here to screaMMmz.again. joanne is down. again! =S sighx. 2006 down also but then again i really dont know what i am doing. where has all the effort go to? argh. sad diao... one paper to go. i have to do it, somehw. take care to all....

in a sad sad mood. =( dont know what to say. just sad. arghhhz... 4days2papers more...jia you to all alright. =D

here for a very simple purpose....*SCREAAMMMMMMMMMMZzzzz* argh just came back from 2004. ouch it really sucks la. help me manz... kind of sian 1/2 after the paper...zhen shi de la... i mean what the !! hehe... well in any case it's over... shall go nap nap a little for nw... 7 days..3 papers to go... sighhh. good luck and take care to all!! -hugs- love you all! heheee.... =D jia you to all...

i dream of walking down the beach with you... it will become a reality wont it...?

in the midst of exams...with 10days and 5 papers to go, i decided to drop a note...
to all jia you for exams alright? meanwhile... despite the stress level... i am a happy girl... with all the chocolates around me...lol... dang~ more updates after the exams...all the best everyone...=D
p/s: ddd... =P (bite u for all the lemon juice u fed me with...)
and special note to rooooomieee dearest(LOL) study ahhhhhhhhh! =) jia YOuuuu!

hi all, i think i havent blogged to close to a month liao. haha. taking a break from my studies. having 2004 quiz tml... sigh all the best to me yeh?
haha here to ans the so 'important' question which many people have been asking me. lol. what do i want for my birthday....
i want...
i want...
i want...
i want...






lots and lots of love!(haha)
lots and lots of happiness for everyone around me... =)
eh lots and lots of As??
the list goes on... =)
honestly, dont need to give me anything, just dont forget my existence can liao. =)
and for now, i am still in my teens... heehee =P
take care to all alright.
LOve You All!!
hugs- all the best for exams...

hello back to blog again. actually feeling kind of tired but dont really feel like doing anything although yup i know i reali need to study for my thermo soon. haha. roomie brought in her tv tuner card or whatever u call it. =P nice, now we get to watch tv in hall. took so long before she set it up, but honestly it took more time than i thought it would but then there was nothing much that i could do.. =P cos i am at a lost to things like tt...so i just helped her with plucking in her two pin plugs. =P so helpful indeed.
it hasnt been easy. =\ things arent going the way i wish them to be. I dont know if i am being unfair to say no one really understand what is happening at the moment. why does it seem like everything that i do seems wrong? siGh~ and to the people i care whom i have started to ignore, i'm really sorry. like what wendy says, each of us are fighting our own ghosts, i beg forgiveness that i cant be around anymore. all the feelings bottling up. it's not easy, anymore. and for the few who have been ard, thanks and i love u all.
finally started a conversation with a long lost friend, someone, whom i really enjoyed being back in sec sch, the great times we shared together, the times we both been there for one another and haha the times we were being stubborn together! =P haha. now she's so far away, but i am glad that although we have drifted, somehw, there's still this thing in us that clicks. to you, i look forward to seeing u, and girl, do take care of urself in australia. =)
kind of tired.. and to U, thanks for accompanying me during these times, pls dont fall sick alright. sorry i hope u arent deprived of slp cos of me... -hugs- take good care too ok?
IHG tennis training tml shall see how it goes tml before deciding whether i shud drop out of it or not. =P haha. to all take care.

my publicity partner...Reza
My publicity team
part of the publicity team
my toiletie....

so angry!!! my previous post disappeared. and i have to reblog again! so its going to be a shorter entry then wad i was supposed to have. haiz. haha.

Finally investiture is over!
Congratulations on the work well done by all the publicity subcommers. Thanks for all the dedication!=) and to my partner reza, thanks alot boy, couldnt have done it without u. =) and to the rest of the 7th Committee, congratulations. Finally, it's time to take a breather for a day or two before I start mugging for the upcoming quizzes on Wed next week. It has been a long long time since i last blogged. and as promised, here i am! haha..

Many things happened recently. It hasnt been easy. i would like to thank the people who were with me throughout this period of time. thanKs. alot of unhappy things happened. more of the unexpected kind of things. i would like to say to people out there, no matter what u do, please think of ur family and the people around you. alright? sometimes, i really dont know if what i am doing is right or not. but ya. my roomie asked me if i was doing all these cos i felt it was morally wrong and that i should stop wad i did previously. ok, in a way yes, but i guess there are some other factors. i feel damn lousy but there really is some relief despite all the unhappy stuff that's happening...and i have made that decision, and i'd stick by it. No worries, cause despite the trauma, i'd get through it, it all is a learning experience, isnt it? well. things that u never expect always happen. so i guess this is just one of those other things that happened.

Went up to the School of Arts Design & Media for past two consecutive night. Nice building. for those who havent gone up there before, do find an opportunity to do so. first night up was with roomie sophia and her bunch of SBS buddies. we played with lanterns n fire sparklers, and we had mooncakes and greentea. zhijie brought along a bottle of ethanol as well. lol. nice blue flame when lighted up. it was a moony night but it was really hot..last night, there was practically no moon, but it was definitely cooler. nice breeze, really. nice night. 'free from worries"... thanks for accompanying me the whole night, it was really wonderful. =) it has been some time since i did things like that... so people, do go up there. there arent reali many places in singapore where there's grass patches for u to lie down on and look into the sky... haha. but do make sure when u go there and u see erm 'ah tiongs', come back another day. find another night to go there cos they talk like they are so far away from each other when they r reali jus beside one another. really spoil the peaceful night. =P

more things coming up and soon the exams will be here. ya i'd jia you and all of u too alright? hmmm. i'd try to find more opportunity to blog. no worries. to all those who miss me haha, i miss u too.=P i hope all of you are doing well. take care alright! =)

