actually the reality of it never struck me so hard before.. suddenly i realised hw minute the chances of it happening are..maybe i should have heeded advice in the first place..but that was too long ago.. am i beginning to turn into someone i said i wont..? many things are not predictable.. one day i may be infront of u but the next moment i may be gone.. realised that if i done open my heart out.. i'll only be putting lots of pressure on myself.. maybe it's all worth it, maybe it isnt.. but who can give me the answer..? keep things simple ba..it'll probably be easier for u.. i dont ask for much... just give me what u can and i'll be happy already..ok? horsieeee...hugs.

and i guess i've really lost u already...such closure i tink is what i have desired right..? maybe i really dun tell u things anymore.. think u have also decided to completely ignore me.. but that's fine as long as u r happy...unfortunately...but probably fortunately for u... all the best.. u tke care.. and sorry i can never be there anymore...

back into her own world she retreats...never intending to step out much anymore...she has nothing much left out there anyway...living the way that's best for her..away from the daylight..be who she is.. hidden..(to U..thanks 4 being such a great fren..to share w..cheers..)

to all cheers..tke care of yourselves... good luck for remaining papers...