hello all! i'm back from china! yay fulfilling trip indeed. i didnt buy anything though, but the scenaries from guilin, priceless.. let me take you through my journey, which is going to be a super long one.. =P

19-12-2007

我的二十一岁生日就在新加坡机场，深圳航空，南宁机场，和凤凰酒店度过了。。

the security guard that was standing at the departure hall wished me happy birthday when i went through the departure hall. haha for a while i 冷了一下。。quite shock la.. yep.. the flight onboard shenzhen airlines took close to four hours, and upon arrival in nan ning, the journey to the hotel took another 45 mins. was slightly introduced to the tour guide yangyi and nan ning. then checked into phoenix hotel. not too bad a hotel.

20-12-2007

after breakfast, we set off for a 4.5 hrs journey to 德天瀑布。。it's this waterfall that lies between vietnam and china, can u imagine, i can see vietnam across from where i stood taking pictures.

and this one trip took us the whole day practically, cos it was a 4.5hrs there and return.. and as usual, Joanne liked to 自拍。。
21-12-2007

this was a trip to a beautiful park and the nan ning's 'EXPO'. And we spent several hours again on the road to guilin. =) slept alot on the bus on the first couple of days...

22/10/2007

went to this village far far away where the yao minority lived. very nice scenery along the way..=) interesting traditions they had too..

23-12-2007

this was a day of many new adventures. we went to the caves, and they were several ways to get around. amazing. got to ride this 'kart' look alike thing. haha. and then the cable car.. look at the pictures.. went up the highest mountain in guilin by cable car. admired really scenic views. amazingly beautiful.

24/12/2007

went to visit more places of interest, and a 'preserved' university compound of the olden days. haha.. got to see the examination halls, which was well pretty not the type of place we can imagine ourselves to be in..taking an exam. hahz.

25-12-2007

got around alot on the rivers. toured li jiang on ferry, saw the olden days fishing on the bamboo poles made 'boats' and took lots and lots of pictures. beautiful. as the saying goes, 桂林山水甲天下。i truly agree. things you always thought could only be seen in pictures, appear right before you.. seriously, it takes every breath away from you. =) and on this christmas night, i went to a so-called 'club' in nanning with yang yi, zhang fan and celine. it was an interesting experience. thanks to yangyi and zhangfan for the outing. realised that beer has little effect on me, but that doesnt mean i will drink... haha. and thanks celine otherwise known as xiaoxu for the company that night.

from all the pictures, i guess you all would have figured out that i really enjoyed myself. 可惜欢乐时光短暂。。时间也不会因此而停留。thanks to those who made the trip a wonderful time for me. i recommend guilin! =P

i had an enjoyable 21st birthday celebration yesterday... =) i'm a happy girl. thanks everyone for making it such a wonderful time for me. i hope u guys enjoyed yourselves too. and i'm sorry for not being to entertain everyone! as expected, some people didnt come but it's alright i know you guys have your reasons.. =) thank you everyone for the gifts and well wishes, the special song dedication from yun han and chak=) the hand-made gift from han, and the many many other things. thanks alot. and to my dear boy, thank you so so much, for the not vv well kept MIB secret...the chalet, the customized cake, LOL. thanks for everything. i <3>

i know how i shouldnt allow these kind of crap to put me down, but knowing the kind of person i am, most of you would know that this, will no doubt affect me in some way or another. fortunately i still have people around to help me maintain my sanity. you see, being nice doesnt prove to yield expected results. i backed out long ago, realizing that it would only do more harm then anything else.. choosing not to interfere, not to bother, even to ignore. but then the soft-hearted me decided that hey, our paths met, why go to such extent... but this decision to be nice, was a wrong move. wrongly accused, sleepness nights. ended up in an irritated and pissed off me. i dont want to hate you, so do the right thing...enough of this.. shant spoil the entry..
falling sick relatively easily this holidays. the first was a fever after 2 days in the rain during the isg. then now i'm down with a cold and slight cough, watery eyes and all...uRGh. must be the rain and the fatigue...
played a couple of games for isg this time round. unfortunately for me, unable to go further for IH with the rest of the oners.. going to guilin come this 19dec to 26dec. so jia you if we get thru the next round, i dont mind playing IH tennis when i come back! =)
as i approach 21 yrs old, i suddenly feel old.. i hope the celebration on 15 will be a good one. =) yay with the people i love spending the moment with me. yay! hehh =) preparations are on the way...yeppx.
lots of pictures i wanna post... so many many pics in my cam, shalll do it all at one shot when i come back from china kk? =D
cheers all...

been wanting to blog since i got so much time..but then hahaaa each time i rem, something else will distract me from blogging.. hehe i have been busy ds-liting and reading blogs while in hall, cos have training meeting and ISG, didnt see much point in going home then coming out again.. so yepp.. preparation for my birthday is ongoing, although i really am not doing alot of stuff.. got to thank my mama for volunteering to cook, my older bro for helping to settle my buffet, and my daddy for sponsoring the food=P heh..and most importantly, not forgetting the fav boy of mine... for the booking of the chalet n the miscellaneous stuff. hehe.. u say nothing will go wrong one ah =X hehe.. and also thanks the girls who volunteered to help with decor, that leaves the upcoming birthday girl with nothing much to do...thanks many many..love you all! and oH ya not to forget to mention that i am going to Guilin-china from 19-26 dec...yepz u people must rmb to miss me ok..=P nothing much has been going on lately.. my goaty brother failed his driving.. ALL THANKS to the same reason why i failed my 2nd time.. i mean not totally the same reason, but the circumstances leading to it..dang... i was like what the! but it's alright right bro, there's always next itme. =) cheers. think sophia and chak rmie also going for their tp soon.. all the best yaa=) jia you jia you! havent heard from many many people, guess all busy with their own things...meanwhile i shall go pay my bed a visit, thanks to the wonderful weather=) take care

i realised how fragile life could be...
appreciate.

mouse for my lappie ( maybe a wireless one?)

a laptop casing/skin for my 15.4 inch laptop

facial/skincare(bio-essence/neutrogena)

hair care products

formal/semi formal denim-looking jacket( havent been able to find)

watch (maybe a formal digital one? been wearing sports watches since duno when)

a RED DSlite (muahaahaha to spend my IA days with)

a big formal bag

salon voucher(is there such a thing?)

