here with a very simple purpose.. want to wish all of you a HaPpy LunaR NeW yr. =) 新年快乐！猪年行好运！best wishes...=)

heh prob be some time before my next post.. it's CNY week and there's lots of things to do...oh no.. haiz.. i guess it almost marks the end of an initially good partnership..no more.. and i realised it's no longer a joy working with you. whatever..not impt..shall not spoil the mood to a happy entry.. thanks all for the wonderful gifts for Vday..=) the bag and bottle from ddd..flowers from daniel jason ujean gladys vivian, chocs from yuhan yingxuan zhiyang lishan, big toy flower from sophia..balloons from aylwin jasmine roomie, sweets from zhenhao andy xiaowen weiming liping, cookies from woods qiuyun...hehe thanks alot everyone.... sorry to those i missed out.. but thanks for making it enjoyable...=)
anyway, i received a love letter from tazzie today! hah!! =x tazzie says i love u in this letter looking cushion...=) heheee.. so cute can! nice nice thanks thanks! grinx.. then got new nailpolish too.. =) tired.. driving coming up..third time already.. hope to pass*prays hard*
hereby wishing all chinese out there..happy new yr=) ang pows many many! =p hahaa...cheers..

heh this is my latest desktop background i designed..zzz. thank you photoshop once again... was doing my isg publications stuff last night amidst helping mum with her baking..then realised how draining life has been..feel so tired...comm stuff, isg things..i really need to finish them soon.. hasnt been easy with the lack of cooperation from the other schools..argh... comm stuff wont be ending till some time..sigh. nvm... this i shall not complain here for fear of who might be reading this not-so-private blog of mine... at home now..didnt go for lessons today..2 hr lectures.. i intend to listen to them tonight when i get back to hall.. so far so good, i am happy that i have listened to all online lectures for those i skipped/missed..=) but for electives, unfortunately..no recordings...=X but i only skipped CBC once..=X so far so good right... been helping mummy with her baking.. and going for driving later so kinda explains why i am home too..
mentioned in the previous post that i wanted to post a little about living? =x yepp.. here i am.. life is fragile.. you never know when it be the time you find yourself lying on the deathbed.. we all make mistakes in life.. some choose to amend, while others prefer to just learn and move on... sometimes, there are situations where trying to amend may just make things worst..better to just let go and forget about it..
to think it took so long for me to realise how lucky i am in certain ways.. i didnt realise the fact that nothing will happen if i dont help myself..zzz realised that many of my posts have been about the fact how lucky i am in certain ways..but it's true... maybe we dont realise it cos we are being blinded by the things that are upsetting us.. why not turn all these negative energy into positive energy and put them where we best excel in? dont search for a permanent solution for a temporary situation...right right enough about this...
it's Valentines' Day tml..to all lovers out there.. hapPy vday..to all singles out there.. i wish you all luck in finding ur miss/mr right... Happy Friendship Day to all...thank you all out there who has made my life ever interesting..ever colourful..thank you all for all the love in my life...i love all you all! muackz...

heh it's the weekend. the long awaited break. fell ill..so wasnt able to make it to shili's 21st in the evening.. so sorry shili...
received few early valentines day gift..thanks thanks.=) nice nice royce chocs=) yummies.alright i know that chocs and being ill dont really come together. muackz.. and the nice nice green bottle... and the nice nice orange+brown bag..muackzzz...heh.
bought all my chinese new year clothings liao. latest collection is a orange-red stripes dress.. =) lol. happy happy..zhen shi de.
spent yest night cutting out cards for mse vday cards...think not too bad looking ba.. =)
Hmmm busy busy week ahead... going for driving lessons soon again...heh alrighty...back to blog later if i can find time...to all take care alright...wana share some things about living..

since someone said i havent blogged for a long while, i shall, post a short entry to tell them that joanne is still around.. i havent gone missing, just that well been busy with things..publications for isg.. publicity for mse.. on n on... =) looking for this nike bag.. almost bought online..lucky i checked.. not authentic.. haizz... nicenice..green and black...nvm.. k k i go slp le...night.take care...

