hello world..
it has been 2 months since i last blogged.
things have changed.
i have started work.. and the most common question now is, " how is everything?"
just want to let whoever still reading ard here know that, thank you! i am doing fine. (:
Just need time to adjust, but i know i can make it. =) i will hang around here for a long time... ( i hope) haha. if things go my way, great! if not, it would then just be more lessons learnt.

dear roomie, i know fyp has been an ass.. Get ah bai to kick it ok? Just a few months back, fyp attempted to kill me(literally). POs are never the most wonderful people to start with..but eventually, you'd realise how much they really care. Attempt to be less 'stubborn' and love the PO more ok? Jia you! i have total faith in you. My roomie you know.. (: Sorry i cant be around when you are doing fyp.. the way you were when i was doing mine..But anytime you want to complain, just dial ok? go go roomie!
dear ah bai, as you know. Gan ma is working now, unable to meet you guys all the time.. You must help gan ma take care of your zhuren ok? and sharpen your teeth.. should PO bully zhuren, then just do what you want to him ok? no worries.. gan ma help u clean teeth.. =)

to the rest of the people out there. take care.. cos i care. (:

it's sad to hear of failed relationships, even sadder when the people involved are close to my heart.
heard of many endings. so many reasons. yet, i guess the one reason that might never give closure.. would be it just ended, there is no reason why, but she/he just doesnt seem like the one anymore, that one dont feel the way she/he used to feel anymore. On a positive note, when one door closes, another opens for you, yet, on e other hand, after putting in so much effort into a relationship..can it not stand the challenges.. i dont know, but i guess..hearing of failed relationships, makes me wanna cherish the one i am in more. ((: to those who fell.. stand up again.
jia you!

i'm zoo-ing tml!
haha i am so excited yes!
OH hello world! i havent been here for zeons!
and chak says i have been ignoring it. not that many other people read.but for those who do!
hello~ !!!
zzz. haha. jojo is fine..! and i hope you guys are to!
i will try to blog more consistently! i hope*=P
hahaha~
will return!

it's down to the final two..
panic striken..but not as much as compared to the previous examinations.
maybe its cos.. after so many semesters.. it has finally set in that, this is the final semester!
i dont know if i should be feeling excited.. hahaa.. but i'm definitely looking forward to the end of it all..
=)) i'm so looking forward to phuket.. haha..

Dear you,
who wrote me a blog letter..this is in reply to it!
haha.. thanks alot for your support ya!~for not judging..
it's been many many years since we've known one another, and like what i said before,
it's going to be many many more years worr..
i'm glad u came around..((:
evil girl. ur exams have ended.. but,
wait for me ok? i be done soon tooo!
Love ya for being ya! ((: *hugs.
and jojo loves octopus.. so will eat them up for you!
grinx.. so please dont worry about the octopus anymore ok!
((;

and dd leeee! thank you for lunch delivery..
soggy but nice.. ((:
and full of love..
thank you.. =P

for the past couple of years in uni, i have been either studying in hall or at bukit merah's macD, but this last sem, i wanted to study at home.. but the long weekend that just passed kinda of confirmed that i can no longer do what i do when i was in secondary school or jc whereby studying at home wasnt too big an issue.. perhaps due to the fact that i havent really been home much for the past 3+ yrs..my room is half invaded by my lil bro. and perhaps too, due to the fact that they havent seen much of me at home.. when i am back home, everything seems to be a breeze.. i wake up at 11 when i usuallly wake up at 8 when i am in hall.. haha. haha when i wake up, i have breakfast waiting for me. settled.. then i'd do what i always do.. which is to browse newspapers.. haha. then after which watch a little tv.. then i'd feel sleepy again and off to nap i go.. when i wake up from my nap, i see lunch! hahaa.. then i'd entertain the dog a little.. and by then it'd be like 3pm.. then i switch on my laptop, check my emails.. all these done on my comfy room with comfy aircon.. and oMg.. looking at the dog slp makes me feel sleepy again.. then not too long later dinner is here.. i seriously think i am too well taken off at home.. hahah! DO YOU realise there's no mention of me taking out my notes to study?? it's cos the bag is still sitting at one corner of the room! conclusion, i should not attempt to study at home! hahah~ so wrong... =X

well here i am before 9, already in mse lab.. with notes on the table.. not that i started studying.. but then isnt it a stark contrast than when i am home? haha! ((:

on a heavier note....