small handbag for going out(fits a hp, long wallet, small bottle dslite=x and keys)

earrings(those hook on dangling kinds)

TV-tuner card(usb)

*small and italic means taken*

heh here to blog again...was told to take certain items off the list so that i wont be receiving like many many bags or different watches from different groups of people...=D thanks people, but heh your presence would be more that suffice too.. otherwise if you all headache, can always bao me a big big angpow one u know hehe..cant remember who told me that for my 21st, i should just buay paiseh, what i need jus tell people. lol... well well, as long as you think it's something that's useful and i would likely need it, then i am ok liao ok=D just that no chocolates, no tazzies ok? but i havve ever since added a few more items =D

cheers. yawn yawn, had a good time with the uni people today at chinatown singing..=D round 2 with the jc peeps tml.. sadly i dun reali sing well...=x

whoaaa it has been a superly long time since i last blogged? and yes i am here to announce that exams have ended.. so happy! though there were less papers to take as compared to the past sems, the papers have significantly taken alot of energy out of me. i guess for now, all i want to do is to have a really good sleep..thank you all those who have played an active role in keeping the sanity in me in these tough times to fight off the battle, thanks to my fav for the neverending understanding of the totally stressed out me and thx esp to those who answered my calls to give me understanding to the simplest of the questions. thank you... =D shall blog a little on the events of the past few days.. exams officially ended yesterday..basically all the papers didnt really go too well. with the past yr papers having almost little relevance.. this time round, i'm praying really hard that all will go well. for now i will also be on a 7 months break away from my books=D yes i will be on IA next semester, hoping that it goes well. meanwhile will also be making an effort to prepare my birthday party... =) will take time off to have a good and well-deserved rest..spending time with my coursemates before they start to fly off for GIP or go to our respective IA companies. And also means i have more time for my special someone=) not having to worry about exams and lects and tuts....
digress off a little... i want to say that people come and go, while there are some people you hope will come and remain part of your life, there are some who wished had just been acquaintances. time goes, people change. and usually when the changes are made, it's jus too much effort to undo. that is especially so when u come and go as you wish. the heart may yearn at the beginning, but eventually, it numbs and forget about it, and then the matters get happily settled at one corner of the heart.. when u decide to treat another person as someone you will go to in need of trouble, and shove aside when you are going on happy with your life, then you should be ready for the restrictions that you may face when you try to move the feelings that have settled in the corner of the heart. eventually, it just becomes stubborn.. and remains settled. how many times do you want to try to stir it? you know, sometimes, it just isnt about both parties putting in effort to change things le.. i mean to keep a simple friendship going, does it really need to take so much effort? i dont blame anyone for the circumstances. it gets irritated when the same thing happen over and over again..and again. i aint going to be putting in any effort, if you want to, i hope it's something significant enough for me to change whatever impression i have for you...
yep... that was quite an amount of digression.. good thing it has been put off till now.. anyway i caught Enchanted with Sze yest..=D it's a superly superly nice show.. ever ever after does happen with the right person haha.. so fairytale..but it's a show you shouldnt miss, beautiful script, mesmerizing music, wonderful ending. yeppz... i seriously wont mind catching it a 2nd time. and just like any other person, i look forward to a happy ending in whatever i do...=D cheers all, do take care and jio me out! i'm free=X

hi all, rmb the wishlist i have previously? hahaz =X

mouse for my lappie ( maybe a wireless one?)
a laptop casing/skin for my 15.4 inch laptop
facial/skincare/hair care products(getting older, need to look better haha)
formal/semi formal denim-looking jacket( havent been able to find)
watch (maybe a formal digital one? been wearing sports watches since duno when)
a RED DSlite (muahaahaha to spend my IA days with)
a big formal bag

haha have removed some of it and the ones that are smaller, i already have people who are offering to get it for me or i alr have it...=D hee

meanwhile..i am preparing for my quiz tml... and the exams that start next wed... good luck... till then, jia you everyone!

hmm..abit early, but then since some people have asked... so i shall make a post...=P ok, so to those who are wondering what's on my 21st birthday wishlist, just want to mention that.. no more tazzies for me ok? unless you want to buy a house to house them.. hahaa=X and no more chocs for me? unless you all want to buy slimming pills along with them.. =X although these two are my current favourites, haha but yehh i have quite alot of them at the moment..=D

my wishlist is as goes... maybe not the full one but..=P

a mouse for my lappie ( maybe a wireless one?)

a laptop casing/skin for my 15.4 inch laptop

facial/skincare/hair care products(getting older, need to look better haha)

formal/semi formal denim-looking jacket( havent been able to find)

watch (maybe a formal digital one? been wearing sports watches since duno when)

a RED DSlite (muahaahaha to spend my IA days with)

a big formal bag

OSIM's UZap or its like..( hahaaa time to lose the size)

Dieting pills?

...

hehee to be continued..

jia you with studying

havent really been blogging lately.. dont exactly have much time for it.. exams are around the corner, i have a presentation next week, a quiz the week after.. panic big time... haiz.. then there's 3002 assignment as well.. have recently sent out birthday invitations and have gotten back quite a substantial number of replies.. thanks people! =D appreciate lots.. =D

i witnessed an accident yesterday while driving out of NTU.. i mean i have seen alot of accidents, but mostly the post accidents state... yep, yesterday was the first time i witnessed the real situation of an accident. fortunately or unfortunately, it wasnt serious. just damage done to the front of a subaru and the back of a hyundai family car.. pieces flying alll about.. it's either that i've been on the road more lately or there is an increasing number of road accidents lately.. people, be careful when u drive alright? =)

jus received news my lil bro topped his class again.. hahaz. is he smart or wad( lucky=X) alright... anyway congrats lil bro...

gota go off for lessons... take care to all...

