some pics of myself...  

my tennis junior back in cedar 

wen wen and i 

wood n i 

szehua n i 

haha look so oldies huh... 

yuhan n 1 

myself 

in wood's rm...

hello once again..
in wood's rm nw..later have to go off for booth at 330.
selling ice-cream mooncake.. hehe. for those interested let me noe k
it is going at $20 which is cheaper than that at swensens by about 10%.
wood is ill and sleeping nw.. wanted her to go to the doc, but since she insists that she doesnt want to, i shall not force her either, cos even for myself, i will be too stubborn so i guess i noe hw she feels and yeh i am in no right to say her either.
sigh..have to come up with my banner design soon.. then namecard, investiture decor, noticeboard decor
and there is subcomm recruitment tonight.. well, maybe its good cos at last we can spread out the workload. =)
yesterday night, i tried to sleep early having slept few hours for past few nights due to the many different commitments.. but in the end stoned there for many moments before i finally dozed off.. listening to the music roomie was playing on e com, nice n soothing...
thoughts started to flow again.. why, why are so many things happening at this moment in life? i wanna be free again.. hah i guess this is going to take some time huh...

i know i have been harsh, but i wont take it back.
i am already having enough things as it is, so dont add on to it alright..
someone said to me before, no one has the right to decide for me what i want in my life.
so why bother about what they have to say to you? well, it's not that easy definitely..
but i'd keep in mind what u have said before..

met apple today..so glad that she's so much happier nw after changing course, girl i wish u all the best alright...see ya around hall alright..it's like we are so near yet so far...

last night daddy called me... kinda disappointed at what he said.. i mean do u reali have no trust in this daughter of yours.. i mean i am reali not that kind of person u seem to assume to be.. but ya i know you are just concerned...no worries la, if he wants i can always explain again...

da ge if u ever read this, do take care of urself ok? i knw that it probably wont be able to go back to the way things were before, look at the circumstances nw, they're different already...

haiz..enough of all the things that are going the wrong way...JOANNE wake up will u, get ur direction before its too late and get lost for life....

people out there who may be reading this, do take care alright... cheers to all of you..

drained..

hello people, yeh just came up with a new blog template. basically, backgrd was designed by me while roomie made it into a blogskin for me. Thanks lots huiping! hehe. muackz! but yeh there'd be changes to it so look out for it. though nothing much is going to change really.
been reali busy recently. Com stuff, quizzes, and much more. wil post up some dnd pix when i have the time to.
as always there are many things that have happened recently. not reali going to talk about them here. cos i know i probably take alot of time to post and its kinda late nw.
be back some time soon to update again...
special thanks to certain ppl. thanks for allowing me to see from ur point of view. for being around...
it has been really tiring. alot of things being decided.
i dont know how long i'd last.
but i will go strong.
like i said in previous post, it has been hard keeping up with the mask.
right nw, i have very strong chocolate cravings... oh joanne u r so going to grow fat.
i want to step out, but i cant.
see u people around. time for bed
cheers...

hi again...
lol..been very busy lazy but here after dinner to blog abit.
hmmm.. kind of confused nw..
dont know where all these are heading towards..
sigh..why cant things be made simpler for everyone..
i realised that some people who are constantly around you arent the people whom u really share things with. nvm..just a random thought..
i was chatting online with this fren of mine.. was saying that some things are better left unexpressed. thats hw i honestly feel. but then my fren was saying, even if u dont know how to express, jus say something, at least ppl know you have something to say. well..
some more hall activities here and there.. but i wont be as busy w these activities anymore..

people walk in and out of ur life...
even though many claim they stay,
only few remain..
suddenly things dont look as bright anymore..
i feel tired...
at the beginning of the semester.
i cant be as strong as who i want to be, claim to be.
i'm not as fine as i thought i am..
the mask is not holding up for much longer.
sigh..
perhaps, i need a little help..

hee to all cheers..
tke care.
long day tml...
sigh...
(-_-)

yeh school has started for about 2 weeks already. so far so good but that's cos only maths tut has started...argh!!! help help when most tuts start next week.
going for hall bash tonight..but having lesson later from 530-730 1st.. blogging before that.
hmm.. here to declare... i love my new roomie....hehe.. introducing huiping. lol.. actually was hoping that i got a singaporean roomie and yes! i did! =P and we dont ignore each other like my previous rmie. =)
hmm. ya.. that's abt all in my life at the moment..
i think there are some things that are better left unexpressed. probably what xinyi said was right. just got to be more vicious..? well..
and oh guan siang, if u happen to be reading this..just wanna say u r amazingly li hai. i was like thinking 'whoa...' anyway. thanks and cheers to you...
to all.. tke care to all..and see you around.

