it has been some time since i last blogged. many things happened but didnt have much time to blog(excuse) haahaha..got a job back at CPF. this time in call centre. shall not go on about the stupid unreasonable people cos i remember doing that last yr..haha.. well, new people...new phone system...new project.. had a few outings here and there but mainly life now resolves around work. always so tired after work. having to travel to and fro from tanjung pagar each day hasnt been easy.travel expenses have been high as well.. sigh...
most importantly, my driving test is around the corner, and expenses+++... well..i do hope that i pass on my 1st try...so no need to spend more money...=) prays hard for me. wish me the best of luck okie? yeh...
sigh..duno wad to say le.
so many thoughts yet so little chance to talk.
i duno how to either...
Sigh.
tke care.

today i went to recruit express for an interview.. i think my travelling time was longer than the interview time. It was similar to what happened at adecco previously..havent been offered any jobs yet. Well shall wait..wanted to meet someone for lunch but didnt go in the end. i dont know..maybe because i'm still far far away. U didnt do wad u said u'd..haiz..i cant 'come back' on my own..i need help alright...?
hmm..many things to say...but just dont know how to go about doing so...it has been like that...for ages..yet some things just dont change rightz?
couple of years back..a promised was made...today i would like to apologise to that particular person to whom i made it to. i am sorry, for i find myself unable to keep it any longer. i cannot be who i used to be anymore and cannot do what i used to do anymore. i will let you know in due time ba. even if so, i would like to say stay happy alright...cheers.
Well..i was reading back some of the archives. yeah i think i havent changed many things i wanted to, couldnt do many things i said i wanted to do..so i think that explains why my life remain at its low point. maybe i just couldnt see things from a brighter point of view. but that's me.

i want to get out but would u help me out...
by letting me go...

wanted to try a new blogskin so here goes...i like it.
yeah..holidays have started. i am now searching for a job...hopefully i find one soon. i want to get away from all the things that are going on in my mind.
to this friend.. i dont know if u still read my blog cos u dont have a com at home... well..but i really dont know how to do it. i can only think of 'going away'...i'm sorry but i dont seem to be able to grasp on much le..right now i dont know what would happen..i told u i would look you up again after i 'come back'..but i dont know how long it'd take..so if u do see this..i want to just ask you to take care of yourself alright...and i am glad you were around.Cheers.

i miss the sea..

what you all see is just surface...
below it the currents are strong..
and even the fish find it difficult to live on.

the exams are over..at long last... i've been waiting for so long...this time round i have started studying much earlier than the previous semester but sad to say i am quite disappointed in myself. but yet again what can i say right?i started watching this korean drama my girl this afternoon, and am intending to finish it tonight. hopefully i can stay awake..i spent the whole morning packing the stuff in my room..yes i m moving out of hall tomorrow afternoon...i have many many bags of things and hopefully everything fits into the car. After shifting out of hall, i guess many things will change in the next few months. well...put it this way after the exams ended it was like a big stone lifted but yes there is another stone there to be lifted...
there is something that has been bugging me... and i guess i am going to try settle it in the coming weeks. i dont intend to seek the truth or try to think of other alternatives... honestly yes i am hurt. hurt by myself...hurt by others...sigh...yes its going to be a painful decision but the further on it drags, it'll jus going to do more damage. ouch. sometimes i really do not understand why i have to go through this alone. but i will be strong...i will go 'far far away' until i am ready to come back...till then wish me all the best..
my hammie gave birth yesterday..till now there are 2 live hammies..something which i am pretty proud of..cos the previous pregnancies of both my female hammies did not go through very well.. sigh..haha but hopefully the 2 young ones survive through...my dear hammies are a joy to have and i am very glad to have them with me though they nib like nobody's business...but yes i still love them all...
many many things i intend to do in this holiday..hopefully things go as expected. people walk in and out of your life...it's just a normal cycle...i have to accept it.. i will try to accept it.
take care all and enjoy the holidays! hugs....