yesterday was my mum's 53rd birthday. it had been some time since we celebrated either parent's birthday with a cake. dad's birthday is next month.. keyan, u and gor's turn to buy cake hor.. =P and after all these years... realised my mum does act cute.. lol~ let me put up her picture of her trying to blow the candle. she didnt want to appear old, so we only put up one candle. lol~

see my mum also know how to act cute one k...lol~

that aside..

i realised that negativity has once again found its way back into my life. i feel stupid... that no matter how hard i worked, i dont see any results. it's a painful realisation and it has it has impacted me hard. i just don't seem to be able to do well in anything. i feel lousy. i know i have already come so far, and there are other people who are having it worst off than me, but what gives me the right to complain...? =( sigh~ i dont want to be a disappointment, but... i cant help it.

feeling lost.

and helpless...