whoa.. my blog is growing dust already.. not that many people read it in the first place... but probably a short entry before cobwebs start to grow.. getting more and more difficult to find time to blog.. hah~
hey world, how's everyone out there??
i know it's probably a never ending cycle of lectures-fyp-lectures-fyp now...where there's practically no time for anything n everything now..but everyone do take good care of yourselves k?
have been in this state of...lost..but fight on joanne fight on! it's less than a yr to grad...jia you you!
randomness...
but there's a couple of impt dates to look out for other than exams and quizzes...
17 oct
18 oct
31 oct
1 nov
and my parents n lil bro are going to indonesia end oct...means hall is going to be my home for close to 2 months.. hmmx.
happy birthday to the october babies! hahaaa

with love,
joanne

yesterday was my mum's 53rd birthday. it had been some time since we celebrated either parent's birthday with a cake. dad's birthday is next month.. keyan, u and gor's turn to buy cake hor.. =P and after all these years... realised my mum does act cute.. lol~ let me put up her picture of her trying to blow the candle. she didnt want to appear old, so we only put up one candle. lol~

see my mum also know how to act cute one k...lol~

that aside..

i realised that negativity has once again found its way back into my life. i feel stupid... that no matter how hard i worked, i dont see any results. it's a painful realisation and it has it has impacted me hard. i just don't seem to be able to do well in anything. i feel lousy. i know i have already come so far, and there are other people who are having it worst off than me, but what gives me the right to complain...? =( sigh~ i dont want to be a disappointment, but... i cant help it.

feeling lost.

and helpless...

good morning world,
=) slept really hoping that i'd be feeling better by the time i wake up...
but...my nose has yet to stop leaking...and i feel a slight cough coming up...
sigh sigh~
let me go blog a little then go on to study...(hopefully)
hahah since i cannot get back to sleep, i shall attempt la..
maybe cos it's past the optimum no. of slp alr...
there has been a sudden increase in the number of ants crawling all around my table..
so irritated by them. haha~what's making it even more irritating is that i cannot find the source of these sweet loving creatures. no killing, just using the scotch tape to niam them.. sounds friendlier right..
met up with ziyuan for breakfast yesterday. as usual, i enjoy my usual chattings with her..though it was a short one since both of us were rushing for time. but it's always enjoyable=) i'm glad that you're having a wonderful life out there... as for a guy, no hurries in getting one la! hehe.
some times, it's not cause i want to be selfish. i just want to make sure that the decisions made are for the best. there's no time for regrets. not that i dont trust, but in making important decisions like that, there really isnt any room for error... (: no avoiding. when the right time comes, i'd let u know. (:
hmm.
hey wendy... how's your computer..? i havent seen you around u know.. take care k, if u ever see this...

sometimes, in life, we just miss one another. crossing just right next to him/her without noticing. someimes, it's just being at the wrong place at the wrong time. just wait and see. keep on believing.

i heart you*

pissed off...
who gave you the right to hurt me like that?
sigh...='(
that's no way to show support or respect for me ok?
damn it...

we all need a little hug sometime....='(

i'm back home! =)
tiring week it has been for me..
congratulations to the new 9th Committee.. =) and wishing you guys all the best in the new term to come!
hmm, think there's half a million things that i've missed out this week. so i better catch up, like seriously..
i realised one thing recently, that no matter which route i choose to embark on, i always end up in the same destination. It isnt the best thing that should happen, but more often than not, there's nothing that i can do..=(
some things just cannot be forced...=x

this is a more than late post already.. haha.. the above is taken during the perhentian trip with the MSE club com members n steven. ignore the timetable at the bottom right.. used that as my laptop's desktop backgrd. Didnt save the psd file..so..zzz let's just ignore that part of the picture.

ok.. right it's all part of the 'joanne thing'. thank you everyone for making it such an enjoyable trip for me. =D loves*.