HAPPY 21st NingNing...

attended her 21st Birthday yesterday.. been attending many many 21st recently... hehe best wishes to all okie! i'll be sending out my invitations too... before the exams...early but yep..need to settle place everything early mahz

read through a couple of blogs lately...

to you, i'm sorry to hear of the break-up. i think guys should learn not to be so petty, if not it doesnt go down very well on them. it should be learning to accomodate and compromise. and giving in a little to the girl wont hurt as long as they are happy, and it keeps the relationship going. i'm not saying that guys should give in all the time(neither should the girls) but simple things, why let the relationship turn sour...and often enough, the guys' ego bring them down.i believe that when mistakes are made,esp a long time ago, it brings no purpose in raising them again, unless you are so keen to spoil relationships..in any case, you take care ok...

beginning to really feel that open blogs free to all access arent exactly where too personal stuff should be shared.. haha. but i guess yep, you read what you want.. if you dont like it, dont read it...

i've moved on, shouldnt you?

hello world...
havent been updating.. here's something to share...

Dear Zhang Yingyan Joanne,We are pleased to inform you that you have been selected by Keppel Offshore & Marine after the interview.Programme Allocated: Internship @ Keppel [Programme Code : 1641]Programme Scope: 1. Material Corrosion Checks2. Material Corrosion Prevention Programme3. Site/field and hands-on experiencesField & Work Nature: Steel Materials (Site Checks, Analysis, Reports)Pre-requisites: NilAttachment Location: 50 Gul Road S(629351)BY CAREER & ATTACHMENT OFFICE

is this a cause for cheers? i definitely hope so.. so much for the irony that i didnt want to get it after the interview..but i guess its all fated.. so let's stop 'mourning' over it.. the very people who i thought would have gotten the interview didnt.. sigh~ but i shall try to make the best out of it.. 5.5 days workweek, so be it, i'm pretty used to it alr anyway right? =x

mountain of assignments..reports... helpz...

some of my recent creations.. from the many many photos that i have...

abit of blogging before i zznngg off to bed.. the recess week has past..jus like that... and it's sunday already... bigger sigh.. there's still so much work left undone..=( stress's building up... and i forsee myself indulging in chocolates again soon..

attended yet another 21st birthday party yesterday.. we're all growing up, arent we..few years back we were still 'little angels' maybe with a little tail =x in school uniform..from white&blue to blue&grey and finally algae green... we have already transformed to one in many colours.. and we start getting our driving licenses, start betting on 4-D=X.. how much we have changed..

it's heartwarming to see that the 04 frenship has not died.. we remain close even after taking off in our own paths 3 years ago.. 04 wan sui! though some people have no doubt left without any news, at least the bulk of us are still together.. it's good to know that there are some people you can continue to suan about her 'blurness'-xinwei... two to mention about their highness when together-geok and huiping.. 2 i can call dardar..wei ning and xw, someone i can talk about her long long hair short short fringe and fingernails about-liping.. someone i can 'irritate' and stand in between her n ning but not angry-leemin... and that forever very lihai teacher-to-be-lishan and the one who has her own car!-sab...love the 04 girls! =)

people change.. we all do... sometimes, we jus have to accept that others will not be the way we want them to be..i mean who are we to determine who others are...=)

on a happier note.. i have a new tazzie into my collection! thanks alot to my <3

cheers...

dear blog, i'm here to update you again! =X
so many things has happened since a year ago, some good, some bad..
some things linger on forever, but some things just disappear..
changes are inevitable..this time last yr i had rmie chak with me, but now i dont.. had xiaobai to celebrate mooncake festival with, but this yr i dont.. but why dwell on to the past.. at least i know chak will be near me soon, and i still get to celebrate mooncake festival with sophia and gang... =)
it's the recess week, or rather the not so recess, recess week..
for the uninformed..my laptop's mouse died on me.. and one of my frens asked me... huh ur hammie died?? when i put' my mousieee died on me' on my msn nick..lol~ =x okok i shall stop laughing at you..
my favourite recently introduced me to wowtv.com..some free movies online.. and though movies played are abit backdated, but some are really nice to watch..
going klunch with yun han and xuan. =D they are so going to sing for me! =P
alot of things to blog about actually.. but will hold for now.. take care people, and miss me kz?=)

hi world,

have not been around for some time already.. =X but here i am, to update again! =D before you all miss me too much, here's a picture of me.. lol~ zipaied with ning ning at sab's bdae party.. at blooies restaurant.. whhaahaa..

cannot confirm as of now if i am still going to bengkulu for my birthday.. having just been hit by the 2 7.9 earthquakes, i think my mummy is not too sure if its going to be safe for us.. though everyone of us jus decided that it will be safe already by then.. plans currently are to go there about a week before my birthday and stay there till christmas so it will be about 2 weeks. currently we want to go semarang as well.. so it's singapore-semarang-jakarta-bengkulu-jakarta-singapore... though things are on hold now... i still hope to go..

it's the recess week upcoming but i have lots and lots of things to do.. but it's not unexpected.. well, just have to try to work hard.. =D jia you everyone!

on this note would also like to congratulate MSE Club for having done well in the sales of the Swensens' Mooncake.. good one there friz! and thank you everyone for making it successful!

The IA interview schedule are slowly being reviewed.. so for those who have been shortlisted for interview, wish you all the best! for those who havent been informed, dont worry ah~ hmm..been shortlisted for interview at keppel... people wish me luck ok? u all know how jing zhang i get during interviews and all.. =haiz..

there's been good stuff, there's been bad. let us all take it a little easier.. we dont want it, but it happens.. and once again.. chak and xiaobai, here something for u... AAAAAAAAAAAaarrrrrrRRR. (inside joke) hahaa~ cheers everyone.

