back at home..didnt bring my laptop back..brother is out for his exams.. for nus actualli to hv an exam on a saturday...amazing..my laz pp on mon.. materials science...hmmz.. still studying.. well...let's hope for the best then..=)
it's coming to the end of the exams already... i'm starting my driving lessons soon... yupz.. well.. hope all's well
sigh...
horsieee sori but....
to all tke care.
good luck for the exams...

one more paper to go...=) duno hw i'll fare for the rest of the papers but hopefully i dun have to see any more of them next sem...
i hv stopped believing after that phase in jc yr2..though things went on as usual..but deep in me, things were no longer the same...that particular day laz yr..she told me that there were ppl struggling more than me that if i gave up on myself..no one would be able to help me.. it took a long while before that fact sunk in.. e internal struggle at that period of time was something that really threw me deep down into the pits...slowly i made my way up..the climb was never ez.. a yr plus dwn the road...i'm walking..i'm on flat ground again w regards to this...i've gotten out of that pit. it was only this yr..that i started walkin away from that pit..i decided to leave behind that bag.. the climb became easier..and i got out... it took so long...that bag contained so much...but nw it's gone..
am thankful for the ppl who stood by me...thanks.. u opened my eyes to things... i saw who the true frens were..thanks..reali appreciate it..
it's ironic though hw some things are..
knowing things will never be the same again..
well...
deleted some comments from my blog...i guess it just wasnt appropriate. dont know what to say bt jus didnt feel like explainin why i did it...ya.. maybe i gv e person the wrong impression but nvtheless..
hmm..horsieee....hugs tight...=)
to all cheers....

hmm..i've a life science paper tml..so tryin to relax abit now..decided not to cramp anymore things into my already saturated brain..hehe..
actually am writing this with a very heavy heart...big sigh.. studies aside..well it's come to this point where i know what i want..but it has also become clearer to me that i cannot have what i want.. contradicting huh? but that's really how i feel ba...but even if it may turn out that i cannot have what i want...i shall have no regrets.. maybe it's fated..walk along..see where it brings us too...again if its meant to be, it'll be...horsieee..all these is to u..dont think so much le..hugs tight.. do what u need to ok..what u r responsible for k? remember i'm here with u...
we gain as we lose...well...study hard to all...
cheers..hugs...

actually the reality of it never struck me so hard before.. suddenly i realised hw minute the chances of it happening are..maybe i should have heeded advice in the first place..but that was too long ago.. am i beginning to turn into someone i said i wont..? many things are not predictable.. one day i may be infront of u but the next moment i may be gone.. realised that if i done open my heart out.. i'll only be putting lots of pressure on myself.. maybe it's all worth it, maybe it isnt.. but who can give me the answer..? keep things simple ba..it'll probably be easier for u.. i dont ask for much... just give me what u can and i'll be happy already..ok? horsieeee...hugs.

and i guess i've really lost u already...such closure i tink is what i have desired right..? maybe i really dun tell u things anymore.. think u have also decided to completely ignore me.. but that's fine as long as u r happy...unfortunately...but probably fortunately for u... all the best.. u tke care.. and sorry i can never be there anymore...

back into her own world she retreats...never intending to step out much anymore...she has nothing much left out there anyway...living the way that's best for her..away from the daylight..be who she is.. hidden..(to U..thanks 4 being such a great fren..to share w..cheers..)

to all cheers..tke care of yourselves... good luck for remaining papers...

argh...examz r tml.. i hv 2 papers tml... having dinner nw... all alone in hall... my paper starts e earliest... sad huh? haha.. eating all by myself... sigh... e anxiety is here again!!! help!!!!
i didit again...
sorry.... horsieee..hugs tight.
growing...w e a k e r...
n 2 u..i hope u'd stop mking me feel so lowly
wad u wana say..i dun wana argue anymore...
at leat nw u know hw it felt like in e pst..nt knowin anything...
dun have 2 repeat over n over de...
k..time 2 study...jia you...