argh. something feels wrong. i duno hw to describe this.. been cracking my brains on what to do for challenge banner..and challenge publicity stuff, but reali have no ideas at the moment. then there's still isg booklet...argh. where are the creative juices??! so pissed that nothing is done. argh argh argh! and reza is not back from indo. OH man...where do i search for ideas!
been talking to few people about things lately..haa. as usual, i have alot of qns.. when u do some thing for someone, do u expect anything in return? anything at all? when u feel lost..is it due to the fact that you are not trying to pick yourself up, or is it that u did try? but refuse to let go, rather believe that there's an alternative way to solve it? i realised that i am not alone in this. sometimes, maybe u just need to speak to someone to realise that. was talking to rmie online yest..heh, alot of things triggered thoughts..then think about the past. one thing that i could confirm once again... the people u care for the most always hurt u the most. sigh. haaha. what to do? the people u dont care for cant hurt you. alot of times, we only regret after u have lost something. why so, why didnt we appreciate what we have earlier on, why allow for ourselves to make the same mistakes over and again. sigh. why cant i just be appreciative of the simple pleasures in life and live happily? am i asking for too much. yr 2006 marked a year of many regrets. big mistakes made. sorry to people i hurt once again...forgive me though i know alot of things are not forgivable. har. read something i dint know was in existence until rmie told me. hMm. sorry. but ya i dun want things to happen a second time. i want something for myself. i dont want to share. i want to be selfish. for myself. am i not entitled to having something for myself. just learning to love myself abit more. i shouldnt allow myself to get hurt anymore. tired. it is times like this i really feel like giving up. =x goodnight...