 

some pics of myself...  

my tennis junior back in cedar 

wen wen and i 

wood n i 

szehua n i 

haha look so oldies huh... 

yuhan n 1 

myself 

in wood's rm...

hello once again..
in wood's rm nw..later have to go off for booth at 330.
selling ice-cream mooncake.. hehe. for those interested let me noe k
it is going at $20 which is cheaper than that at swensens by about 10%.
wood is ill and sleeping nw.. wanted her to go to the doc, but since she insists that she doesnt want to, i shall not force her either, cos even for myself, i will be too stubborn so i guess i noe hw she feels and yeh i am in no right to say her either.
sigh..have to come up with my banner design soon.. then namecard, investiture decor, noticeboard decor
and there is subcomm recruitment tonight.. well, maybe its good cos at last we can spread out the workload. =)
yesterday night, i tried to sleep early having slept few hours for past few nights due to the many different commitments.. but in the end stoned there for many moments before i finally dozed off.. listening to the music roomie was playing on e com, nice n soothing...
thoughts started to flow again.. why, why are so many things happening at this moment in life? i wanna be free again.. hah i guess this is going to take some time huh...

i know i have been harsh, but i wont take it back.
i am already having enough things as it is, so dont add on to it alright..
someone said to me before, no one has the right to decide for me what i want in my life.
so why bother about what they have to say to you? well, it's not that easy definitely..
but i'd keep in mind what u have said before..

met apple today..so glad that she's so much happier nw after changing course, girl i wish u all the best alright...see ya around hall alright..it's like we are so near yet so far...

last night daddy called me... kinda disappointed at what he said.. i mean do u reali have no trust in this daughter of yours.. i mean i am reali not that kind of person u seem to assume to be.. but ya i know you are just concerned...no worries la, if he wants i can always explain again...

da ge if u ever read this, do take care of urself ok? i knw that it probably wont be able to go back to the way things were before, look at the circumstances nw, they're different already...

haiz..enough of all the things that are going the wrong way...JOANNE wake up will u, get ur direction before its too late and get lost for life....

people out there who may be reading this, do take care alright... cheers to all of you..

drained..

hello people, yeh just came up with a new blog template. basically, backgrd was designed by me while roomie made it into a blogskin for me. Thanks lots huiping! hehe. muackz! but yeh there'd be changes to it so look out for it. though nothing much is going to change really.
been reali busy recently. Com stuff, quizzes, and much more. wil post up some dnd pix when i have the time to.
as always there are many things that have happened recently. not reali going to talk about them here. cos i know i probably take alot of time to post and its kinda late nw.
be back some time soon to update again...
special thanks to certain ppl. thanks for allowing me to see from ur point of view. for being around...
it has been really tiring. alot of things being decided.
i dont know how long i'd last.
but i will go strong.
like i said in previous post, it has been hard keeping up with the mask.
right nw, i have very strong chocolate cravings... oh joanne u r so going to grow fat.
i want to step out, but i cant.
see u people around. time for bed
cheers...

hi again...
lol..been very busy lazy but here after dinner to blog abit.
hmmm.. kind of confused nw..
dont know where all these are heading towards..
sigh..why cant things be made simpler for everyone..
i realised that some people who are constantly around you arent the people whom u really share things with. nvm..just a random thought..
i was chatting online with this fren of mine.. was saying that some things are better left unexpressed. thats hw i honestly feel. but then my fren was saying, even if u dont know how to express, jus say something, at least ppl know you have something to say. well..
some more hall activities here and there.. but i wont be as busy w these activities anymore..

people walk in and out of ur life...
even though many claim they stay,
only few remain..
suddenly things dont look as bright anymore..
i feel tired...
at the beginning of the semester.
i cant be as strong as who i want to be, claim to be.
i'm not as fine as i thought i am..
the mask is not holding up for much longer.
sigh..
perhaps, i need a little help..

hee to all cheers..
tke care.
long day tml...
sigh...
(-_-)

yeh school has started for about 2 weeks already. so far so good but that's cos only maths tut has started...argh!!! help help when most tuts start next week.
going for hall bash tonight..but having lesson later from 530-730 1st.. blogging before that.
hmm.. here to declare... i love my new roomie....hehe.. introducing huiping. lol.. actually was hoping that i got a singaporean roomie and yes! i did! =P and we dont ignore each other like my previous rmie. =)
hmm. ya.. that's abt all in my life at the moment..
i think there are some things that are better left unexpressed. probably what xinyi said was right. just got to be more vicious..? well..
and oh guan siang, if u happen to be reading this..just wanna say u r amazingly li hai. i was like thinking 'whoa...' anyway. thanks and cheers to you...
to all.. tke care to all..and see you around.

and since it is national day i shall use red for this entry. today 9th august marks singapore's national day. it also marks another special day..it has been a yr. for nw things are on a hold. i havent decided. maybe i am being selfish and dont know what i want at this point in time? sorry for all the trouble that i've given to either of u.
school has started..yesh with a big sigh...feeling kind of stress. ya upon realisation that we're competing against the really smart people reali mkes me feel that i'm like helping them to mark the bottom..but not to worry i'd jia you..=) i'm quite happy with my timetable cos it kind of gives me time when i think i need. erm chim but true.
kind of miss all my girlfrens esp the jc gers.. but yep i'd be seeing ningning twice a wk frm next wk onwards. grinx. time flies..
to all tke care n rmb to miss joanne=)