hello people, it's 31st today.Almost a year is over.. whoa hw time flies... this year has been as extraordinary one for me. many things happened, some good, some bad.. but it has been a most interesting year for me. many lessons learnt. many hearts were broken...i'm sorry for all the unhappiness that i've caused... year 2006 has been a tiring year. a year filled with so many new chapters. and also the closing of many chapters. it is the yr i stepped into my twenties. it has been a year filled with much tears, much unhappiness. sorry for hurting you. sorry that i broke your heart. but thank you for the good times. sorry for the times i couldnt be there for some people while i was trying to fight my own battle. sorry for the lies. sorry for the poor results.
thank you for coming into my life. thank you for loving me. thank you for a wonderful roomie. thank you to those who stood by me. thank you ddd...
goodbye 2006, welcome 2007.
i welcome in the new year.. it will be a better year for me. cheers.

feeling kind of sad...argh... so hate myself.
to you, glad u have moved on. =D jia you with that special someone.
take care ppl..new yr is coming. have fun!

hello people, i am back home. tennis quarters today.. we won 4-1 that 1 being a walkover. duno why my service beginning to drop standard like mad. big sigh..used to be able to serve beautifully... got into semis, 1st time for hall 1 tennis. lucky vynesh was my partner, else, faint. tml going to meet the 04 ppl. going to mrs liim house.. then going to have dinner at tampines. hmm. hope to see them soon.=D well well. i pulled out the zip off my hp pouch, and broke hp chain. sigh... this is bad la. so violent. then last night rammed my last toe into the door. zzzzz. bleeding toe. so sad la. =x. there's a lot of feelings these days...life goes up and down. duno what to say. nvm..time to get busy with comm stuff... take care all... =D cheers ppl. oh to mel...smile ok! =)

i passed my exams. more importantly, i passed my 2001, 2004, 2006. though results are bad, and i mean bad, i am glad i can finally have a gd peace of mind, enough of the nightmares that joanne needs to retake a couple of her papers. *relieve* but with an average of C, joanne needs to buck up and pull up her grades next sem else, sigh. time to get in with life without maths. softball later and tennis tml. hmmm. gd luck hall one.

hello all, been away from blogging for some time. =x so sorry. results are coming out tml and i am feeling super nervous. joanne jia you! hazz. came back for softball and tennis today.. realised that tennis won liao so tentatively no need to play my match. =x as for softball today...we won as well. wad great news..but then i think i need to get a new pair of shoes...cos my shoes may dry in time for softball tml morning, but tennis in wet shoes is wad i call superly dangerous... see hw 1st... whether i should spend the money. lol. yeh. the new year is coming ahead... time to reflect on the happenings of this whole yr. =x. anyway want to thank the many many people for the christmas wishes. and sophia for the xmas prezzie. thanks. and congratulations to xinyi on his marriage. =)
things dont always go smoothly for u, this fact, i learnt it the hard way. sighh. nvm. if things are yours, they will be, if not then too bad.
take care all. =)

it's christmas eve... and here i am, at home. hah. one year is almost over... and resultS are amost out.. panic! been doing very little useful things at the moment. feel so useless... and piggy and everything...haha. bah. much has been on my mind..but since it's the festive pweiod, just want to wish all of you a very MERRY XMAS! take care to all.
it's the festive period...i'm feeling lonely. haa.

home at last... wont be back to school till 27th. =D hehh. results are coming out soon, and i am really worried...sigh. haiz. today was at tiong bahru plaza...then saw this big big big big tAzzie sitting outside More Than Words. heh. hope no one gets it..cos i intend to save up to get it. not cheap..heh. tired... zzz all the best to me for the results. i really hope for the best... merry christmas in advance!

