hmm..quite sometime since i last blogged already.. well..many things happened in this week of mine..? quite ok ba.. tired though.. i guess it's no excuse..? time is there for me to find..? whatever lo.. hmm..think office politics are never meant to be understood la.. dont understand why ppl can climb so high despite their capability of pushing all e responsibility of pushing everything away from themselves..maybe cos of that they hardly make any mistake? well..meanwhile life has been evolving around work and more work..ya..my first job.. 3 months into it liaoz.. hope it lasts till e time i have to enter U la.. today is sunday..woke up like oni two hrs ago.. havent been sleeping enough so i guess it's ok to slp in on sundays..? was kind of drained but then was wide awake on the bed.. madness la.. not exactly sure what time i fell asleep in e end.. hmmx.. this whole wk has been goin ok ba.. went joggin w colleagues on thursday..was out on friday.. then wk on sat..then out w colleagues again..got pulled out by caroline la..pulled guan siang along also..yued some1 else along too..haz.. how come it's possible w some colleagues yet so impossible w some others...? realised i'm not e only 1 who is against "her".. den while havin dinner received msg frm friend..then decided to pei ta..went dou feng..talked.. realised it's nv easy2 be there..? maybe i'm stil young..havent seen much, havent felt much.. havent experienced what life truly is about yet..1st 3rd party who actually heard my side of story also.. maybe chances have already slipped by..maybe it's time i learnt to let go..hmmz.. bleah. went home ard 11 las nite..learnt alot.. glad things are fine le.. cheers ba ya.. to all.. never let chances slip by ba..when it's too late, there's nothing u can do abt it liaox.. nv allow it to die dwn cos once it does, it may nv return 2 wad it used to be anymore... take care...

hello..how's life..? settled a few things tonight.. i made my university decisions, wrote ms goh's referee letter.. i dont know why i'm so keen in material science and engineering but it just interests me..hopefully i get it la...hmmx.. well.. i guess u are right.. i'm not hanging to the job..i'm just learning how to survive in a job.. true enough i myself am not sure whether this job is making me v hot tempered.. but i know that i'm speaking more straightforwardly now..hax..i dont know if it's good or nt.. have i really changed? i wonder..

made a really big mistake at work today.. i wondered what went wrong with me la.. how could i shred off without seeing..? what's wrong with me man.. too tired, too stressed, or jus plain careless..? jus dun wish to lose my job due to this man..

havent been back to east coast park for some quiet time for quite somtime already.. then finally found a chance yest..seriously think it's a nice place to think about things.. e cool breeze.. e stars.. u simply get to see a side of peaceful life..away from all e hetic life...suddenly seem to be able to leng jing.. mabe i shud go back there more often..

hmm..in some things that we do..we always need to take things less seriously, relax more is wad i'm always told.. realli meh..i dont know y la.. haz. some things no need worry too much..? like chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi..? maybe la..

tired... night...

it has been a week or so since i last blogged already..been too tired for the past week.. it has been taking a toll on me la.. work.. then suddenly everything crashing in again... as it goes.. i finally couldnt stand not being treated as human.. i stood up for myself and argued. i still cant believe i did it.. nor do i know if it's something i should have done.. but i could take it no longer. maybe as we grow up we realise that sometimes we shouldnt really bother about others.. why bother about what others think when they do not appreciate what u have been doing for them.? i didnt blog last week do i dont think anyone could have sensed the anger that was in me. i dont stay here to be insulted and treated non- humanely... sigh. it's time to think about oneself huh... i lost myself again on sunday.. i tried to smile my way through the exhibition but i was simply not in the mood.. sucks la.. went to work the next day looking like a dumb goldfish.. so many things so little time.. i have to tackle so many things at one go.. meanwhile.. i guess i can only take things one at a time.. ? for work.. wo neng ren zhe ren ba.. shui ran shuo i dont think i should forever be keepin all these to myself.. but meanwhile.. i just have to hold back my own unhappiness first ba.. haz. how i keep contradicting myself.. life has to go on.. y not live life happily..? haz.. easy said..? i've got so many things to say.. so much to complain.. i'm glad some people remain around ba.. ok.. As out las week.. i guess it was ok? other than GP la.. suckz man. oh well.. tinking of material science and engineering.. shal see.. take care.i'll be back to update..? k.. cheers to all.. SMile.

hiz to all.. Hmmz.. it has been a long long week for me.. not really a week yet but tiring enough already.. here i am though tired cos i'm waiting for my hair to drY.. have been knocking off at 7-730 lately..cannot believe it ba... hmmz.. then i havent been completing my recording on time.. this is sad man.. then each day just pile up like that.. paiseh ar guan siang.. not able to do wdl recordin on time.. deadline 3pm but i 12+ havent even started on my schemes leI.. i'll try to do it tml morning ba.. i know WDL more hurry lo.. this few days down to 2 person w ys on 3 days mc.. doc said may be dengue..it better not be lo...cos tmo lots of mosqui.. take care.

results out on fri.. dont wanna think about it really but had quite a converstion about it already.. haiya.. many ppl think the same way with why bother what others have to say as long as u have tried your best already.. cos it'm my own life right..? haiya.. but yet again we shouldnt be disappointing others who have put in so much.. in know i spoilt my chance in others to have confidence in me cos of a stupide mistake but nvm.. it's life... whatever has happened has.. what's the point of thinking so much about it?

everyone makes mistakes in life right..? nothing will be forever smooth sailing.. hmmz.. sometimes i just dont understand what i'm doing.. maybe it's good to be forever in a stage like that.. then life would be so full of adventures right..?

many reminding me not to overwork myself.. dont worry.. will take care.. u all too.. this point in time.. cannot afford to fall ill.. so to all take care ya..? results out on fri.. good luck to all.. ok ba.. i'm going off le.. somehow.. i just miss my classmates.. haiz.. nvm.. will see them soon.. cheers.