hello all..it's been almost a week since i last blogged. was proven wrong that despite the absence of electives, i am still busy like mad.. the number of project work to be done is a truly amazing amount..have been attending alot of 21st birthday parties this yr, with many more to go.. and i have decided that i probably wont be organising a large scale party..but a simple get together during the dec holidays.. think i will go book a bbq pit at east coast park or maybe have it in hall.. or something along that line... no chalets and such...and there are plans to go to indonesia to celebrate my birthday... yay! birthday+christmas.. wanted something different and told my parents..and they kind of agreed... =) meanwhile i shall save up for organising the party...=)
hmmz.. long way to go, but yaa...
and i have a nice phone now..thanks to dar dar...=D hugs~
cheers all...
and jia you everyone

i'm a happy girl today... i should be everyday.. =)
lol~ back in hall.. last week has been busy.. rallying, campaigning, elections..
thanks everyone for the support that you all have shown. and congratulations to all who were elected into the 8th management committee..
tutorials are in a sense piling up.. so much that i dont understand..sigh. 3002 is killing me the way that 2008 is.. haizzzz jia you joanne. it's only the 3rd week into school... =x hahz
i look ahead to the challenges that lie ahead.. some things, i already forsee.. we'll see..
take care =D

dear blog,
sorry for not having update u for so long...=x
i know being busy is no excuse.. but i have even been neglecting my camera...!
but i will try to update it as frequent as possible.. i am not being lazy!
tml is elections day.. i hope all goes well.. what is to be will be. =)
i realise i am someone who always dwell onto the past.. i am in wendy's terms. a worry-wart.. i tend to be so negative that it brings me down..
there's no point in dwelling on, and if u calm down and think about it, maybe things will not be as bad as u view it. this, something that has been trying to get into my mind but to no avail. those who know me well enough will know.
to keep positivity up is something that i havent been able to do.. but i am trying.
hmmz. it's a wonder..hw some people never fail to cheer u up, and some people never fail to put u down..
u will succeed, only if u keep trying...
cheers all!

i have been busy these two weeks, and it will get busier even the coming week.. but for the passion of it, i will keep going.. learning to time-manage would be something essential. dinner with the 7th Management Committee is tml night.. going to Sakura..the one in clementi.. =) think i am going to drive there? shall see about it...

been busy with the campaigning things.. heard last year they prepared like 500 pieces of things to be given out on election day.. whoa..amazing.. i did only about 300. thanks to dar.. and my board is also up..simple..but the point is there i guess.

tutorials start next week..ouch.. need to find time to do them.. =)

for those who havent seen me lately.. here's me.. hahaa. another one of those zi pai pix as usual.. yes yes i know i am still expanding horizontally..=x but i already cut down on my chocs liao ok! =P hahaa take care peeps. weather has been bad.. so keep warm, and healthy..=D

just want to thank all those people around who have been supporting me.. it feels good to know that even people i have barely known for long gives me their fullest support.. thanks guys...and to dar, for the upteen times i changed my mind, thank u for supporting me in whatever decision i made. love u..=) there's so many factors to consider to this decision. special thanks to duen sze eric anz for the great support.. and also to han han and yun for being my nominator and seconder..hahaa.. love u guys too. and to rmie chak and wen! love u all...=D hugs...
like rmie said, even if i dont get it, at least i tried..
=)
thanks chak!
school has started, been meeting chak and i am happy =D hahaa..

despite some of the unhappy issues, despite positivity on its down side... u all keep me afloat..
hugs~

hi all..been busy these couple of weeks... MSE Day 2007 was a success... i guess all the preparations didnt go to waste.. it was a wonderful feeling to see all my efforts..the teeshirts, the banner.. the paperbags.. thank u 7th comm for making it so enjoyable. and for the support throughout the year..=) love all of u to bits =D
i'm still thinking if i am going to run again next year...maybe doing something different would be beneficial for me.. i mentioned i want to join wsc? yupx...
so many things happened this week.. and one memorable thing to mention is my virgin solo drive.. hahaa. =x thanks dar for the confidence in allowing me to handle your car.. i realised i am not that lousy afterall.. hahaa..at least that's what the passengers i had over the past 3 days said to me after realising that i had only been driving for 6 months..i have a good teacher that's why! =P and also my virgin lorry drive... i realised it isnt as difficult as i had expected it to be..lOL..it dint have the trouble i thought i would face... point taken.. i need to try things out...
to ddd, jia you with your new job... =D
sorry i am more unreasonable lately.. but u dun mind right=P hugss...
take care...
i want to find time for everybody, but i cant...
=(

my year 3 starts tml.. it's a new year, a new beginning.. =) it's going to get busier even..
the past week has been good.. my family won the best family otherwise known as the best og.. =D truly commendable.. great job simpsons! love u guys... traditionally small but wonderful bunch of peeps!
i have a new room-mate... bai, gan ma miss u and zhu ren.. and niu niu.. i havent even got the chance to meet u much.. but roomie..... wednesdays are booked for the both of us ok! since we both have a shorter day on that day.
more updates... till then. tired..=x

it's my last day of work at CPF Tampines.. oh yeah..after almost three months here, my holidays is almost over.. and school is starting soon.. have been juggling between publicity stuff and work.. and i have come to a conclusion on certain things..i've learnt alot of things... and made a few decisions..
-some people just want to appear that they are doing work, but in actual fact they arent.
-there are also people who wants to act as if they are very lao jiao.. when they are only here for a short period of time..
-and please remember, people are not obliged to do what they want you to, even if it's a favour u are asking of them..BUT it does not make them useless, its a choice they are entitled to make. if they will do it for you, great.. if they dont, then it's just too bad for you. if such simple things they wont do it for you, it either means they hate you, or they just prefer not to do it for you, or that it is not convenient for them..
-sometimes, its better to do things yourself then to rely on others...
-some people, you just dont want to work with them again..
someone asked me if i will miss the people at work having worked here for 3 months.. i answered that i used to take it very emotionally when i had to leave or when people left.. but i come to realise that eventually, most of the people dont remember you..but the temps who i worked with, farhana, jasmin, wani, meow win, victor, pakkin, eugene, hairul.. these are the people i wil really miss.. it's again, all part and parcel of life..
more updates later.. i am still looking forward to 5pm..back to hall

it's raining outside.. and it's freaking cold inside here.. this seems to happen everywhere these days.. the air-conditioning everywhere seems to be free.. at work, in school.. even my jacket seem to offer no comfort anymore lah~ freaky weather.. it's been raining day in day out... and i realised i have become less tolerant of the cold.. sigh. weakness.

and i realised i really cannot donate blood due to this particular blood disorder that i have.. heh i was bored so i went to wiki for it.. and this is the results of it...

"

Any given individual has two β globin alleles.
If only one β globin allele bears a mutation, the disease is called β thalassemia minor (or sometimes called β thalassemia trait). This is a mild microcytic anemia. In most cases β thalassemia minor is asymptomatic, and many affected people are unaware of the disorder. Detection usually involves measuring the mean corpuscular volume (size of red blood cells) and noticing a slightly decreased mean volume than normal.



