chocolate mousse

me and my food hah!

mee siam mee rebus

happy me during fatal indulgence...

i went for my 1st high tea ever today... nice 1st experience, but once enough liao.. too taitai-ish. not my type of place. honestly i would choose to go to hawker centre and get cheap +good food.. haha not say the high tea wasnt good..but too pricey liao..so me being me, took many many photos, all my yummy food, and all the fatal indulgence..choco mousseee yum yum! hahaa and i want the whole world to know! i love my camera! hahaa. i can take pix everywhere i go lah! nice nice.. hahaa...

this inclusive, i not that short hor! just that i one step lower only! haahha..=x

i realised something, i rather be fat than quit chocolates... but i know something, happy jiu hao le! =D going to play some tennis tml...after all the food today, i honestly should.. lol..night ppl..

i hope the rain goes on and on and on and on. =x so that it would be a quiet quiet saturday morning.. let's not hope too much.

looking forward... to 1pm!

my favourite bully >.< brought me to the arcade to play tennis..cant play it for nuts...LOL.. realised that i cannot do alot of things that require lots of hand coordinations. =x
watched many many movies this holidays.. shrek, spidey, fan4, pirates, and many many more.. lol.. gmmm..how time flies, in no time, holidays are going to end... then the new semester begins.. and i feel old suddenly, i am going to be a yr 3! OMG. lol so old.
i bought my lil bro a shoe bag today, feel happy. lol. dont know why spend $$ also happy. =D
in support of earth day, let's all wear green tml! =D
looking forward to the weekend...
i saw something on someone's blog... have this to say... if you are into it, then i am out of it. i had enough of you.n never want to have to work with u again. =x such displeasure. hahaa

i recently came upon this blog...this person has been lamenting about how life with his family was.
something i want to say is that if your family didnt think highly of you, they wouldnt have put so much pressure on you. and if dont share with them, they will never know of the overwhelming stress that is being placed on you. i understand that. take a step back and think about it, without your family, then u wouldnt even be living the life u have now. u go to church, i believe u understand this more than me. i have a defiant sibling, have u not thought of the times you all spent together? thought about what u could do as an elder brother. like i alway said, if you give up on him.. then who can he turn to. if you dont keep believing, how would you ever let him change? i know i am not in your shoes and will never understand the type of pain you are going through.. jia you bah.
i havent been catching up with anyone other than my colleagues. now that i've been 'transferred' to doing SingPass, i hardly get to catch up with anyone le. i know i havent spent enough time with some of my friends, one of whom i know is going thru a hard time battling with matters of the heart. i am sorry i havent been ard, and i wont be i know for some time. at least i know there are people who you can turn to for help. take care alright babe. i know i am a lousy friend. with the pessimism i have for things, i believe i wont be able to give any useful advise at all. and pls, dont assume everyone is happy.
i realised i am easily influenced by the things that other people say. i still recall a time in primary sch, i was best of friends with this girl. then i heard rumours from other friends that she was like talking behind my back and all that...while all these times i have never heard of any.. then i started to back away from her, to become cold.. i never saw her again after we left HIPS but i believe it was a regret of my life. it's sad when someone you truly care for dont put you in the heart. but that's the harsh fact of life, we all know it. to always learn from experience.
to all, its the weekends.
cheers!

yeah writing is becoming a therapy.. or rather blogging is becoming one..

lol..

i'm waiting for all the logos to be sent to me to complete my banner for mse day, one of which i feel very proud of, i love the design, and i hope it turns out nice in print as well. lavada has never let me down in banner printing..and i hope all goes well so let's hope we can chop chop finish everything so everything wil be in place.

life is full of politics.

u hear good things, u hear bad.

realised there's a hypocrite in everyone of us.

but nevermind...

thank you, for i feel loved.

think i need to have lesser anger and sadness in me, yesh it doesnt help.
but i cant help it either... i think if u all know me, you all would have known that pessimism is my forte. lol...
i miss my roomie, and xiaobai..stupid HAS system...
to han han and the rest in usa, i miss u all too..