and since it is national day i shall use red for this entry. today 9th august marks singapore's national day. it also marks another special day..it has been a yr. for nw things are on a hold. i havent decided. maybe i am being selfish and dont know what i want at this point in time? sorry for all the trouble that i've given to either of u.
school has started..yesh with a big sigh...feeling kind of stress. ya upon realisation that we're competing against the really smart people reali mkes me feel that i'm like helping them to mark the bottom..but not to worry i'd jia you..=) i'm quite happy with my timetable cos it kind of gives me time when i think i need. erm chim but true.
kind of miss all my girlfrens esp the jc gers.. but yep i'd be seeing ningning twice a wk frm next wk onwards. grinx. time flies..
to all tke care n rmb to miss joanne=)

hi everyone..missed me? yeh hall camp starts this week. and yesh! this bunch of simpsons freshies seem to be full of energy! let's hope for the best. in any case, it's going to be a week of fun! =D
some things are not going too smoothly for me. It has been heartbreaking. Right now at this moment, i am feeling really confused. i have let known that at this time, what i want is to be alone. i am unable to commit fully to what i wish to have so rather than being unfair, why not just let me be? i dont want to be selfish n let u wait. -hugs-
it hasnt been an easy decision, really. I am too tired..probably lost along the way. i am truly sorry if i've hurt anyone.
to kb. haa dont think you'd get to see this la..but then just want to say that, sometimes i reali agree that the truth hurts, but then again, sometimes, lies do help for certain reasons, despite the risk factor. whatever it is, u cheer up alright? anything, i am nearby. =) do tke care too.
hmm, i would be back with more updates! tke care people...
hugs..

hello ppl, some time since i last blogged..sorry about that... just came back from sce-mse foc.. though tired, i had fun..seriously.. seems like there are many things happening in my life of late.. i guess right now, i just need to be alone... time off to myself... really cant tke it anymore.. sigh.. last week of work liao..school reopening soon..and all time will go to my studies..tke care...

sometimes i just hope i can be alone.. and stop causing hurt to those i love.
maybe i should, and step away from all...
and be free all by myself...
i am just another simple person...
who wants to live happily.
allow me to....

hmmm..still sick..still had fever this morning but it went down already..=P other than the non-stop coughing, i think things are still fine. haaha. well.did subject registration today. was really a case of fastest fingers first. teck hou told me just add the core first but stubborn me added everything so in the end couldnt register for one of the slots that i wanted. but lucky other than that things still relatively find. Phew* it was all over in 2 minutes.so it was seriously a case of either u get it or u dont. Decided on group A subjects. didnt particularly plan it with anyone so i hope i wont be alone too much lor..but fortunately AERO peeps taking grp A so will still have my OG people to accompany me for lectures..hee.=P
somehw feel that some things have changed. what can i say. i think its natural reaction on some part ba. i guess some people dont really appreciate things until they know they're about to lose it.
horsieee...i wan u to be happy alright...dont think so much liao and i hope i am not affecting u too much. block out what u dun feel like hearing ok? huggiex..jus remember the promises we made and keep by it k? whatever happens...
BIte..to that someone who stepped into my life recently...dont be held back by ur past k? do what u feel is most comfortable for urself k? =P
think i'd be going back to work tml.. feels so piggish staying home and sleeping after eating med each time..
i wanna get well soon...
heeex.

i decided to tke the previous post away..horsieee pls dun be mistaken k? remember the promises made k? things wil still be the wy it used to be alright. gou gou shou zi. =P
having high fever nw..saw the doc..finally.. thanks for the companion..hugs... fortunately u were ard to force me there...haha
some things happened recently..but i guess it may be going abit too fast... i hope it'd slow down and let me learn more things. haha...
seniors hall camp yest and the day before..quite fun also..=P but then kinda gross for certain stuff.. well...
to all take care...

im the stupid one...maybe u r right but have u ever thought how i felt the other time? when u decided to keep it from me and the reason why u never told me? maybe i was the petty one. but does it even matter to you?

anyway i went shopping today!! thanks my tazzieee for accomanying me... yehhhooo.. haha. bought few skirts and shirts n few other stuff..eh hem..haha..so jojo is a happy girl today...but today...=)

eh yes i agree....as long as i know what i want in future...things dont matter as much and i can let them go slow..not hurrying to put all things out...yeh..

anyway yest after 1/2 day work met 04.. had lunch then went over to leemin's hse.. yehhh we are cranky ppl...hahaaa.. had much fun with the girls though we didnt really interact with the guys but overall..it was nice meeting them again. sad thing was that i was really tired and decided to leave for home early...

work again tomorrow...hmmm... callers pls be nice to me...hehehe...cheers.

Went to work at tampines cpf call centre today..it was kind of different..haha. compared to that 5 months i was working at counter last yr..call centre environment here was a different kind of experience..saw a few familiar figures...
chocolates have become part of me again these couple of days.. i always feel that chocs cheer me up..so pardon me from eating so much cos i couldnt find other ways to cheer myself up and i guess this is also the cheaper option compared to the other of cutting hair...i am growing fat again.
have decided to stay on the job provided they want me till i need to return back to school for my FOC stuff...
-sigh-

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