school has started, and it's coming to the end of the term as FC for me already.. Best wishes to whoever is taking over me! =D i'll pass down whatever i know.. to the best of my knowledge...and school's still fine for me now.. first 2 weeks have past..

this semester, i have embarked on something that i've been wanting to learn for a long long time. i know it's probably not too smart to review it on the blog..cos of certain readers.. haha but i guess if you want to find out, you can always ask me! =D wish me all the best! dont worry for i'll be careful..

so many things have happened over the past couple of weeks..obviously sincei i havent been updating to close to one month already.. i remembered the last post with me ending off with 'brb on the unhappy issues', but i never really got around to returning to them huh.. well.. it has all been mixed up.. so i dont know how to start..

to wendy! thank you for listening to me complain all the time.. i know i probably am in this state of denial.. but i seriously dont know how i should be complaining.. sorry. seriously you can go on and complain about how much you dont like him cos i totally wont mind. i know you only want the best and it's something in you that's screaming out..your alarm bells are ringing.. i understand...

i dont know what will happen from now on, but let's really hope that our alarm bells are faulty. sigh. and i'm sorry, for not able to be there..when u need me. but.. ring me or sms me k.. i'll really try..!

i guess.. life is that unpredictable. you never know who will appear suddenly.. in the most unexpected ways. you can never really judge a cover by its looks. catch who you want along the way. there's no right or wrong in any r/s. go and try out what you want.. i know it's probably not as easily done as said... but go all out.

good luck to those taking 4525 quiz tml! jia you jia you! best to me too!

supposed to meet my manager avril, daniel and a few others for badminton now..but the rain is so huge, i think i have problems reaching there dry... and you all know how joanne is a non-umbrella girl. =P so.. here i am, stuck in hall 7, trying to reach src dry. this is an issue nw, cos i no longer stay in hall 1. which is damn near src. but i have no complains.. really. =)i like my cosy little room now. =P


anyway,here's a picture, of me and my colleagues at fels...

so instead of many many pics, i decided to put them all into one! hahaha=)

think i shall make an effort to take the shuttle bus over to src to meet them first. =) nvm the rain i guess. =P

brb on more unhappy issues...

hello world!
today marks the last day of work in keppelfels.
i've been there for 6 months and 5 days. almost comparable to the longest period of time at cpf.
5 months as an attache, one month as a temp clerk+ as a temp clerk..
leaving is sweet sorrow in this case. 6 months, true friends made indeed.
thank you everyone in steelstock and warehouse4 for making the time such an enjoyable one for me. and people like arjay, bright, tay, gareth. thank you. if i do come back in a yr's time, you guys will definitely be the people who i would like to meet again. 6 months on, i'm going back to school, leaving behind a whole bunch of wonderful people. something sweet about leaving is the fact that maybe i will shed some weight...cos these people really feed me well too! hahaa..and leaving behind all the politics...well, i know this is inevitable in any environment. special thanks to hani, shidah n sab darling. you guys made me cry like 5 times today lah! thanks for everything. sab darling, dont so upset over me leaving, we'd be in touch right! i will post up the photos soon!

on a different note, this is an excerpt for wendy's blog.. i hope you dont mind babe...

"lowly MARRIED men flirting.
insulting the true meaning of a marriage.
plus, married and they have kids.
flirting with us.who do you think we are?
impressionable young girls that you can take advantage of?
have you ever spared a thought for your wife?scumbag."

she sounded really pissed off. haha~ i think i can understand why this entry...
but, hey i think this doesnt happen all the time right?
dont lose confidence in guys cos of this k..
i cant say for sure, that i am really confident in any relationship, but giving trust to the person who loves me, makes it all easier.
i have seen both types of guys, the ones who go out flirting, and the ones, who really love their girls.
but it's true if they've let you down once, you will tend to be more wary.
and guys, dont blame the girls for being suspicious, if u hv disappointed them before.

