it's my last day of work at CPF Tampines.. oh yeah..after almost three months here, my holidays is almost over.. and school is starting soon.. have been juggling between publicity stuff and work.. and i have come to a conclusion on certain things..i've learnt alot of things... and made a few decisions..
-some people just want to appear that they are doing work, but in actual fact they arent.
-there are also people who wants to act as if they are very lao jiao.. when they are only here for a short period of time..
-and please remember, people are not obliged to do what they want you to, even if it's a favour u are asking of them..BUT it does not make them useless, its a choice they are entitled to make. if they will do it for you, great.. if they dont, then it's just too bad for you. if such simple things they wont do it for you, it either means they hate you, or they just prefer not to do it for you, or that it is not convenient for them..
-sometimes, its better to do things yourself then to rely on others...
-some people, you just dont want to work with them again..
someone asked me if i will miss the people at work having worked here for 3 months.. i answered that i used to take it very emotionally when i had to leave or when people left.. but i come to realise that eventually, most of the people dont remember you..but the temps who i worked with, farhana, jasmin, wani, meow win, victor, pakkin, eugene, hairul.. these are the people i wil really miss.. it's again, all part and parcel of life..
more updates later.. i am still looking forward to 5pm..back to hall

it's raining outside.. and it's freaking cold inside here.. this seems to happen everywhere these days.. the air-conditioning everywhere seems to be free.. at work, in school.. even my jacket seem to offer no comfort anymore lah~ freaky weather.. it's been raining day in day out... and i realised i have become less tolerant of the cold.. sigh. weakness.

and i realised i really cannot donate blood due to this particular blood disorder that i have.. heh i was bored so i went to wiki for it.. and this is the results of it...

"

Any given individual has two β globin alleles.
If only one β globin allele bears a mutation, the disease is called β thalassemia minor (or sometimes called β thalassemia trait). This is a mild microcytic anemia. In most cases β thalassemia minor is asymptomatic, and many affected people are unaware of the disorder. Detection usually involves measuring the mean corpuscular volume (size of red blood cells) and noticing a slightly decreased mean volume than normal.



Thalassemia Minor
Contrary to popular belief, Thalassemia Minor patients should not avoid iron-rich foods by default. A serum ferritin test can determine what their iron levels are and guide them to further treatment if necessary. Thalassemia Minor, although not life threatening on its own, can affect quality of life due to the effects of a mild to moderate anemia. Studies have shown that thalassemia Minor often coexists with other diseases such as asthma, and mood disorders

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haha.. it also explains why i easily feel faint when i stand up suddenly... not enough blood going to the brain i guess.. haa..it's fortunately i am usually not alone when it happens...
just had lunch...
your sudden disappearance frightens me...

have been reading a blog of someone i randomly found in my fren's blog..like i said, it's always interesting to find out what's happening in other's life, as well as learn from other people's point of views.. its learning too... i realised too, that i dont have friends whom have stuck together with me for a long time.. the only people i am really in contact with are my jc frens, and a rare number of secondary school friends.. missing out on alot of details in others life.. but yup i know it will happen one day... just want to let alot of ppl know that.. i may not show it, but i really have u all in my heart..-hugs-

maybe i dont want to go join the comm anymore..
i want to do something more meaningful.. not saying that club wk not meaningful, but i want to try something different=D
shall see about it..
cheers all..
HUgs~

chocolate cravings..
maybe choc fondue or choc buffet...?
once before i cut on chocs?
anyone up for it? =X

after the meeting yesterday night, i am even plagued with more things to do.. best subcom cert, additional logo, investiture cert.. tickets need to be done out, decor.. taureza u are so better going to be helping me with the stuff. 800 tics. so you get ready to print them at mse lab.. will be starting with the publicity things come next week.. it's going to be real busy.. sigh.. wrong choice to end work that late..but i need the moolah$$.

