for the past couple of years in uni, i have been either studying in hall or at bukit merah's macD, but this last sem, i wanted to study at home.. but the long weekend that just passed kinda of confirmed that i can no longer do what i do when i was in secondary school or jc whereby studying at home wasnt too big an issue.. perhaps due to the fact that i havent really been home much for the past 3+ yrs..my room is half invaded by my lil bro. and perhaps too, due to the fact that they havent seen much of me at home.. when i am back home, everything seems to be a breeze.. i wake up at 11 when i usuallly wake up at 8 when i am in hall.. haha. haha when i wake up, i have breakfast waiting for me. settled.. then i'd do what i always do.. which is to browse newspapers.. haha. then after which watch a little tv.. then i'd feel sleepy again and off to nap i go.. when i wake up from my nap, i see lunch! hahaa.. then i'd entertain the dog a little.. and by then it'd be like 3pm.. then i switch on my laptop, check my emails.. all these done on my comfy room with comfy aircon.. and oMg.. looking at the dog slp makes me feel sleepy again.. then not too long later dinner is here.. i seriously think i am too well taken off at home.. hahah! DO YOU realise there's no mention of me taking out my notes to study?? it's cos the bag is still sitting at one corner of the room! conclusion, i should not attempt to study at home! hahah~ so wrong... =X

well here i am before 9, already in mse lab.. with notes on the table.. not that i started studying.. but then isnt it a stark contrast than when i am home? haha! ((:

on a heavier note....

i feel the pain when i realised that you've been crying for the past few days.. one part of me feels happy that you are finally breaking out of this.. and you no longer need to be locked in something which i dont see a future in. but seeing how much it pains you, make me bleed. u know i always want the best for you only... i'm sorry i no longer am the joanne you can turn to whenever you wanted. blame it on me that i never really tried to find out more about you.. how you're doing and all. but in any case, i hope that you'd take care of yourself from now on, no matter what happens. you will find better. ok? it's no longer the pen and paper days where we could write long long letters and you know how joanne doesnt say how she feels over the phone or face to face..but.. if there's anything.. i'm still around kk? take care chewie.

good luck all for your upcoming papers! jia yoU~

*hugs. all for you, my dear.