i feel the pain when i realised that you've been crying for the past few days.. one part of me feels happy that you are finally breaking out of this.. and you no longer need to be locked in something which i dont see a future in. but seeing how much it pains you, make me bleed. u know i always want the best for you only... i'm sorry i no longer am the joanne you can turn to whenever you wanted. blame it on me that i never really tried to find out more about you.. how you're doing and all. but in any case, i hope that you'd take care of yourself from now on, no matter what happens. you will find better. ok? it's no longer the pen and paper days where we could write long long letters and you know how joanne doesnt say how she feels over the phone or face to face..but.. if there's anything.. i'm still around kk? take care chewie.

good luck all for your upcoming papers! jia yoU~

*hugs. all for you, my dear.

an hour away from my last quiz in my university life...
AND.. i'm so having butterflies in my stomach.. ahhhhH!!!
all the best jojo.. hah~ you can do it! zzzz
such positive spirit from me.. so unlikely. =X

it's QC quiz tomorrow..and it's the last quiz in NTU.. whoa. time flies. haha.
all the best peeps... ((:
and my dear wendy.. your nightmare about me..wont come true ok! (:
how can i ever get pissed off with you?
((:
shoot that lousy nightmare down ok?
*hugs*
thank you, for being around, really..it's been 10 yrs.. (:
and many more yrs to come! ((:
love,
joanne

in the once-in-a-while-feel-damn-lousy mood...
let's hope it all passes really soon ok? =(( haiz.
report is submitted..
here comes the exams..
jia yoU!

i realised something..
i am a beef lover...=X
and i especially like the dip beef slices into boiling water and eat kind of beef..=X
haha SO! next time if u wanna ask me go steam boat or what! must make sure got such thing k...!
haha.. right right i am joking... i just happen to be in a beefy mood today..
=X sounds so wrong.

ah bai.. when are u coming to visit gan ma again?

hi world...
went to have dinner just now and saw this deaf mute kid.. having dinner with his parents.
it suddenly dawned on me, what does everything feels like in his life..? is it all quiet? or even peaceful..? but is it even peaceful because the noise that probably exists come from the internal struggles in the heart n mind? but in any case, he looks happy, and i wish him well. (:
try to keep in mind, that i am a fortunate one... even as things dont always turn out the way i want them to. but then again..isnt it just fortunate enough to be living? needs to find the courage, to face the world...

love,
joanne

submitted my report draft to prof loo today.. sudden relief...
yet sudden comprehension..that there's still so much out there waiting to be done.
PV quiz...ens presentation.. qc quiz...exams...
sigh..not much time left..but just abit more to go...
but the mind's thinking.. but the heart and hands refuse to do the work..feeling so nua. =X
looking forward to the end..of exams...
then grad night...
then..phuket...
jia you JOjo!

at long last, my first draft to the supervisor is ready for submission! well to be honest, it really isnt the first draft with the many many times that i have editted it..thanks lots weili.. i know.. that i dont appear to appreciate it, but deep down.. i do. haha i just dont know how to express myself can? i'm not sure if the draft is good enough actually... albeit very last minute.. but in any case.done.. need to go bind it up and submit later on..
next up.. PV quiz and QC quiz...argh...it's a never ending thing isnt it? ha~jia you guys. take care!

8days 'quoted' me in saying that ice cream is a happy food! hahah!
i seriously think so! =X just like the other coursemates of mine.. who will randomly go like..
let's go eat ice cream...and off we go to mac..for ice cream cone..sundae or flurry... haha.~
it destresses me for that moment. and bliss follows.

i love ice cream. =))

ok nightmares dont really come true.. =X
that i concluded from the meeting yesterday.. haha~ =X
but in any case.. take care ya.. ((:
went for dinner with avril and avril's random friend weijian. haha

think fatigue and the lack of time is something of the norm lately.
hardly enough time to do the things that need to be done..
hardly enough time for the people who matter.

but i still care..
and still love. haha~

double choc famous amos..
yummm.. sudden bliss.

take care.

good morning world...

why does everything seem to go wrong at the same time?
last night i had a lousy dream.. (lee lee i forgot to tell you)..
haha. something so wrong. yun suspects its FYP stress that's getting to me...
i dreamt that i quarrelled with my mentor over FYP, cant recall what's the issue..
in it, we were quarreling so hard, i ended up crying.. haha~ amazing..then somehow avril, i duno why she popped out..came in between to stop us...when i awoke suddenly from avril's interception, my eyes were kinda damp...i dont know if i had really been crying in my sleep man..sigh. maybe it was an indication that something had gone wrong or set to go wrong?
and guess what happened today?
i got around to editting my report..and when i plugged my thumby in, i realised that the folder i have saved all my SEM images were in it was being quarantined cos virus was detected in that folder..OMG. can u imagine how i felt at that point in time? i really seriously and honestly felt like crying..that was over 40 images of SEM! and joanne didnt have a back up.thankfully i have great friends with great brains and i finally managed to restore the images...with no hiccups so far.. sigh.. things cant get any worst can they?? OmG la..
i need to find back the composure.


thank you for ben ben..