with alot of things to be bought before i start school again...
to buy list:
-iron +ironing board. enough of crumpled clothes...
-body foam, and maybe shampoo +conditioner too.. the current bottle in hall is depleting..
-maggie, canned corn..tuna.. need to save the moolah..
-new skirt (maybe)
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dar acc me kz? =X giegie...=D

till later....

there's something which i have been wanting to blog about...just that it slips my mind each time.. it's amazing how people can repeat the same thing everyday.. each day as i sit here at the singpass counter.. most of the time, i know exactly what the person in front of me will say next.. when u tell them that singpass minimum 8 characters..at least 8 characters.. they will tell you, " minimum 8 ah, 6 also can right..." then i will -__-'' amazing.. then at the end of signing.. they will tell u, what's my singpass huh? then i will be like 'huh? the one u just keyed in is your singpass..' and another thing is, u ask for their ic..then they wil give u their credit card ah, atm.. anything but the ic.. it happens everyday..and a few times at least that is.. haha it's interesting..but still i am looking forward to the last few days of work..
back to school soon.. looking forward to the books? haha.. not.
the next time, i want to look for a non-govt job...see how it feels like to work in other environments.. i tink i have been in cpf for too long.. =x haha. oh but i will get the chance next sem.. i will be on industrial attachment.. anyway i be starting in jan i heard, so i am thinking of making a trip overseas during my 21st.. get daddy to sponsor.. wanna go indo celebrate.. dar come with me? =X so let's hope what i heard is not wrong..
it's 45mins more to go.. joanne jia you!

boredom....

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hi all, it's been some time since i last blogged properly.. still dont have the chance to do that now, cos work continues.. and i tried to ask for my last day to be on sat, but they wouldnt allow that cos they cant find replacements as yet.. sigh which means that i am going to have a really tiring holiday..need to start on the publicity work for mse day... mentioning that i tink my banner is going to be delivered today i hope it turns out well.. then the teeshirt too... dang~ no reply from the supplier yet... i hope nothing screws up else reza u be in trouble..(ur recommendation =X)
lots of pictures taken during foc, till i have the time to post them up.. currently my arms are in the process of peeling.. i've got awful looking arms in addition to the bad itch from the regeneration of new skin.. bigger sigh. i tink its a lesson learnt.. in future if i am going to go under any sunlight of that 'tenacity' i will use sunblock.. something i honestly havent been using much of. alright i shall stop being stubborn...dont want to be scare of by roomie's ' your colour is so wrong..'
need to go back for club meeting tonight.. sigh it's a long journey from the east to west..but good company always makes it better. =D
just smsed the supplier. delivery can be done this week. but i doubt i can make it to receive the delivery.. then it cost $15 for delivery... dont knw whether they want to collect or ask for a delivery.. but shud delivery be this week, someone has to be there to rec.. shall check with the others tonight... at 0920 in the morning, i am already looking forward to 1700.. lol..i knw i should stop dreaming a little.
recently someone told me that i am so different online and in person. ya that's really true. i tend to open up to people online more than i do in real life.. it's a problem i face.. i may have half a million thing to say to you when i am online but when i see u in person, it may be a totally different thing.. for me, somehw it feels safer to talk to someone behind the screen, cause when u r online, u dont see the person. and u really need to know me before i go crazy in front of u people.. i take a really long time to warm up to people..so i am really not all that shy... =X right dar?

it's been sometime..
but the feeling only gets stronger.
love, me. =)

wha long long time since i last blogged..have been away for a week for FOC..tired out man... slept for many many hours already..but still feel so tired..work continues like tml.. i'm working again till the end of this month..still got alot of things to settle on the publicity side.. (sigh..if only u could take a little initiative...i wouldnt treat u this way.) but nvm! happy with the freshies,yooo vanguard gogo! fun bunch of them..things were great from day1..great sun, great ppl..nice sea, relatively great weather, alot of photos, one bad clubbing experience where too many ppl got drunk... basically summarizes my 6days haha! well...=D looking forward to hall camp as well which will be after next week.. take care till later people.. cheerios.!