thanks to all =D for all the birthday wishes, and the various gifts. thanks alot to chew, wenx for lunching with me on my bdae and guansiang for the dinner. and ddd for the whole of 20th! -D happy joanne =D anyway, eragon was good. highly recommended... heex thank you to those who made joanne a happy girl...i am finally twenty... =x welcomed warmly into the twenties club...
sigh i realised that this holiday is so so busyy... zzz and the weather has been cold. =x games postponed over and again! bigger sigh! tml is ISG closing ceremony. zzz. must wake up early go over and carry the 3 boxes of things to SRC. i hope i haf the strength. if not i'll get william's help. =x
i feel tired. but i duno why. zz kept sleeping today. haha... take care to all... hugs`

this has been the colour of the sky, games kept getting postponed due to the rain. sighhh.. hah. tennis tml, then meeting chew and wendy at dhoby ghaut for lunch. =D wont be playing softball tml, dont thinK i wana skip meeting them for it. so sorry. have been getting really dirty. =x heh. rain, mud grass and all... wad else manz. hehh. time flies...in less than an hr's time, i'd be twenty. heh. i'm getting old. silent night, quiet night. cold night.. take care to all! =D

hellOo ppL!, i back.. =D here to thank a couple of people... thanks 04 girls for baby taz in diapers... and the crown neckless..jianhao seng long, kuanthai for the mini log cake..and the great outing out to ecp. =D hehh. and ddd for the big big taz=) nw, i have a big big taz collection liao! thanks people! =D Love all of you..though as of nw, i can stil say, i am stil 19! hehhhh! =D

HellO to all...haaa had a netball game against SCI today. zzz lol. totally thrashed. i dun play netball.. but insufficient players. zzz hahaaa. and those people were tall...amazing la. HMm. then had lunch with jason. lol. that day just asking melvin where jason disappeared to, lol. wahhh still crappy as usual. hope u enjoy ur blading wor... =) been alone in hall quite often lately..rmiee is away in ubin.. then i am still dwn with isg and ihg...there's tennis and softball ih on mon. hope all goes well. yest one was cancelled due to rain... but wah realised that the pressure is huge la... siggh. in any case,take care to all... i miss you all. cheers. HUgs-

i realised this hard truth, it gets lonely in hall, during the holidays. rmie went for npcc stuff, so she'd be away till sunday. heh. i woke up at 10++ just nw, realised that every single inch of my muscles are aching. If they get enough ppl to play IH later then i shall just go and watch, cos i dun wana pull the team down, with aching muscles as well and a stupid recurring knee prob. sigh...dear right knee, stop doing this to me! haahaa. it just rained, so ya, going to have really muddy shoes again. oh mannzz. time i invested on a new pair of sports shoes..eh though i know i dun have the $ to. LOL...softball match against hall5 later. all the best. so sorry to those who people who have been asking me out ah. heh. thanks appreciate it that you all wana celebrate my birthday with me, so so sorry ah. but caught up with IH and IS games.. heh. paisehpaiseh. =X take care to all! JOanne misses all of you!

i duno why but i suddenly feel so like crying...zzz. maybe i am just tired...

suddenly have this very lost feeling. but i duno why. suddenly feel kind of depressed, but i duno why. sigh! got this feeling i let people down, but i duno who. well, maybe it's just one of those sad days.

shall use green since green is mse isg colour. heh. yest was too tired to blog. hheeh. whole day was so so packed. meeting with the comm in the morning, followed by ihg softball and tennis traning. 4hrs of training left me with an almost useless right arm, and a wet and muddy pair of sports shoes.. zzzz... heh. today was isg opening ceremony.. blogging abit before i go off for ih softball training..so nua, muscles aching left right...sigh~ not too bad ba, o/r than my batt dying before the ceremony ended. heh. following the crowd with the camera was ermmx tiring la. jiachuan and anchyi are amazing la. i took shortcuts here and there lo. =x well, nice isg comm tee as well as isg tee. thanks max...hah. anndddd lastly, i wana say that, rmie! hw could u intro me to such a game! abit the out of date cos i bet a million other ppl are playing it before me liao. hahaa. introducing...need for speed most wanted. wahhaahaaa.. alright to all, take good care k! cheers.

hello all, back in hal looking at roomie polish her boots. lol, looks so interesting la! =x but she dun wan burn down the room, so decided that i should just watch. hehee..busy day ahead from tml onwards. need to lose some weight. i think i said that like a million times liao lor.haha. haaa. rmie is done with one side of her shoes. =x. supposed to finish at 12, but then yaaa. erm. bleaH... haaa. i am still coughing abit la, still fine, no worries. =D take care take care! more updates soon.