my fav boy, is moving on in his career, jiayou k dar..muackz.
it's been a long long time since i posted...i duno if anyone still visits, but i want to let you all know, i miss all of you. Hugs~

starting on my FYP soon...
i should.. jia you everyone, for the final yr to come..

hello~
think most people should have ended their attachment by now...
but i'm extending as a temp for another one month or so...
think it'd be good for me to earn that few extra dollars...=D
more or less planned out my timetable which i want next sem....let's hope enuff i get it.
joanne needs to really really work hard or else she dun need to graduate liao..
i hate to say this, but over the years, i kind of feel dumber n dumber...
results slipped ever since JC and it doesnt appear as though i am able to pull up much, but in any case.. i will work hard hard..jiayou jiayou! at least i should make me proud of myself. =X
i was looking through some blogs lately..then i realised something so familiar..some times when we seek help from others, we tend to forget that these people are under no obligations to help. sometimes unknowingly, these people actually start to feel as upset as you are even if the matter dont really concern them. then when they realise that they put in so much effort to help you..but in the end you chose to give up, they will be utterly disappoint.. yes it's true, people dont wish to help those who wont help themselves. Its an irony...unknowingly, it's actually a cycle... it falls back on you eventually. i guess the really 'highest level' is when you help someone, not wanting anything in return, and no matter how these people may choose to view the help you render, it doesnt matter, cos all you want to do, is to help them from the bottom of your heart. i dont think i have been able to reach anywhere close to it. hah~i guess i was also one of those who didnt hold on to the hands offered to me when i was down in the deepest pit last time.. more often than not, i chose to sit down there at the bottom, waiting for day to see light.. when i see a hand stretched in to pull me out, i chose to ignore...and yet some times when i try to climb on my own, i ended up bruising myself more than ever.. staying in there forever. but things do change.. and believe in it. no matter how difficult something may appear to be, keep believing. miracles do happen.
some times, words can be so harsh. many a times, as much as you dont mean what you say, it just slips out of your mouth... give and take bah~ leave the knives out... and put a little sugar, it doesnt really hurt that much no? am sorry to those whom i've hurt with words. i know it can be painful.
you know, even the best of friends can one day become enemies... and even the best of friends will leave you in the lurch one day... i used to believe in forever friends, but maybe not anymore. hahaz.
this is yet another very random post with ideas running everywhere, pardon me though.
*i think i am falling ill....oh man.
oh..and i think i am a 幸福little girl. =D i had mac breakfast this morning...*blissful* hehehee...smuacks! <3>
take care everybody... joanne misses alot of you...

hello world, =0
i havent been here for some tim e alr..
another very random post i'm going to have here..
IA is supposed to come to an end soon on 7th June, but guess?
i'm extending my service with keppel as a temp.
=) happy in the sense that i wont be leaving these people at work so soon

and i have come to one coclusion in recent days...when i have my own kids in future, the last thing i really would get for them would be those squeak squeak shoes..just the other day i was on the mmrt train... this little kid was jumping all the way from boon lay station all the way till toing bahru where i alighted.. can u imagine.. the noise from all his jumping on the squeak squeak shoes +the squeaking noise from the train carriage... whoa, max noise level up! hah.

hmm i guess the theory goes on, that what will go wrong will go wrong. and whatever meant to be will be.new relationship builds, some thought to be strong fail. but in the end, life goes on, whether youl like it or not. alot of things dont have to be said.. just need to put your heart in and feel it bah... some friends, despite being away from you for some time, when u meet them again after some time..you just feel like telling them everything, as though it was just yesterday that you last met her. some people you know for a long long imte, but at a flick of the finger, everything goes down the drain. some things dont need a reason to happen.