today is a sad day.. i mean.. need to rush off after work today..to go home, to do the remaining packing.. sigh.. i cant join my colleagues for lunch, the last day or last time i see them at work... did a file for those i wont be seeing when i come back to work..but...but... my thumbdrive cant open at work.. so cant a couple of others...nvm, i shall send it to them online.. heh...
considering the emotional freak i am, i really hate to see people leave.. alright i know i should have gotten used to it by now, but i dint.. well, maybe then it's good that i dont go for the outing with them.. save the teary scenes... just want to wish all of you luck and well wishes in whatever u venture out to do..and remember the times we had together alright! =D

it's the weekend again! =D happy in a way, worried in another way.. happy that the week is ending.. that i can rest.. that i am shifting back to hall tml, that i can start purchasing the materials for mse day if the weekend permits.. that i will be going for FOC soon...yay! excited in a way..
BUT u are going away on a holiday... without me=( when the weekend ends.. i am so going to miss you..but on a happier note, at least u chose to go during the period of time where it is going to be v busy for me.. good n bad.. but enjoy urself over there and sorry i cant make it there with you... phuket is going to be great fun for you i hope! =D and no looking around ok.. =x let creative remind you...LOL..(inside joke)
once again i'm blogging here early in the morning... this is one advantage sitting at the reception. hmmx.
went to sakura clementi yest..to celebrate dar's daddy birthday. think this is the best sakura branch i went to.. forgot to take my camera down so no pics.. this sakura is double storey.. the uncooked jap italian western and the desserts/fruits..and level one is the drinks icecream, cooked/fried food area.. nicenice.. hehh. and the best thing about this outlet is that, it's halal.. so can bring muslim friends over as well. yums...
and oH i received a set of perlini's jewellery.. necklace and earrings many many... thanks...love u to bits =D nice nice... will put it on after camp.. dont want it to turn yellow that quickly..
think my life has been boring recently., but blogging is a therapy... hehh.. dont care. =X want to watch transformers.. since it's supposed to be such a good show... lol...dar, harry with me...+D
and i need a new broom, mop for my rm. and clothes clips..
till then, take care everyone..=) see some of u ard camp...=)
and mcj..my souvernier...=) hehhhh~

to the simple one, stay strong ok my friend?
life wont forever be bad, believe in that alright...
like i was always told, dont hold back to tell someone something just because u feel that it would affect them. it wont, and dont assume it would. more often that not, it keeps their mind away from their own problem...
each problem would have its end.
you dont have to be the best, as long as u put in your best, it's enough.
i know the feeling of being behind others sucks.. but why make urself unhappy abt it,
when u can be happy by knowing that you are good in ur own ways and there are things that u can do that others cant...
i guess it's all about being satisfied about things.
dont be greedy and want to be the best in everything. dont be selfish in order to be the best.
tired..and looking forward to the end of the day...5pm here i come