coughing madly now..cant really fall asleep. cough till backache liao lei.sigh. haha.. what to do
joanne is stubborn one, and she refuses to go see the doctor for the cough. hmmm.. at the
moment i'm relying on panadol cold. hope it works for me la. but then erm erm... haha...
sigh..guess by now those reading would have realised my theme. rainbow. haha. i often
wonder who's going to to be the rainbow of my life. hmM. maybe this is not as impt nw ba?
bleh. yeh, just realised that i dont really want to make the same mistake over and again. but then
how many times have i really been able to not let myself go into it? sigh, thiNk my life is full of
contradictions. i dont blame the characters in it, but rather, the writer--me. haiz. it has been
an eventful year for me. each time it comes to the end of a year, i would reflect and hope for a
better year ahead, but then year after year, not much changes. sigh. i better start living properly
before all is too late and i start regretting it.
was on this topic of "everyone deserves a second chance..". to what extent should this statement
be true? i duno..maybe we all dont want to be hurt a second time, but i believe that as long as the
circumstances allow it, then why not? eh this is a chim statement ba. but i guess it's really up to
the individual ba. dOnt know la. always thiNking of weird things. lol. but that's me...hmm.
someone said that i was complicated but a fine lady upon knowing me. dun really know what it
means but fine lady, i am definitely not. not anymore. i learnt to love myself more. i dont give in
to everyone anymore. i dont do things to please people and upset myself anymore. i am no more
that person who gives all she can as long as it is within her means. i have become more selfish.
i duno hw to survive in this world without getting hurt anymore. i want to defend myself. well, tired.
going to rest soon. coughss..take care people.

heh, my flu hasnt got better yet..nor the cough. i stil havent visited the beach, i so wanna go....anyone wana bring me there? hahaa. alumni dinner thing is cancelled and brought to next sunday. i need to get well soon, so many events next week... sigh. i dun want to see the doctor. =x

sigh, i'm sick. wrong timing. =x lih tyng is coming back. =D

sick liao. sigh. down with flu and slight cough. it's so diff for me to kena flu one lor. haiz. yest had stupid connection errors. seriously i dont know if it's the wireless at home or msn, but ya lor. pek chek la.. esp when i am computer idiot lo. yesterday i went swimming and yeh a hair cut. =/ was telling rmie i wasnt going to cut my hair in the next few months but cannot tahan the dried and split ends lo. so went to cut.. and like back in jc, it was a great sense of relieve. =) yeah hoo.. then momentarily i will complain and then forget. =D ddd ddd ddd! hah. muahahaha! well well.
there are certain things that despite trying, one would never be able to do de ba. there too are certain people you realise are easier to share things with right? duno why suddenly having such thoughts la, but something that passed my mind. in a way, these days i feel free.. and yeh kinda happY too. =D ddddddddd! haha. next week going to be superly busy liao... take care wor everyone....--HugS--

back again..today i went to queenways shopping centre to make a new pair of specs. guess what? my degree has gone down! amazingly. for the right eye. the optician kinda coudnt bleieve it so checked quite a couple of times. dang. haha. yes indeed it has gone down but i m wondering if it went down or or the previous one had prob. lol. alright... want to thank for such an expensive birthday present la. goodness... i feel bad can. realised that i'd really be quite busy the upcoming week... ISG and stuff..oh mannnz... i still havent started exercising, someone, make me start. haha still i wanna go out! tennis tml is cancelled so home sweet home before i go back again i go back to hall on sat...
sigh, sometimes i really duno what u r thinkin, u want to say something then after that u say nvm and nothing. alright, i duno wad i can do alright but it also seems like it isnt up to me. one day u are like that, the other day u jus change. up to you la, as long as u are happy, fine with me, nothing i can do for you also alright. i know la, i dun tell u things, so yu[p like what u siad there are some things that you'd not want to say, so...
* know there are certain decisions that need to be made, i know that u wont be as heartless as me, but i want you to know that i am not that heartless one ok. u take your time. i'll respect the decision. no you are not a ball. but i just thought that you may be happier that way. weigh your priorities ba. and the commitment.
to all, take care.