*hugs.. i love you*

and so the tickets have been booked as well..which means..the phuket trip is confirmed? =)) i'm so looking forward to it.. meanwhile. i need to do the editting of my report.. focus on the remaining of the semester... and get everything over and done with...Busyyyyy....!

chak chak~ haha! it's kinda of settled..=) let u know more ok! hahah~ see when u coming again then i let you know.
wendy! haa i havent got ard to googling that thing..so..=X let's hope for the best haha!

maybe age has certainly got me to think into things so much much more.. no longer that selfish anymore.. no longer that impatient anymore...and thinking more about the things that i really really want.. so much more. like what i told yun yun.. signs of age... not trying to say that i'm becoming very matured in thinking or what..maybe just slightly more...

and i was telling * that.. go with what the heart wants ba... even if you dont get it in the end, at least you know you've tried right..you have the right to your own happiness..and the decisions all really lie in your hands.. Is it going to be the right decision? ask yourself... =)) but meanwhile..maybe we really should focus on the more important.. the graduating properly part! =) haha!

*hugs.

just met up with steven n violet for discussion.. booking the tickets tml...once violet's passport is available!=) and booked the hotel today.. i'm so excited! =)) phuket here we comeee! haha i anticipate lots of fun! just the 3 of us..!

advisory note:
please book ur tickets early..especially by budget.
the price shoots up within the week!

post number 333?
haha. right.
in mse lab already, with a mad rush on my report.
but need some sort of entertainment... hah~
now that online streaming for mediacorp radio's channels is no longer available, and even safra's radio channels..i have to bring my earpiece along... and..here in mse lab.. reception to 883 or 933 is bad..so the next clearest channel that i could obtain was class 95.
then i realised how entertaining class 95 can be.. here i am listening to the station, typing my report...and smiling to myself.. hahaa. highly entertaining la!
i miss the music on 883 but ya class95 is damn funny.. well shall make do with it till then.

i guess at close to 23, one starts to think a little more than before. one become less tolerant to certain things, and the patience run low. am i becoming less accomodating or am i just thinking more and more? i dont know...

and..panic is in the air.. the pace is quickening. i cant catch up.

some personal thoughts..
has it been increasingly difficult to manage stress these days?
certain incidents have occurred lately...that questioned me.
What led to such incidents?
Can nothing be solved rationally?
there was a probably a time where i probably thought that death could solve anything..
but the idea probably doesnt really appear too strongly that i remember vividly.
there were rash and irrational moments in this life of mine. too many failures that i can hardly comprehend. but i got over them. probably due to the support of the people around me, or simply because, i havent seen enough of the world yet..or maybe just because, i need to believe that..success will come one day. i cant fail all the time right?
yes. i fear.. i do fear more failures, but i will hang in there..
there's so much more.. right?

fyp report is due soon. panic. will panic keep me going? hahah.
jia you everyone.
we can do it.

sometimes all we need is a little encouragement.. =((

in lab now..waiting for time to pass...sigh. Lab is becoming more n more like a vacuum cleaner..having a meeting tomorrow I hope it all turns out fine.. Panic in e air.. Someone teach me how to stay calm. I'm suffering from final year depression Haha... Bleah..tired. after graduation I'm going to slp for all I can man.. Haha right...wish me well for fyp..and in job searching...lucks joanne..

love my e71. Haha..cos while here I am in lab centrifuging, I can go online and blog... Something that I didn't really bother to yan jiu in e past... Haaha.some feeling I have now. Maximum panic. Sigh.. All the best to me... Haiz

havent been around for some time already.. i hope everyone's doing really well!=))
time flies... i've been in NTU for 3.5yrs already.. doing my final semester and final yr proj at the moment.. in no time, whoosh and i'd be thrown into the working world, and into a new phase of life...
right now.. my mind is silently screaming out for help.. i need the motivation to do my final yr proj! i need to make do with whatever little results or no results that i have.. somewhere somewhat i know that it's not time to give up or anything like that.. i cannot turn away when the journey is ending. i need to carry on. i need to find something to keep me afloat.. joanne, jia you!

to my boy.. thanks for tolerating my nonsense..for giving in to my nonsense all the time.. haha~ luP you lots! it's sometimes the little thoughts that go a long way.