hmm..to let things return to wad they used to be before..? possible...? i duno.
it isnt a good sign when i start to shut myself..it isnt....why allow more people into my life if what i m going to do is simply to hurt...who will stay in and who will stay out is not up to me to decide...
i broke not knowin the reason..it sucks...shutting away e reason..? CRAP....
my temp job at CPF ends soon..this wk..going 4 camp next wk...maybe i shud ask to leave earlier..
to U..think u prob know who u r..i m tryin 2 distract myself bt i am failin doesnt matter....sorry..bt i tried..
to see is to believe...to hide is to deceive....deceiving is what i am doing....................