helo~ haa..i'm in hall right nw, instead of exercising, which i should have been doing, i've been leading this piggy lifestyle. hey joanne arent u supposed to lose weight? oh man, i realised that i'm eating more than before. what if i grow so fat that nobody wants me? HOW? missed tennis training today cos had lunch with my family. dim sum. so wrong...hey joanne what happened to your plans to exercise? u've been eating and sleeping! so wrong! haha... but ya tml no matter what, i'm going swimming, that's that. LOL. been mapling and doing nothing else. been online, and offline when slPing. Piggy! so so so wrong la.... but yeh. today the new shirts came, at last. breathes a sigh of relieve! the shirts turn out well. looks nice enough =D fortunately. maybe next time should jus use something less challenging so that it'd wont be so much trouble. maybe meeting xinwei and lp and jialing to go to vivo later, but depending on what time my meeting ends.. to all! take care... going off for my meeting liao. cheers... people, pls get joanne to stop sleeping! hehe. ask her out! =D hugs tight tight!

ah! i so so angry! haha. blogged halfway then went to do other stuff then disc kena stuck inside, then i restart then i lost the whole entry! so angry can. =( haiz zhen shi de. haa yeh was saying that i'm here to blog again. hehe. ya so here i am for the second time tonight. spent today lying around, repaying my slp debt and fussing over my computer and the wireless connection that has been dying on me today. hehe. tml going back to school liao. tennis training at 12. there's softball at 10 too but i decided not to go,cos yeh as much as i wanted to exercise, 4hrs at one go is not too healthy for someone who has not exercised for a long long time. heh. so i am going for tennis tml and the meeting at 6 with ISG com.. then pang coming over to deliver the long waited tees. i hope all goes well. there's so many many ppl i wana spend time with this holidays. heh, da ge, dun worry la ya, i'll find a day la, u also have to let me knw ur schedule lo. and oei, there's some things that i dont like u asking over and again, cos nothing changes ok? and to ddd, sorry i know you r busy too but will try to fit the timing in ok? and i also wan2 meet up with lih tyng, i duno when she's coming back from aussie but i look 4ward to seeing you! =D yeh so many things i want to do! hMmz.take care to all! i miss you all and i look forward to seeing whoever wants to see me! lol! =D hugs tight tight to all...

my life is a storybook.
where the characters change all the time...
but who would be the one? who will enter and stay??
haahaa.

new layout...

hello all! here to announce the end of my exams! today is my 1st freee day. I've learnt, this holidays, i'm going to enjoy myself to the fullest. i dont knw what will happen after the results come out, but then.. it's over, i just hope for the best.
anyway i went to read through the archives for the past 2 yrs. my blog is more than 2 yrs old liao, but had one earlier on which got deleted. seems like haha, alot of things have changed la. previously i realised there was this certain period of time where the entries were like really sad.there was a period of time when everything was so pessismistic. i realised that hey, i said that i was no longer the joanne i used to be for a long time already. and guess what? i really havent done anything much to change it la. i realised that i am still as pessimistic. much as i say that i want to go back to being who i am, i realised i m not putting in much effort. hey joanne, it's time u learn and move on with your life.
there's this particular thing that i want to decide on. actually i thought that i almost came to a conclusion, but then i realised, there are still things that make me hold back from making a decision. no doubt that period of time has taught me that hey, u need it, as much as u say u dont want it. Hmm, yeah there are things that i really cant put down. so sorry, it may take an even longer time for me until i can be sure.
in the midst of the exam period, one chapter of my life ended. yeah, to the character(s) in that chapter, i wish you all all the best okiez? =D
hehe, i packed my room after exams yest. spent so many hours. zzz. so for once, joanne is proud to announce that she has a very neat rm! her side i mean=x alright la rmie's side has been quite neat also la if u dun consider that she dont make her bed. =x so she is consistently neat. i've decided to have a new layout for my lappie. heh =)
so many things that i want to do... but next up will be having ISG and IHG =) hehe. wannnaaa have funnnnnnnnnnn. =D
i bought a new mouse yesterday. =D and sorry girls i didnt join u all at orchard yest. Joanne needed her beauty slp lei. hehe.
anddd for my birthday, i want....
i want...
i want...(oopx i'm doing this again)
haha.
1) pass her exams ( no 1 goes out to her exam markers)
2) my loved ones to be happy =)
3) xiaobai (rmie, make a sacrifice? hehe)
4) more taz (what about a real one?)
5)more
6)more
7)more!
heheee loveeeeeeeeeeeeee=) wahaahaaa, so on my birthday, u al come forward gimme a hug and smuack will be enough...
hehee... i be back to blog =) off i go go go to slp.
take care to all....
and GUAN SIANG!
Happy 25th Birthday to you!
oh and to my elder bro too...
=)