coughing madly now..cant really fall asleep. cough till backache liao lei.sigh. haha.. what to do
joanne is stubborn one, and she refuses to go see the doctor for the cough. hmmm.. at the
moment i'm relying on panadol cold. hope it works for me la. but then erm erm... haha...
sigh..guess by now those reading would have realised my theme. rainbow. haha. i often
wonder who's going to to be the rainbow of my life. hmM. maybe this is not as impt nw ba?
bleh. yeh, just realised that i dont really want to make the same mistake over and again. but then
how many times have i really been able to not let myself go into it? sigh, thiNk my life is full of
contradictions. i dont blame the characters in it, but rather, the writer--me. haiz. it has been
an eventful year for me. each time it comes to the end of a year, i would reflect and hope for a
better year ahead, but then year after year, not much changes. sigh. i better start living properly
before all is too late and i start regretting it.
was on this topic of "everyone deserves a second chance..". to what extent should this statement
be true? i duno..maybe we all dont want to be hurt a second time, but i believe that as long as the
circumstances allow it, then why not? eh this is a chim statement ba. but i guess it's really up to
the individual ba. dOnt know la. always thiNking of weird things. lol. but that's me...hmm.
someone said that i was complicated but a fine lady upon knowing me. dun really know what it
means but fine lady, i am definitely not. not anymore. i learnt to love myself more. i dont give in
to everyone anymore. i dont do things to please people and upset myself anymore. i am no more
that person who gives all she can as long as it is within her means. i have become more selfish.
i duno hw to survive in this world without getting hurt anymore. i want to defend myself. well, tired.
going to rest soon. coughss..take care people.