been very busy lately..comm stuff and everything...and all my isg stuff have yet to come to a closure..so wrong.. i better get everything done soon.. been pissed off certain things lately..fine, i shall let u do whatever you want alright.. since u like to do everything, go ahead... i dont care.. be it being irresponsible on my part...you know what.. i hate to be in this partnership with you. since u are so good at it, go ahead... aaaargh. so pissed...it's the weekend finally..sighhx. time to rest a little... stupid headache refused to go away..argh.
hmm...many avtivities coming up...quizzes too.. jia you everyone...acty alot of things to blog about, probably find time on sat on sunday ba...cheers..

hello..joanne and tazzie at home says hi to all of you! dang.. this is the only taz i have at home...imagine if i brought the rest home..haha. duno what my parents will say then... oopx. been a busy day..helping mum with her baking..looking for her mixer with her..catching up with missed mechanics lectures, ATTEMPTING to do my mechanics tutorial, abit of luxor here and there.. i duno if that's considered doing abit of work la.. well in any case.. some things i want to say around here...

realised that some of us dun learn to appreciate things until they are lost for good. yet there are also some people who dont realise how fortunate they are to have the things around them. me for one, used to think that everything else was against me..i didnt mind remaining at the bottom of the pit..probably self-pitying? but it brings you no where..at this moment, i am trying to learn to appreciate the little things around me, that although i am fighting a battle, out there, there are people who are fighting fiercer battles than me..and i must admit that it does make one happier..from hiding in that one dark corner of the world, i took slow but significant steps to make living easier.. i want to let those who are fighting their own little battle know that, hey you are not alone... you have people who will support you..

some promises,can never be kept..

playing tennis on tuesday with mse peeps.. hehe time for exercise!

take care all...*HUGZ*

ddddddddd.....*bite*

some time since i last blogged..been getting lazy..lol. many things happened during the past week. i got my hair dyed, i bought a new skirt, i went drinking with ddd and some other ex-colleagues. and nw, right nw, i am having a sore throat and muscle aches..falling ill? i hope not.. dang...so wrong la. feeling kinda out of place today..feel like roaring at everyone...pre-illness syndrome? zzz..hmmz. sorry if i were to step on your toes, but meanwhile, it would too be advisable not to step on my tail... watched cheerleading competition last night..congrats hall one unisus for obtaining 2nd. you all are good! yeah! in any case, it's the third week into school..and life's busy..back on schedule on certain things.. jia you!

it's hard to think that some things will remain the same. after so much that has been done, after so long time of getting used to things. for some reason.. people dont seem to know how to appreciate till they have lost something..well haaa..

take care to all! =) for those who miss me, here's a pic...=P

i went to watch 'the last dance' today. i didnt really get the whole show..guess i was too tired liao. since after lab i was already feeling super tired. so wrong.. i should think i have slept sufficiently enough liao. =x heheh... today yulia was talking about royce chocs..and i had the sudden craving for it.. then went to taka..but didnt buy in the end.. cos dun think will last thru the movie.. i want! =D
chew and wenx are commenting that joanne has become more senile.. oei.. forgetting things doesnt mean i am becoming senile ok! it simply means i am careless and forgot k! haahaa excuses many many...it's amazing how much one can change.. well. then again, blame it on the circumstances one is under.. u can use to love someone so.. then after some time u realise that hey there's more hatred than anything. and vice versa. like i always say. we all change. i feel that as u get to know someone more and more, and u start to see the flaws in that person, two things can happen. one, u accept the flaws and remain very good friends with this person. two, u start to despise this person and try to distance yourself away. talking about being hypocritical and such, i believe there's this fraction in each person regardless of the extent which tends to be hypocritical...i believe so..going to sleep soon liao.. take care all.. happy belated bdae chewie.. sorry wendy for the senile me...

