sorry..

it was terrible..nv felt this bad before...was looking for ppl but every1 seemed away on that day.. in the end ended up with me alone in the room..by myself.. thoughts flowing..didnt catch a wink.. wondered if what i did was right. sorry... i just needed to be sure. i blame myself for so many things that has happened.. i know u understand..i'm sorry 4 making things so difficult...ARgH...just want u to be fine that's what most impt. do tke care.. hugs tight.

to all...tke care yaya..? good luck to those having quizzes...cheers...

it's sunday..beginning of the mid-term break. did my maths tutorials over today.. great achievement. long time since i did so much work at one go.. ought to feel guilty abt it huh. well.. did catch a few shows on tv here and there..ya..

dun feel good.. thinking again...the realities in life.. never know what is behind that wall..never know what lies ahead for u. sorry. sometimes..it's good to be pessimistic..at least u dun be blinded by stuff which arent true right..irritating that each time u try to be positive u just get dragged down.well that's life. nothing much u can do abt it..

sighhhhhh... if only...

to all take care...

latest picture of me after my haircut..new colour also but not exactly very obvious..well..hmmm.. anyway...was wnedy's bdae yesterday.. happy birthday roomie.. :) and i was innocently ponded together with wenz peiyu n sophia.. so e four of us toilet mates got thrown in together. shall spare the disgusting details...lol...and...most importantly yesterday was the first month..it was a quiet but joyous occasion.. :) thanks for everything...

it's the term break at long last... yeahhoo.. must catch up with my work.. many things to do as well..meetings and stuff...ya. went to kbox at marina square with shan, liping, min ,sab today..ok la...didnt realli sing much compared to the rest of them..hehehe...but more than usual le...

well...truly said.. if u do back to others what they do on u how different are u from them? haiz...nvm. whatever..to all take care...

hi to all..late in the night.. i have my life science and management with humour CAs tml but just realli cant get to sleep..horsy..sorry..i promised to call if i couldnt get to sleep but i didnt want to disturb u.. sorry about that..cos i know u're tired.. hugs tight.. mind saturated already so didnt want to continue... so shall blog abit then go bac and attempt to sleep again...

was having this talk with my roomie and toilet mates..then suddenly wondered to myself.. should i just back out of all these activities..? concentrate and leave everything else behind...i dont know.. haiz... forget it.. should just keep this all to myself. why bother...?

let nature take its course...see u all..take care..wish me good luck... CAs and my mse announcement....

hi to all...tking a quick break then back to studying.. i have my life sciences, managment with humour quiz coming up tml... haiz.. stressed up again..v hard to ask me to relax..when e panic comes, it just comes...never been able to control it for a long time already...one week has just passed already.. beginning to think if i should really give up trying to keep my place in the hall. should just forget abt getting enough points to stay huh. just got into school's publicity sub com but already thinkin of backing out. such indecisiveness...

losing oneself.. what abt it..that's what u get when life starts to turn its head away from u.. and the constant headache starts to haunt u again.. hardly any consolation to speak of.. thanks for those still here with me..

to leemin... haha..guess the impact wasnt e same when u read it..but it probably hit me hard cos i never expected this to be what would be done ma.. but i have made one great mistake and i have learnt alot from it.. haha. like it goes a leopard never changes its spots.

to that particular GIRL.. i think u know who are... it has been a mistake to let u in into so much. i am sorry to say but i regret my actions. thought i could put my trust in u but i guess i was wrong. very wrong.. i dont need ur pity..dont assume u know everything cos u dont anymore. and pls stop it..stop all nonsense from going around will U? cant u just speak what is true and stop spreading crap..do u know how miserable u are making those 'involved'? dont try to know everything.. i'm sorry u have to read it here. u know i wont talk it face to face with u. sorry i have to hurt u this way but i cannot take it anymore... back in those days and now...you nv changed... just wishing u the best in ur life nw..

hmmm... raining heavily outside nw.. going back to hall tonight.. meanwhile just like to mention that school has been fine.. yupx. other then the increasing workload.. recess coming up but the CAs will be here as well..geez..

ok to all tke care...cheers..

--simplicity--