it's been some time. well..been at work for about 3 weeks already... complaints jus increases each day..but this is all part of work i guess. it's draining to work in this industry. hardly think i can last long at all..
some news to share. i failed my driving pract. passed my exams though seriously not good enough and also got a place back in hall 1 and its my previous room. other than that my life has been revolving around work work and more work. have been very very tired each day after work. cant bring myself to do many things. like i totally lost energy. sigh.
kind of lost..dont know where i am heading towards... have only myself to blame for putting myself through all these pains. i know there are some things that i really cannot handle alone yet i can turn to no one. u know the feeling of being exasperated? i painted a picture in my mind. but no one sees it. i predicted the ending but i am still hanging on to that thin string. i do not want to let go but i do not have a choice. but who's going to give myself this chance to let go other than myself?
you may be surprised to hear but there hasnt been a conclusion. i admit it. i want to give myself a chance but i simply cant bear to let go.
been thinking so much about it again lately. but i can turn to no one...sorry....

what lies beneath the calm surface may just be an act put up...
our lives begin to end the day we keep silent about things that matter to us.