Thalassemia Minor
Contrary to popular belief, Thalassemia Minor patients should not avoid iron-rich foods by default. A serum ferritin test can determine what their iron levels are and guide them to further treatment if necessary. Thalassemia Minor, although not life threatening on its own, can affect quality of life due to the effects of a mild to moderate anemia. Studies have shown that thalassemia Minor often coexists with other diseases such as asthma, and mood disorders

"

haha.. it also explains why i easily feel faint when i stand up suddenly... not enough blood going to the brain i guess.. haa..it's fortunately i am usually not alone when it happens...
just had lunch...
your sudden disappearance frightens me...

have been reading a blog of someone i randomly found in my fren's blog..like i said, it's always interesting to find out what's happening in other's life, as well as learn from other people's point of views.. its learning too... i realised too, that i dont have friends whom have stuck together with me for a long time.. the only people i am really in contact with are my jc frens, and a rare number of secondary school friends.. missing out on alot of details in others life.. but yup i know it will happen one day... just want to let alot of ppl know that.. i may not show it, but i really have u all in my heart..-hugs-

maybe i dont want to go join the comm anymore..
i want to do something more meaningful.. not saying that club wk not meaningful, but i want to try something different=D
shall see about it..
cheers all..
HUgs~

chocolate cravings..
maybe choc fondue or choc buffet...?
once before i cut on chocs?
anyone up for it? =X

after the meeting yesterday night, i am even plagued with more things to do.. best subcom cert, additional logo, investiture cert.. tickets need to be done out, decor.. taureza u are so better going to be helping me with the stuff. 800 tics. so you get ready to print them at mse lab.. will be starting with the publicity things come next week.. it's going to be real busy.. sigh.. wrong choice to end work that late..but i need the moolah$$.

with alot of things to be bought before i start school again...
to buy list:
-iron +ironing board. enough of crumpled clothes...
-body foam, and maybe shampoo +conditioner too.. the current bottle in hall is depleting..
-maggie, canned corn..tuna.. need to save the moolah..
-new skirt (maybe)
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dar acc me kz? =X giegie...=D

till later....

there's something which i have been wanting to blog about...just that it slips my mind each time.. it's amazing how people can repeat the same thing everyday.. each day as i sit here at the singpass counter.. most of the time, i know exactly what the person in front of me will say next.. when u tell them that singpass minimum 8 characters..at least 8 characters.. they will tell you, " minimum 8 ah, 6 also can right..." then i will -__-'' amazing.. then at the end of signing.. they will tell u, what's my singpass huh? then i will be like 'huh? the one u just keyed in is your singpass..' and another thing is, u ask for their ic..then they wil give u their credit card ah, atm.. anything but the ic.. it happens everyday..and a few times at least that is.. haha it's interesting..but still i am looking forward to the last few days of work..
back to school soon.. looking forward to the books? haha.. not.
the next time, i want to look for a non-govt job...see how it feels like to work in other environments.. i tink i have been in cpf for too long.. =x haha. oh but i will get the chance next sem.. i will be on industrial attachment.. anyway i be starting in jan i heard, so i am thinking of making a trip overseas during my 21st.. get daddy to sponsor.. wanna go indo celebrate.. dar come with me? =X so let's hope what i heard is not wrong..
it's 45mins more to go.. joanne jia you!

boredom....

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hi all, it's been some time since i last blogged properly.. still dont have the chance to do that now, cos work continues.. and i tried to ask for my last day to be on sat, but they wouldnt allow that cos they cant find replacements as yet.. sigh which means that i am going to have a really tiring holiday..need to start on the publicity work for mse day... mentioning that i tink my banner is going to be delivered today i hope it turns out well.. then the teeshirt too... dang~ no reply from the supplier yet... i hope nothing screws up else reza u be in trouble..(ur recommendation =X)
lots of pictures taken during foc, till i have the time to post them up.. currently my arms are in the process of peeling.. i've got awful looking arms in addition to the bad itch from the regeneration of new skin.. bigger sigh. i tink its a lesson learnt.. in future if i am going to go under any sunlight of that 'tenacity' i will use sunblock.. something i honestly havent been using much of. alright i shall stop being stubborn...dont want to be scare of by roomie's ' your colour is so wrong..'
need to go back for club meeting tonight.. sigh it's a long journey from the east to west..but good company always makes it better. =D
just smsed the supplier. delivery can be done this week. but i doubt i can make it to receive the delivery.. then it cost $15 for delivery... dont knw whether they want to collect or ask for a delivery.. but shud delivery be this week, someone has to be there to rec.. shall check with the others tonight... at 0920 in the morning, i am already looking forward to 1700.. lol..i knw i should stop dreaming a little.
recently someone told me that i am so different online and in person. ya that's really true. i tend to open up to people online more than i do in real life.. it's a problem i face.. i may have half a million thing to say to you when i am online but when i see u in person, it may be a totally different thing.. for me, somehw it feels safer to talk to someone behind the screen, cause when u r online, u dont see the person. and u really need to know me before i go crazy in front of u people.. i take a really long time to warm up to people..so i am really not all that shy... =X right dar?

it's been sometime..
but the feeling only gets stronger.
love, me. =)

wha long long time since i last blogged..have been away for a week for FOC..tired out man... slept for many many hours already..but still feel so tired..work continues like tml.. i'm working again till the end of this month..still got alot of things to settle on the publicity side.. (sigh..if only u could take a little initiative...i wouldnt treat u this way.) but nvm! happy with the freshies,yooo vanguard gogo! fun bunch of them..things were great from day1..great sun, great ppl..nice sea, relatively great weather, alot of photos, one bad clubbing experience where too many ppl got drunk... basically summarizes my 6days haha! well...=D looking forward to hall camp as well which will be after next week.. take care till later people.. cheerios.!

