yesterday had 2002 quiz.. it was a fairly ok paper..for the amount of time she spent on studying it, i know it shouldnt be that tough.. but it just goes to show that i didnt work hard enough.

you know joanne.. ur problems arent anything to mention of.. there are also people around who are in pain...
no worries... joanne will pick herself up..it's just a matter of time.. yes i will learn to hold on to the people around me... it's just that.. she has learnt the hard way.. she doesnt want to use anyone as support.. cos she had the experience of holding on to people when she needed them most... and to realise that they would just let go.. and when they did.. they never knew how far deep they throw me in.. these so called friends, never really took another look... they just went on with their life..

i am just afraid to reach out anymore...

just like to share the many things that have gone wrong lately..more often than not, my friends are placed high up in my priorties.. i think this is true for most people.. ya i know sometimes it goes to the extent that u dont care about yourself anymore because u are trying to do something for your friend... you get upset when the someone shares the problem with you and there's nothing u can do about it. ya.. though i believe in the fact that just being around someone when they need friends with them is already alot to ask for.. sometimes, just the presence of your friends around make alot of difference.

--met Y recently in NTU when he came back as an 'employee' of A* IMRE to give a talk to year3&4 students from MSE.. from my primary school and we met again in JC.. D is under A* scholarship and going off overseas to study coming August.. met awhile outside LT4 where he was giving the talk.. then realised..this one friend of mine, has thinned down to such an extent i almost couldnt recognise him anymore.. further talking made me realise he's under some condition, exercise bulemia or something..not too sure how to spell it. he has been exercising to such an extent that.. he doesnt do anything else other than his research in IMRE. he told me that he has cut off totally from his social circle.. that other than exercising and studies, he doesnt see anything else anymore.. his condition led him to break up with his gf couple of months ago, because exercising numbed all his other feelings.. he stopped going out with friends because he thought exercising gave him the 'high' he wanted.. i soon came into realization what a lousy mei i was to him... i never knew about all these.. when he didnt reply msges anymore.. i thought oh, maybe he has already left for overseas... just hope that he will once again come out and be his old self.. cheerful old self.. i know my kor is trying... wishing him the best...--

--recently C has been facing problems with his relationship with his gf.. i only came to realise recently how upset he has been in this r/s... despite everything... i know he loves her alot.. just that i saw no point in a relationship when they quarrelled week after week..and the same problem happens each week.. i can only say that at this point, cool down and decide what you want to do.. if u love her and have the every intention to carry on this r/s.. then do something about it.. it may or may not be ur fault.. from my angle.. i definitely be supporting you.. but i never know what's going on on her side.. she may have her reasons for doing all these.. take good care of yourself alright.. or else if u break down..who's going to support her if she needs you? --

--Prince shared with me a story of his past.. Princess and he had a wonderful relationship 5 yrs back.. then things started to crumble... He's still suffering from the pain that she cheated on him.. couple of months back..Princess came back.. telling Prince that she wanted to try again... Prince doesnt know if he can go back to the ship that sunk.. for the ship held too much memories... dear Prince.. looking at the situation urself, you would have said that.. move on and find another more deserving girl.. i would choose to believe u still care.. definitely you arent heartless.. but betrayal more often than not kills the love. i know it doesnt sound nice if i said the girl is looking for a sub when things go wrong on the other side.. then what if she thinks of him again, is the same thing going to happen again? my point of view is definitely that things will never be the same again. i believe no amount of love will cover up the hurt.. good memories linger... but if u dont let go, you wouldnt be able to achieve better ones.. that i am pretty sure.. like i said to few, sometimes it's good to be harsh.. then u will realise what's best.. you know yourself best though.. weigh the both sides.. then decide what you wana do.. jia you! =) i dun have a strong hand..but i can offer both hands if u need.. cheers too=) --

to all.. take care... it has been a long entry today.. i be in hall the next couple of weeks.. shouldnt be going home.. joanne jia you! *hugs*...