=)having this lab safety talk and quiz tml.. took leave for that and to settle some things at finance office side. then i'm going to meet my long 'lost' fren yuan! hehe*excited*

for a change, i think i have started to look at things at a different anf\gle these days.. is it because i have grown older or something along that line? haha i duno for sure. but i know for sure, anything can happen, whether you like it or not...

when u fall down, learn to pick yourself up.. maybe it's late, but it's never too late...
last week has been a sad week, but we all move on. take care sham, take care fit, you guys will be missed.

i still like that *tinkle in your eyes... your pretty smile. =D

hi world,
i'm back. =)
it's 2 weeks more to the official end of IA...
shall start planning on what i really want to do after IA ends.
dont think i will be looking for any jobs or whatsoever...
maybe start on FYP or something...
i feel old suddenly...
i mean it's going to be my final yr... and whoa. =X
hahaz.
recently there were some issues with some one.
i guess that's it.
i thought guys always put their egos ahead of other things...
but i think this one person has none. some things i just cannot accept, tolerate
all the best.

randomness.
fellow-ia-mates...
jia you!
take care everyone.

hi world...

it has been at least a month ago since i last blogged...

no longer updating that often...

for all those who want to know how i'm doing...

here's how i look like now..

still happy and glowing! =D

it's coming to the end of IA... and the past couple of weeks have been quite interesting..

thanks sugrin for the opportunity to step out of the office for the past week.

it has indeed been enriching.

seems like the world is having a harder time than me..

with all the natural disasters happening around me, i guess my life is fortunate alr.

world, you need to be stronger.

there're so many people that need support.

more updates on my life..

coming soon.

something in those eyes...tells me you are in love with me....i think i love you too.
Xiaobai, love you! okok..enough enough..for those who know who xiaobai is, =) for those who dont. hahaz. i will reveal some day..
anyhows,
had an early birthday celebration with ex-rmie-to-be chak and als.. =) yay. i hope that massager works for your mum as well for you. =P and i hope you liked the mango thing and the dinner...meanwhile good luck for your exams k? and your driving...heh your favourite rmie yong yuan support you! i know 23rd April is between 2 papers... so you study hard in the room while i get you dinner that day k. dont tell me you going out to celebrate. hahaz.
went to batam with als and colleagues after work on saturday...not too bad a trip but als n i ate and ate and ate. wrong, but hehh..next time we shall go for massage and stuff, but let's stay overnight or something there...
i have this sudden impulse to start exercising again, lose those fats bulging from everywhere...i hope so. =X
randomness..but i just felt like blogging...
in any case...
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY to my little bro Keyan.. hope you enjoyed the duck rice! and the doughnuts! =D jia you for exams...make sure you do better than your sister in studies k! =D
and i know my MSE frens are having exams too...lucks k people?
cheers.
=)

with the rising cost of single rooms, i have decided to do away with the idea. =X and i think there's this very high chance that bai and plopper will get to meet one another. no? =P
have been busy lately..no time to blog.. so no updates. fell sick and got well again, having some issues over and again... but most importantly, spending lots of quality time with my other half. yes i am happy. very happy. even dinner can be so entertaining. ok i know we two are like 2 small kids but haha we like=D. thanks darling <3.>
some dedications:
to my 0403 gals..when are we meeting up? good luck with exams..and u know joanne loves you!
to yun, han, wen, woods, vivian, etc etc, see ya all soon k! haaax! jia you to those having exams!
to wendy..stuuuupid chewie..havent met with her..i miss ya...
to rmie chak and ah bai.. i'm coming! arrrrrr..
to sze n alan...see ya all back in spore! =D i want my can move CJ7!
to goaty bro-tke lots of care n have lots of chocs k? little sis miss ya! jia you for exams~! pass ya some chocs soon~!
to those who havent been in my life lately, take care.
to my o/r half- i heart you. =) let's psycho mummy daddy together k? then we go batam with my colleagues. =D jia you at work..

it's appreciating simple things.