today is a sad day.. i mean.. need to rush off after work today..to go home, to do the remaining packing.. sigh.. i cant join my colleagues for lunch, the last day or last time i see them at work... did a file for those i wont be seeing when i come back to work..but...but... my thumbdrive cant open at work.. so cant a couple of others...nvm, i shall send it to them online.. heh...
considering the emotional freak i am, i really hate to see people leave.. alright i know i should have gotten used to it by now, but i dint.. well, maybe then it's good that i dont go for the outing with them.. save the teary scenes... just want to wish all of you luck and well wishes in whatever u venture out to do..and remember the times we had together alright! =D

it's the weekend again! =D happy in a way, worried in another way.. happy that the week is ending.. that i can rest.. that i am shifting back to hall tml, that i can start purchasing the materials for mse day if the weekend permits.. that i will be going for FOC soon...yay! excited in a way..
BUT u are going away on a holiday... without me=( when the weekend ends.. i am so going to miss you..but on a happier note, at least u chose to go during the period of time where it is going to be v busy for me.. good n bad.. but enjoy urself over there and sorry i cant make it there with you... phuket is going to be great fun for you i hope! =D and no looking around ok.. =x let creative remind you...LOL..(inside joke)
once again i'm blogging here early in the morning... this is one advantage sitting at the reception. hmmx.
went to sakura clementi yest..to celebrate dar's daddy birthday. think this is the best sakura branch i went to.. forgot to take my camera down so no pics.. this sakura is double storey.. the uncooked jap italian western and the desserts/fruits..and level one is the drinks icecream, cooked/fried food area.. nicenice.. hehh. and the best thing about this outlet is that, it's halal.. so can bring muslim friends over as well. yums...
and oH i received a set of perlini's jewellery.. necklace and earrings many many... thanks...love u to bits =D nice nice... will put it on after camp.. dont want it to turn yellow that quickly..
think my life has been boring recently., but blogging is a therapy... hehh.. dont care. =X want to watch transformers.. since it's supposed to be such a good show... lol...dar, harry with me...+D
and i need a new broom, mop for my rm. and clothes clips..
till then, take care everyone..=) see some of u ard camp...=)
and mcj..my souvernier...=) hehhhh~

to the simple one, stay strong ok my friend?
life wont forever be bad, believe in that alright...
like i was always told, dont hold back to tell someone something just because u feel that it would affect them. it wont, and dont assume it would. more often that not, it keeps their mind away from their own problem...
each problem would have its end.
you dont have to be the best, as long as u put in your best, it's enough.
i know the feeling of being behind others sucks.. but why make urself unhappy abt it,
when u can be happy by knowing that you are good in ur own ways and there are things that u can do that others cant...
i guess it's all about being satisfied about things.
dont be greedy and want to be the best in everything. dont be selfish in order to be the best.
tired..and looking forward to the end of the day...5pm here i come

took some time for the past few nights to do publicity stuff.. alright i know that i'm left with a relatively big pile of work undone. decor idea is out but materials un-bought. sigh.. leaves me sighing.. lol. think i want to go discuss this with the rest on sunday after the chairs' challenge or something. someone commented that i look very tired doing singpass. i agree.. cause over here at the recept, u sit the whole day.. giving out queue tix and creating singpass.. it is a very boring process. lol.. but i really shouldnt complain..at least my feet are no longer complaining. once again i am looking forward to 5pm.. alright joanne i knw u shud stop dreaming for awhile, it's only 840 now. haa. this sat is going to be the last day for wani and hairul. the bunch of colleagues here are intending to go for lunch after work on saturday, but sat prove to be a busy day for me. geok has her 21st bdae held there.. if i choose to move back to hall on sunday, do u think i will have the time? sighh... maybe not i want to finish the packing on sat so that i can spend my sunday morning with my fav before he flies off to phuket alone... the unpacking shouldnt take too long but the cleaning up may take more time. the room has been vacant for say close to 3 months.. probably more dust than ever ba.. and i hope the body of the dead cockroach has ever since been destroyed... =x if not i will defintely get help =p i'm almost ok with other insects, but i detest xiao qiangs.lol. wad a pests.
oh ya and i havent uploaded pictures of my 1st time at ajisen... lol ok i am mountain tortoise.. cannot ah. but it was a wonderful experience. nice nice food, but high high price.. but i dont regret stepping in for the 1st time.. =D
i used to dislike taking pictures, guess why? cos i always feel that i am the largest in the picture. lol, but i come to realise something, it doesnt matter that i am big, wad's impt is a beautiful heart.. and i know that my smile brightens the days of others.. so joanne will smile more. hehh =x.. =) =) and ever since, i have been taking pix at an amazing rate.. lol. so i dun really have alot of pics ard the timing of pri1-sec4... used to be very conscious of how others may think of me, but no longer.. yeh. i'm a fat but happy girl. lalala....=x.
i'm thinking of joining the welfare services club in ntu next acad yr..anyone interested in joining me? liping?? shan? ning ning?
everyone take care ok... we are less than a month away from sch reopening... ahhh!!
i need to finish up my publicity things... like real soon.

i think i know what has been the source of my neck aches these days.. painful and sore. it's the sitting at the reception with the head turned at a weird angle towards the computer... this morning the pain just got worst..sigh.. i cant turn my head properly now.. turn off. zzz i'm tired again..slept super late.. doing some publicity stuff...
missing you even before u are going off..sigh~

i'm tired. i'm left with a pile of publicity stuff to be done when i get back from work each day.. with the event drawing nearer, it no doubts put pressure on me, i want to make it a bang, but it's laid with so much obstacles. just yesterday, we realised that the ppb design that we had werent of sufficient resolution. ya cos i took a couple of pics online and merge them together.and did abit of blending here and there...but the pics were of low res. stupid me didnt realise. i only put together my idea, but poof... sigh... think we gotta change a new design... it wont look good on the ppb... meanwhile trying to look for designs of similar concept...sorry people for the delay.. meanwhile, the booth labels are out, the decor idea is more or less out also. integrate my partner's ideas and mine together should make a good one. i hope. now i am also assigned with making the tickets.. anyone able to help me with the serial no? haaa. other than excel is there other way to change the serial no other than manually? think i need to go ask hairul.. hehH..
tired.. at least its a consolation that i am seeing u tonight... looking forward to 5.=D
take care all=)