took some time for the past few nights to do publicity stuff.. alright i know that i'm left with a relatively big pile of work undone. decor idea is out but materials un-bought. sigh.. leaves me sighing.. lol. think i want to go discuss this with the rest on sunday after the chairs' challenge or something. someone commented that i look very tired doing singpass. i agree.. cause over here at the recept, u sit the whole day.. giving out queue tix and creating singpass.. it is a very boring process. lol.. but i really shouldnt complain..at least my feet are no longer complaining. once again i am looking forward to 5pm.. alright joanne i knw u shud stop dreaming for awhile, it's only 840 now. haa. this sat is going to be the last day for wani and hairul. the bunch of colleagues here are intending to go for lunch after work on saturday, but sat prove to be a busy day for me. geok has her 21st bdae held there.. if i choose to move back to hall on sunday, do u think i will have the time? sighh... maybe not i want to finish the packing on sat so that i can spend my sunday morning with my fav before he flies off to phuket alone... the unpacking shouldnt take too long but the cleaning up may take more time. the room has been vacant for say close to 3 months.. probably more dust than ever ba.. and i hope the body of the dead cockroach has ever since been destroyed... =x if not i will defintely get help =p i'm almost ok with other insects, but i detest xiao qiangs.lol. wad a pests.
oh ya and i havent uploaded pictures of my 1st time at ajisen... lol ok i am mountain tortoise.. cannot ah. but it was a wonderful experience. nice nice food, but high high price.. but i dont regret stepping in for the 1st time.. =D
i used to dislike taking pictures, guess why? cos i always feel that i am the largest in the picture. lol, but i come to realise something, it doesnt matter that i am big, wad's impt is a beautiful heart.. and i know that my smile brightens the days of others.. so joanne will smile more. hehh =x.. =) =) and ever since, i have been taking pix at an amazing rate.. lol. so i dun really have alot of pics ard the timing of pri1-sec4... used to be very conscious of how others may think of me, but no longer.. yeh. i'm a fat but happy girl. lalala....=x.
i'm thinking of joining the welfare services club in ntu next acad yr..anyone interested in joining me? liping?? shan? ning ning?
everyone take care ok... we are less than a month away from sch reopening... ahhh!!
i need to finish up my publicity things... like real soon.

i think i know what has been the source of my neck aches these days.. painful and sore. it's the sitting at the reception with the head turned at a weird angle towards the computer... this morning the pain just got worst..sigh.. i cant turn my head properly now.. turn off. zzz i'm tired again..slept super late.. doing some publicity stuff...
missing you even before u are going off..sigh~

i'm tired. i'm left with a pile of publicity stuff to be done when i get back from work each day.. with the event drawing nearer, it no doubts put pressure on me, i want to make it a bang, but it's laid with so much obstacles. just yesterday, we realised that the ppb design that we had werent of sufficient resolution. ya cos i took a couple of pics online and merge them together.and did abit of blending here and there...but the pics were of low res. stupid me didnt realise. i only put together my idea, but poof... sigh... think we gotta change a new design... it wont look good on the ppb... meanwhile trying to look for designs of similar concept...sorry people for the delay.. meanwhile, the booth labels are out, the decor idea is more or less out also. integrate my partner's ideas and mine together should make a good one. i hope. now i am also assigned with making the tickets.. anyone able to help me with the serial no? haaa. other than excel is there other way to change the serial no other than manually? think i need to go ask hairul.. hehH..
tired.. at least its a consolation that i am seeing u tonight... looking forward to 5.=D
take care all=)

does it mean that when u get into a relationship, u all supposed to lose all contacts with friends of the opposite sex? recently i have this once good friend of mine. let's name him Z. upon getting into a relationship with this girl, he was made to delete all the girls off his friendster and msn. i thought that this was a totally dumb thing to do.. is this the way to make ur girl trust you more.. if u need to do things to such an extent, i think there isnt a single bit of trust. what's the point? i've gotten too used to what you would do when the girl leaves u sad...stop being so selfish to others and yourself... zzZz t told u before i had enough, i truly mean it
take care all...=)

sunday has passed and here's monday... went to play tennis yesterday it's been a long time since i've been such scorching hot sun haha. but the play was good... tiring but fun.. =) think i'm losing my backhand.. sigh.. trying to get my one-handed backhand properly...ziyuan msged me last night... hee so long never hear from her le..she was in the same class as me in pri 5 and pri6 but then we only got closer when we entered cedar and joined tennis together, so happy with the friendship i shared with her.. i miss her... havent reali been in touch with her for a long time.. sigh.. many atimes, i think of the friends i used to be very close with...alot of whom i am no longer in contact with.. honestly, i miss them. but nvm..they created footprints in my life, never leaving.
i'm so going to start packing tonight.. lots of things to shift back to hall with... hehhh.. jia you joanne...

chocolate mousse

me and my food hah!