just came back from dinner with sophia, rmie and ujean... slept quite alot in the afternn. tired..but duno why. lol..yupp so going to blog then go bathe..
been having lots of thoughts lately.. indeed, i used to try to believe that some people look you up because they really want to, not because you are able to do something for them which is beneficial for them. but this assumption is about to stop just there..it's proven that certain people, not everyone, looks u up because there is some thing u can do for them. because once they are done with what they want, they disappear. i think my rmie would agree with me on this point. and the thing is, it hurts especially so when these are the people u care for the most.
maybe i havent realised this before, but i have been more and more sensitive to my surroundings lately...i look at someone and ask..is this person here for a certain reason? why is he/she suddenly so friendly? guess we probably shouldnt doubt people's sincerity.. but yeh that has become the very reality of life..

look around you and wonder...is this the kind of
life u want to lead 10 yrs from nw?

going on to the twenties, i wonder if i would be able to begin making decisions in the things i really want. yet on the other hand, do i really know what i want as this not so tender age of 20? perhaps.time will tell...
once again, i want to learn to appreciate the simple pleasures in life..take care all!

hey all.. havent been able to blog as frequent as i want.. haha... been lazy. oopx. not reali also la.. dont really know what i have been doing lately either...school has just reopened recently..things are stilll going fine.. but wait till everything comes full force...whoa.. sighh...and i feel that 2008 is super duperly challenging..bigger sigh. but nvm...will work hard..
some things.. u never know how to appreciate until you lose it...i realised this is a common mistake alot of people make, including myself.. but we all learn...
some people..are just not meant to be yours.. dont try too hard in wanting to have them..cos it might just hurt you more in the end...
well, i guess some times, after going through certain things.. u just tend to form stereotypes.. the fact that it might happen all over again. and you just dont try to change things anymore..
i know i have been leading a life of no proper beginnings nor proper endings...probably i should just accept it as fate right.. i should be happy that i am fortunate in many ways others are not. with each individual fighting their own battle..i should be glad that i am having it much easier than others.. learning to appreciate the simple pleasures in life..
i dont live to please everyone. i just try to do my best. i wanna minimise the regrets that i have..but at the same time not hold back what i wanna do just to avoid making mistakes...
realised that this post is quite random with all my random thoughts here and there..pardon me if u are reading...
i will post again when i have the time...
take care people...
slowing letting of the hands that hold on...
learning to soar thus high...

argh! whatever i jus typed just disappeared...shittified..
havent been blogging these couple of days..school has reopened.. thanks jason for passing over your notes.. hehe. i am happy to be back and seeing all of you once again. =) cheers. it's going to be the beginning of another hectic life..
2006 has been full of mistakes..and i am determined to make 2007 better. i am not going to be the nice person anymore.. i rather be cold than to hurt eventually. pardon me if u feel that joanne isnt as friendly anymore.
sometimes, i realise that i dont seem to understand the people who were supposed to be closest to me.. i dont understand why.. but this is not important..
i just reformatted my com..i hope that whatever problems with it will be cleared. haahaa. nw i am redownloading all the necessary things..shall do it as i need them..
alright take care to all...
it's happening more frequently nw.. i feel unimportant....

rmie is back in hall.. =) bleah. yeh rmie back to keng gai with me.. wahaahaa! school's reopening soon.. yep.. looking forward to it in some sense ba. whaahaa. i hope all goes well... dun really have much to say tonight. cheerios.

it's raining cats and dogs outside. hMmm. its still raining every other day..when will it stop? well. had tennis semis this morning. though i won my game, overall, hall 1 lost to 15 (1-4) but they were good. wonderful bunch of players. but i thinK due to not eating breakfast, and the lack of slp, there was some point i thought i was going to faint. zzz. so wrong. nvm..so sorry had to skip the cycling and meal, but i was really feeling v nua. another day alright? after that went back to the room to unpack a little... then clean up abit. roomie, i think u need to do it again. i duno why the floor is still so sandy. and it's slippery too... oopx. changed bed spread then brought mine and rmie's previous to wash then! it rains. cant bring in cos still wet( i mean WET and not just damp). lol. and bed spreads+ blankets = takes up whole area in rm. =x school's reopening on monday.. somehw, i am looking forward to it. It has been a nua holiday..and i look forward to doing better this coming sem. joanne jia you! wanted to post up a few pics...been 'zi lian'ing' again..but too lazy. alright. going to rest some. take care peeps. cheers.
learning to appreciate the little things that make me smile.