aiks my cough is back, though less serious this time but it's gd friend flu came along with it... and u knw how much i hate running noses. and any med for flu usually makes one drowsy, so i did away with it. =X then again, i know i should be sleeping to repay my rest.. but there're certain things which i want to blog about..or rather, many different issues..
i know sadness lives in everyone. some more than others.. some people tend to be harder than others. but i choose to believe that no matter how cold or heartless one seems to be on the outside. i know they feel. these people just dont know how to express themselves. just dont want to show people the soft side of them. i know U feel, and something tells me u arent the type of person of person people think you are. although i know U will never get a chance to see this. But i truly admire U. This U i a colleague of mine.
i'm tired.. zzzz talk abt the rest soon.

i'm f**king pissed off. Please dont make your piece of shit my piece of shit. You know i dont deserve this. And your words stung on impact. But later i got to realise that HEY. i know very well i have done nothing wrong, and i agree with what wendy said. It's your imcapability to keep your guy. Dont conveniently use another girl as the excuse.

i bought a new printer, and happily trf the old one to my piggy's place. and at the moment we're high on printing our own picrtures. Lol. IT fair meant a new printer, and a new mouse and a $5 headphone w/mic. =)

so many things to say, but i'm tired.

no tears from you Joanne. your tears are not to fall for those unworthy.

darling. i think i need choc therapy. =X (excuse)

i have a bad bad throat...it hurts each time i swallow saliva. which is pretty bad. my system goes this way, when start to fall sick, it's usually nothing much or really really bad. it has been some time since i last had a sore throat...and this time round, this is bad. *ouch*. and here i am, all alone in hall, nursing a bad sore throat, on a super quiet recess week friday night.=( pray hard i dont get a running nose, cos i hardly do, but once i get it, i take 2 weeks to recover? haha i think i need honey water or something along that line...someone be nice enough to get me some? hahaa
It's Friday! and i had two days off this week for the yearly MSE-IMRE challenge... pretty much a success i would say. i guess some people change when they reach the top.. but that's pretty much a sad thing in life...
so many decisions in life to make. sometimes, you look back and regret the choices you make, but what doesnt turn out right only makes you stronger right? i know one wrong step may just lead you on a wrong wrong path. and what happens if you cannot find the way back to the correct path? would someone eventually lead you on the correct path? or will the lessons learnt on the wrong one give you the experience to find the right way out?
So many people i've disappointed in this life of mine. sorry. i know i'm not very capable. that i fell bad once and could not pick myself up, but i'm surviving ain't i? sorry for the many mistakes i've made, the many wrong decisions i have made. for all the evil i've done.
found out alot of things that shocked me this week. you know how different things would have been if figured out earlier...but its abit late...things could never be the same again.
we make a choice. we're products of our choices.
on a lighter note...
hey shiva! how's itchy and scratchy? =X i want to see pictures of them! =P i know they love you! and tell me you love them too. =)
I wanna play tennis.. go swimming and work up a tan...wait till i get better first.
Hugs.. i miss so many of you...i know i'm not doing enough to meet u all..

ah, i'm sorry. I dont even know how to comfort myself when i'm feeling down, let alone others. i feel the pain with you, but i dont know how to express myself. i feel lost as well, but i dont know to share. it's heartbreaking...to be unable to do much as a friend. i know i have disppeared from alot of your lives, give me time to come back ok?
recent;y gave away of some of my hammies. i know they will have new happy homes. hey hammies be good with your new owners ok? =D your godma here will rmb you little guys. but i know you are in good hands. I'm sorry to hear abour Baby. when i heard the news, my heart fell apart too, i'm sorry i couldnt say much over the phone. but lBaby has gone to a better place ya? Cheers
you know, it's never too hard to keep a smile on... even if one's aching that bad inside. been feeling emo these days, aRGH. but i be fine. =)

Happy Birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to shi-va-nannnn..

Happy Birthday to you...=)

Joanne sings*

Happy Birthday to you...

Happy Birthday to you...

Happy Birthday to ZiYuan,

Happy Birthday to you~ =)