mee siam mee rebus

happy me during fatal indulgence...

i went for my 1st high tea ever today... nice 1st experience, but once enough liao.. too taitai-ish. not my type of place. honestly i would choose to go to hawker centre and get cheap +good food.. haha not say the high tea wasnt good..but too pricey liao..so me being me, took many many photos, all my yummy food, and all the fatal indulgence..choco mousseee yum yum! hahaa and i want the whole world to know! i love my camera! hahaa. i can take pix everywhere i go lah! nice nice.. hahaa...

this inclusive, i not that short hor! just that i one step lower only! haahha..=x

i realised something, i rather be fat than quit chocolates... but i know something, happy jiu hao le! =D going to play some tennis tml...after all the food today, i honestly should.. lol..night ppl..

i hope the rain goes on and on and on and on. =x so that it would be a quiet quiet saturday morning.. let's not hope too much.

looking forward... to 1pm!

my favourite bully >.< brought me to the arcade to play tennis..cant play it for nuts...LOL.. realised that i cannot do alot of things that require lots of hand coordinations. =x
watched many many movies this holidays.. shrek, spidey, fan4, pirates, and many many more.. lol.. gmmm..how time flies, in no time, holidays are going to end... then the new semester begins.. and i feel old suddenly, i am going to be a yr 3! OMG. lol so old.
i bought my lil bro a shoe bag today, feel happy. lol. dont know why spend $$ also happy. =D
in support of earth day, let's all wear green tml! =D
looking forward to the weekend...
i saw something on someone's blog... have this to say... if you are into it, then i am out of it. i had enough of you.n never want to have to work with u again. =x such displeasure. hahaa

i recently came upon this blog...this person has been lamenting about how life with his family was.
something i want to say is that if your family didnt think highly of you, they wouldnt have put so much pressure on you. and if dont share with them, they will never know of the overwhelming stress that is being placed on you. i understand that. take a step back and think about it, without your family, then u wouldnt even be living the life u have now. u go to church, i believe u understand this more than me. i have a defiant sibling, have u not thought of the times you all spent together? thought about what u could do as an elder brother. like i alway said, if you give up on him.. then who can he turn to. if you dont keep believing, how would you ever let him change? i know i am not in your shoes and will never understand the type of pain you are going through.. jia you bah.
i havent been catching up with anyone other than my colleagues. now that i've been 'transferred' to doing SingPass, i hardly get to catch up with anyone le. i know i havent spent enough time with some of my friends, one of whom i know is going thru a hard time battling with matters of the heart. i am sorry i havent been ard, and i wont be i know for some time. at least i know there are people who you can turn to for help. take care alright babe. i know i am a lousy friend. with the pessimism i have for things, i believe i wont be able to give any useful advise at all. and pls, dont assume everyone is happy.
i realised i am easily influenced by the things that other people say. i still recall a time in primary sch, i was best of friends with this girl. then i heard rumours from other friends that she was like talking behind my back and all that...while all these times i have never heard of any.. then i started to back away from her, to become cold.. i never saw her again after we left HIPS but i believe it was a regret of my life. it's sad when someone you truly care for dont put you in the heart. but that's the harsh fact of life, we all know it. to always learn from experience.
to all, its the weekends.
cheers!

yeah writing is becoming a therapy.. or rather blogging is becoming one..

lol..

i'm waiting for all the logos to be sent to me to complete my banner for mse day, one of which i feel very proud of, i love the design, and i hope it turns out nice in print as well. lavada has never let me down in banner printing..and i hope all goes well so let's hope we can chop chop finish everything so everything wil be in place.

life is full of politics.

u hear good things, u hear bad.

realised there's a hypocrite in everyone of us.

but nevermind...

thank you, for i feel loved.

think i need to have lesser anger and sadness in me, yesh it doesnt help.
but i cant help it either... i think if u all know me, you all would have known that pessimism is my forte. lol...
i miss my roomie, and xiaobai..stupid HAS system...
to han han and the rest in usa, i miss u all too..