does it mean that when u get into a relationship, u all supposed to lose all contacts with friends of the opposite sex? recently i have this once good friend of mine. let's name him Z. upon getting into a relationship with this girl, he was made to delete all the girls off his friendster and msn. i thought that this was a totally dumb thing to do.. is this the way to make ur girl trust you more.. if u need to do things to such an extent, i think there isnt a single bit of trust. what's the point? i've gotten too used to what you would do when the girl leaves u sad...stop being so selfish to others and yourself... zzZz t told u before i had enough, i truly mean it
take care all...=)

sunday has passed and here's monday... went to play tennis yesterday it's been a long time since i've been such scorching hot sun haha. but the play was good... tiring but fun.. =) think i'm losing my backhand.. sigh.. trying to get my one-handed backhand properly...ziyuan msged me last night... hee so long never hear from her le..she was in the same class as me in pri 5 and pri6 but then we only got closer when we entered cedar and joined tennis together, so happy with the friendship i shared with her.. i miss her... havent reali been in touch with her for a long time.. sigh.. many atimes, i think of the friends i used to be very close with...alot of whom i am no longer in contact with.. honestly, i miss them. but nvm..they created footprints in my life, never leaving.
i'm so going to start packing tonight.. lots of things to shift back to hall with... hehhh.. jia you joanne...

chocolate mousse

me and my food hah!

mee siam mee rebus

happy me during fatal indulgence...

i went for my 1st high tea ever today... nice 1st experience, but once enough liao.. too taitai-ish. not my type of place. honestly i would choose to go to hawker centre and get cheap +good food.. haha not say the high tea wasnt good..but too pricey liao..so me being me, took many many photos, all my yummy food, and all the fatal indulgence..choco mousseee yum yum! hahaa and i want the whole world to know! i love my camera! hahaa. i can take pix everywhere i go lah! nice nice.. hahaa...

this inclusive, i not that short hor! just that i one step lower only! haahha..=x

i realised something, i rather be fat than quit chocolates... but i know something, happy jiu hao le! =D going to play some tennis tml...after all the food today, i honestly should.. lol..night ppl..

i hope the rain goes on and on and on and on. =x so that it would be a quiet quiet saturday morning.. let's not hope too much.

looking forward... to 1pm!

my favourite bully >.< brought me to the arcade to play tennis..cant play it for nuts...LOL.. realised that i cannot do alot of things that require lots of hand coordinations. =x
watched many many movies this holidays.. shrek, spidey, fan4, pirates, and many many more.. lol.. gmmm..how time flies, in no time, holidays are going to end... then the new semester begins.. and i feel old suddenly, i am going to be a yr 3! OMG. lol so old.
i bought my lil bro a shoe bag today, feel happy. lol. dont know why spend $$ also happy. =D
in support of earth day, let's all wear green tml! =D
looking forward to the weekend...
i saw something on someone's blog... have this to say... if you are into it, then i am out of it. i had enough of you.n never want to have to work with u again. =x such displeasure. hahaa

i recently came upon this blog...this person has been lamenting about how life with his family was.
something i want to say is that if your family didnt think highly of you, they wouldnt have put so much pressure on you. and if dont share with them, they will never know of the overwhelming stress that is being placed on you. i understand that. take a step back and think about it, without your family, then u wouldnt even be living the life u have now. u go to church, i believe u understand this more than me. i have a defiant sibling, have u not thought of the times you all spent together? thought about what u could do as an elder brother. like i alway said, if you give up on him.. then who can he turn to. if you dont keep believing, how would you ever let him change? i know i am not in your shoes and will never understand the type of pain you are going through.. jia you bah.
i havent been catching up with anyone other than my colleagues. now that i've been 'transferred' to doing SingPass, i hardly get to catch up with anyone le. i know i havent spent enough time with some of my friends, one of whom i know is going thru a hard time battling with matters of the heart. i am sorry i havent been ard, and i wont be i know for some time. at least i know there are people who you can turn to for help. take care alright babe. i know i am a lousy friend. with the pessimism i have for things, i believe i wont be able to give any useful advise at all. and pls, dont assume everyone is happy.
i realised i am easily influenced by the things that other people say. i still recall a time in primary sch, i was best of friends with this girl. then i heard rumours from other friends that she was like talking behind my back and all that...while all these times i have never heard of any.. then i started to back away from her, to become cold.. i never saw her again after we left HIPS but i believe it was a regret of my life. it's sad when someone you truly care for dont put you in the heart. but that's the harsh fact of life, we all know it. to always learn from experience.
to all, its the weekends.
cheers!

yeah writing is becoming a therapy.. or rather blogging is becoming one..

lol..

i'm waiting for all the logos to be sent to me to complete my banner for mse day, one of which i feel very proud of, i love the design, and i hope it turns out nice in print as well. lavada has never let me down in banner printing..and i hope all goes well so let's hope we can chop chop finish everything so everything wil be in place.

life is full of politics.

u hear good things, u hear bad.

realised there's a hypocrite in everyone of us.

but nevermind...

thank you, for i feel loved.

think i need to have lesser anger and sadness in me, yesh it doesnt help.
but i cant help it either... i think if u all know me, you all would have known that pessimism is my forte. lol...
i miss my roomie, and xiaobai..stupid HAS system...
to han han and the rest in usa, i miss u all too..

saw this very meaningful quote on someone's blog...
'negativity and depression will prevent you from seeing the opporunities in front of you'
how true.. but this is something which i find hard to do...
there is no point in enying what others have in their lives.. you gain some, lose some.
i believe we are all good in certain aspects in our life..
joanne, get this in mind ok?
it doesnt pay to be negative... if even you yourself lack the confidence in yourself, how do u expect others to have confidence in you..
i've always allowed others to dampen my mood, i think this needs to change...

i've got this craving for white chocolate blondie, anyone?