argh. something feels wrong. i duno hw to describe this.. been cracking my brains on what to do for challenge banner..and challenge publicity stuff, but reali have no ideas at the moment. then there's still isg booklet...argh. where are the creative juices??! so pissed that nothing is done. argh argh argh! and reza is not back from indo. OH man...where do i search for ideas!
been talking to few people about things lately..haa. as usual, i have alot of qns.. when u do some thing for someone, do u expect anything in return? anything at all? when u feel lost..is it due to the fact that you are not trying to pick yourself up, or is it that u did try? but refuse to let go, rather believe that there's an alternative way to solve it? i realised that i am not alone in this. sometimes, maybe u just need to speak to someone to realise that. was talking to rmie online yest..heh, alot of things triggered thoughts..then think about the past. one thing that i could confirm once again... the people u care for the most always hurt u the most. sigh. haaha. what to do? the people u dont care for cant hurt you. alot of times, we only regret after u have lost something. why so, why didnt we appreciate what we have earlier on, why allow for ourselves to make the same mistakes over and again. sigh. why cant i just be appreciative of the simple pleasures in life and live happily? am i asking for too much. yr 2006 marked a year of many regrets. big mistakes made. sorry to people i hurt once again...forgive me though i know alot of things are not forgivable. har. read something i dint know was in existence until rmie told me. hMm. sorry. but ya i dun want things to happen a second time. i want something for myself. i dont want to share. i want to be selfish. for myself. am i not entitled to having something for myself. just learning to love myself abit more. i shouldnt allow myself to get hurt anymore. tired. it is times like this i really feel like giving up. =x goodnight...

hello people... haahaa...just bo liao, so decided to put some pics together. very zi lian these days, so you would see alot of my own pics.. haha. zhen shi de.. past new year liao, then nv reali celebrate..but as usual la...last yr also didnt celebrate...hee. realised that maybe all these celebrating and stuff are not as impt anymore. i realised that each year i dont really have new resolutions..i read people's blogs, then realise that whoa, most people have resolutions, but i think that if i do write them down, i probably not be able to fulfil them. =x so i should just stick to doing what comes along. realised there are still things that i have yet to do... there are lots of designing to do for MSE... and ISG booklet.. almost unstarted. sigh. will get down to doing it.. haahaa. i better start. heh. to all, happy new year! have a happy 2007 right? cheerS!

hello people, it's 31st today.Almost a year is over.. whoa hw time flies... this year has been as extraordinary one for me. many things happened, some good, some bad.. but it has been a most interesting year for me. many lessons learnt. many hearts were broken...i'm sorry for all the unhappiness that i've caused... year 2006 has been a tiring year. a year filled with so many new chapters. and also the closing of many chapters. it is the yr i stepped into my twenties. it has been a year filled with much tears, much unhappiness. sorry for hurting you. sorry that i broke your heart. but thank you for the good times. sorry for the times i couldnt be there for some people while i was trying to fight my own battle. sorry for the lies. sorry for the poor results.
thank you for coming into my life. thank you for loving me. thank you for a wonderful roomie. thank you to those who stood by me. thank you ddd...
goodbye 2006, welcome 2007.
i welcome in the new year.. it will be a better year for me. cheers.

feeling kind of sad...argh... so hate myself.
to you, glad u have moved on. =D jia you with that special someone.
take care ppl..new yr is coming. have fun!

hello people, i am back home. tennis quarters today.. we won 4-1 that 1 being a walkover. duno why my service beginning to drop standard like mad. big sigh..used to be able to serve beautifully... got into semis, 1st time for hall 1 tennis. lucky vynesh was my partner, else, faint. tml going to meet the 04 ppl. going to mrs liim house.. then going to have dinner at tampines. hmm. hope to see them soon.=D well well. i pulled out the zip off my hp pouch, and broke hp chain. sigh... this is bad la. so violent. then last night rammed my last toe into the door. zzzzz. bleeding toe. so sad la. =x. there's a lot of feelings these days...life goes up and down. duno what to say. nvm..time to get busy with comm stuff... take care all... =D cheers ppl. oh to mel...smile ok! =)