saw this very meaningful quote on someone's blog...
'negativity and depression will prevent you from seeing the opporunities in front of you'
how true.. but this is something which i find hard to do...
there is no point in enying what others have in their lives.. you gain some, lose some.
i believe we are all good in certain aspects in our life..
joanne, get this in mind ok?
it doesnt pay to be negative... if even you yourself lack the confidence in yourself, how do u expect others to have confidence in you..
i've always allowed others to dampen my mood, i think this needs to change...

i've got this craving for white chocolate blondie, anyone?

it's amazing how certain things work.. the moment i deleted mcafee on my com, i can start posting pictures again.. Hmmz. guess what? yes i have changed my blog skin yet again.. =x hehhh pardon me lah, i just want to turn it into something i really like..hehe.. still not there yet.
it's freaky to realise all kinds of funny people there are in internet world.. i've come to receive alot of comments on friendster..i guess it is an avenue where people find their friends.. but it is also an avenue for crooks to look for preys.. everyone please take care who you meet online alright.
somehow, i realised i havent been living my life properly..
i have allowed myself to fall.. to fail so many times. i want all these to change..
i need to get in mind that no matter how negative things are...keep faith in heart, when u have the will, things will turn out right. i need to get this in mean.. keep negativity out and positivity in...
to learn to trust others more, and to stop allowing my mind to roam..
i am also trying hard to take hatred away from my heart.. but this is something i found difficult for a long time already.. why hate others when it takes so much effort.. sometimes, certain actions just irk you, to an extent, u no longer want to have anything to do with the other.
for one person, i dont know what's happening to you now, but now that u disappeared, i am pretty sure, u are back and happy with her again. i want to be honest with you, i have already taken you out of my heart. i had enough of being taken for granted by you. if only i were able to do this long ago, i wouldnt have dropped tears for you. i want to wish you all the best.. dont attempt to win back the friendship we had last time, it isnt going to work, cos i am determined never to be used by you again.
on a happier note..something to share with you guys...

something that i recently bought with my hard-earned $$ and i am poor again... lol....

but i love it, and that's final... haha..

i am going to move back hall soon... probably one day before school camp starts..

still thinking when i should stop work... it's been tiring, to start work early in the morning, then feel so shagged out by the end of the day.. and if u all didnt already know, i havent had a day off since after the exams.. lol...it's tiring and i mean it.

i am looking forward to camp... i dont knw why... and i am influencing kb to come... kb, come ok?=P and cheers.. u deserve better =D and my goaty bro, ur lil sis here wil attempt cheesecake again and let u try! =D

and it's jasmin's bdae tml.. hapPy birthday babe! =D

some questions, are better left unasked..

stay focus.

choose to trust..and ddd i hold u in my heart...

i've been reading this blog of an old friend of mine lately... classmates in secondary school for a year..i dont know what has been drawing me to read her blog after i found her in my friendster.. it's interesting to read about what's happening in others life...
i realised how lucky i have been in so many ways... i need to learn to appreciate life a little more, learn to be happy a little more. no doubt negativity always overtake positivity in my case.. i am ever so fortunate to have my loved ones by my side.. life is fair..

and because i found you, i want to hold on to you forever..
u bring joy to my life...=D*

some of my comm mbrs...sitting on the grand stand during seniors' camp.. there's so many things to do...saw the detailed outline of the games for the actual FOC.. think it's going to be fun.. some unpleasantness among the comm mbrs during the seniors' camp..i guess in those circumstances everyone were just pure tired.. there;s stress on everybody... cool it everyone? mse day coming up... there;s like so many things to do.. sigh... thanks dar for listening to my complains.. totally disgusted with some people what the hell lah..

some things happen over and again.....
and i hate u more than ever...
damn it lah.

im tired...

'you gave me wings and made me fly....'

im here because of you....=)