it's amazing how certain things work.. the moment i deleted mcafee on my com, i can start posting pictures again.. Hmmz. guess what? yes i have changed my blog skin yet again.. =x hehhh pardon me lah, i just want to turn it into something i really like..hehe.. still not there yet.
it's freaky to realise all kinds of funny people there are in internet world.. i've come to receive alot of comments on friendster..i guess it is an avenue where people find their friends.. but it is also an avenue for crooks to look for preys.. everyone please take care who you meet online alright.
somehow, i realised i havent been living my life properly..
i have allowed myself to fall.. to fail so many times. i want all these to change..
i need to get in mind that no matter how negative things are...keep faith in heart, when u have the will, things will turn out right. i need to get this in mean.. keep negativity out and positivity in...
to learn to trust others more, and to stop allowing my mind to roam..
i am also trying hard to take hatred away from my heart.. but this is something i found difficult for a long time already.. why hate others when it takes so much effort.. sometimes, certain actions just irk you, to an extent, u no longer want to have anything to do with the other.
for one person, i dont know what's happening to you now, but now that u disappeared, i am pretty sure, u are back and happy with her again. i want to be honest with you, i have already taken you out of my heart. i had enough of being taken for granted by you. if only i were able to do this long ago, i wouldnt have dropped tears for you. i want to wish you all the best.. dont attempt to win back the friendship we had last time, it isnt going to work, cos i am determined never to be used by you again.
on a happier note..something to share with you guys...

something that i recently bought with my hard-earned $$ and i am poor again... lol....

but i love it, and that's final... haha..

i am going to move back hall soon... probably one day before school camp starts..

still thinking when i should stop work... it's been tiring, to start work early in the morning, then feel so shagged out by the end of the day.. and if u all didnt already know, i havent had a day off since after the exams.. lol...it's tiring and i mean it.

i am looking forward to camp... i dont knw why... and i am influencing kb to come... kb, come ok?=P and cheers.. u deserve better =D and my goaty bro, ur lil sis here wil attempt cheesecake again and let u try! =D

and it's jasmin's bdae tml.. hapPy birthday babe! =D

some questions, are better left unasked..

stay focus.

choose to trust..and ddd i hold u in my heart...

i've been reading this blog of an old friend of mine lately... classmates in secondary school for a year..i dont know what has been drawing me to read her blog after i found her in my friendster.. it's interesting to read about what's happening in others life...
i realised how lucky i have been in so many ways... i need to learn to appreciate life a little more, learn to be happy a little more. no doubt negativity always overtake positivity in my case.. i am ever so fortunate to have my loved ones by my side.. life is fair..

and because i found you, i want to hold on to you forever..
u bring joy to my life...=D*

some of my comm mbrs...sitting on the grand stand during seniors' camp.. there's so many things to do...saw the detailed outline of the games for the actual FOC.. think it's going to be fun.. some unpleasantness among the comm mbrs during the seniors' camp..i guess in those circumstances everyone were just pure tired.. there;s stress on everybody... cool it everyone? mse day coming up... there;s like so many things to do.. sigh... thanks dar for listening to my complains.. totally disgusted with some people what the hell lah..

some things happen over and again.....
and i hate u more than ever...
damn it lah.

im tired...

'you gave me wings and made me fly....'

im here because of you....=)

this is the view i see each morning when i go to work.. nice view from the lift platform.. i live on the 10th storey and i realized that if i spend enough time looking out of my window, i actually have a very good view from where i live..
have always enjoyed taking pictures..now with my new cam, i practically take pix everywhere i go, alright maybe except at work, for fear they think i am some terrorist la! these days, i can feel the fatigue overtaking me.. man i am tired, pure tired. but for the money, i am going to go on!
it's going to get more busy, with senior's camp coming up..then publicity stuff.. work..foc etc...
think there's something wrong with my IE.i cant upload pictures to blogger from IE but i can do so from firefox..can anyone tell me what;s wrong?
going to the main office tomorrow for singpass training... after that going for zara sale with my colleagues.. hehh..=)
to those i havent been able to meet, i miss you all=)
love,
joanne

guess what i had yesterday.. i had nice nice durians.. it has been so long since i last touched this beautiful nice smelling fruit which had wonderful thick yellow flesh.. yums,, hehee.. yum i want more.. dar dar we go get some more one day ok! wahaha... had bak chor mee in the morning with family and dar. hahah.. then went off to simlim in search for a cam i could call my own. =) i found it, and yeah from now onwards its going to follow me zipai everywhere.. hahaa. oopx. and bought my new thumbdrive..happily, four hours later, going back to the car, we realised something.. big gigantic shock. we forgot to off the hazards..and yes nightmare came true.. couldnt start the car.. went ard approaching ppl who would lend their vehicle for us to jump start the engine.. and worst thing, we were in a carpark..mind you! so cant do it the manual way.. too little space... came along a cab, first try melted the jumpstart cable. bigger sigh. haiz. after close to an hout and alot of sweat, this mazda6 driver with a nice driver with two beautiful kids came about.heh helpful guy! haa finally started.. and so, pls dont forget to switch off hazards. amazing experience there.. after that went to amk hub with ddd's parents... changed to mio plan and got a phone for his mummy... so tempted to get one for my mum...but in the end, decided maybe bring her along next time.. work's been tiring..and seniors' camp is coming.. hope it be great fun! the weather is crazy these days..hot and cold..take care alright all! hugs tight.. joanne misses all of you~

to someone special...

this entry is dedicated to you...
with ur presence, i feel at ease..
whatever little time we spent together was precious.
thank you for being around...=)

i live my life for you...
i share my dreams with you..
*hugs..

going out for tau huay supper soon... hehe. going with my favourite... =D hugs*
had yummilicious lunch at asian kitchen todayll
decided to get darren's kor bdae present later...dont know if i be able to attend his bdae party but ya if cant go then i send his present thru post..=)
going out tml. supposed to go ubin-ing...but with the weaher these days...decided to do something diff=)
i was blessed because i was, loved by you...

it breaks my heart to know you are unwell.. hugs... i hope it makes u feel better... get well soon ok! or else i will get taggers to feed u more med..=) =p =o...
sorry i cant be there with you.. i'm sorry...
what goes about comes about.. dont u realise that u are getting the same treatment as what i was getting previously? unwittingly, and unintentionally, i realised that i am doing the what u did to me previously... do unto others what u want others do unto u.. and what they always say, what goes around, comes about.. time changes, people do too.

i dream of the times.. when life was free and easy..
when the kite flies free in the winds...
when the leaves sway with no worries..

take care...

u're the answer to my prayers...