saw this very meaningful quote on someone's blog...
'negativity and depression will prevent you from seeing the opporunities in front of you'
how true.. but this is something which i find hard to do...
there is no point in enying what others have in their lives.. you gain some, lose some.
i believe we are all good in certain aspects in our life..
joanne, get this in mind ok?
it doesnt pay to be negative... if even you yourself lack the confidence in yourself, how do u expect others to have confidence in you..
i've always allowed others to dampen my mood, i think this needs to change...

i've got this craving for white chocolate blondie, anyone?

it's amazing how certain things work.. the moment i deleted mcafee on my com, i can start posting pictures again.. Hmmz. guess what? yes i have changed my blog skin yet again.. =x hehhh pardon me lah, i just want to turn it into something i really like..hehe.. still not there yet.
it's freaky to realise all kinds of funny people there are in internet world.. i've come to receive alot of comments on friendster..i guess it is an avenue where people find their friends.. but it is also an avenue for crooks to look for preys.. everyone please take care who you meet online alright.
somehow, i realised i havent been living my life properly..
i have allowed myself to fall.. to fail so many times. i want all these to change..
i need to get in mind that no matter how negative things are...keep faith in heart, when u have the will, things will turn out right. i need to get this in mean.. keep negativity out and positivity in...
to learn to trust others more, and to stop allowing my mind to roam..
i am also trying hard to take hatred away from my heart.. but this is something i found difficult for a long time already.. why hate others when it takes so much effort.. sometimes, certain actions just irk you, to an extent, u no longer want to have anything to do with the other.
for one person, i dont know what's happening to you now, but now that u disappeared, i am pretty sure, u are back and happy with her again. i want to be honest with you, i have already taken you out of my heart. i had enough of being taken for granted by you. if only i were able to do this long ago, i wouldnt have dropped tears for you. i want to wish you all the best.. dont attempt to win back the friendship we had last time, it isnt going to work, cos i am determined never to be used by you again.
on a happier note..something to share with you guys...

something that i recently bought with my hard-earned $$ and i am poor again... lol....

but i love it, and that's final... haha..

i am going to move back hall soon... probably one day before school camp starts..

still thinking when i should stop work... it's been tiring, to start work early in the morning, then feel so shagged out by the end of the day.. and if u all didnt already know, i havent had a day off since after the exams.. lol...it's tiring and i mean it.

i am looking forward to camp... i dont knw why... and i am influencing kb to come... kb, come ok?=P and cheers.. u deserve better =D and my goaty bro, ur lil sis here wil attempt cheesecake again and let u try! =D

and it's jasmin's bdae tml.. hapPy birthday babe! =D

some questions, are better left unasked..

stay focus.

choose to trust..and ddd i hold u in my heart...

i've been reading this blog of an old friend of mine lately... classmates in secondary school for a year..i dont know what has been drawing me to read her blog after i found her in my friendster.. it's interesting to read about what's happening in others life...
i realised how lucky i have been in so many ways... i need to learn to appreciate life a little more, learn to be happy a little more. no doubt negativity always overtake positivity in my case.. i am ever so fortunate to have my loved ones by my side.. life is fair..

and because i found you, i want to hold on to you forever..
u bring joy to my life...=D*

some of my comm mbrs...sitting on the grand stand during seniors' camp.. there's so many things to do...saw the detailed outline of the games for the actual FOC.. think it's going to be fun.. some unpleasantness among the comm mbrs during the seniors' camp..i guess in those circumstances everyone were just pure tired.. there;s stress on everybody... cool it everyone? mse day coming up... there;s like so many things to do.. sigh... thanks dar for listening to my complains.. totally disgusted with some people what the hell lah..

some things happen over and again.....
and i hate u more than ever...
damn it lah.

im tired...

'you gave me wings and made me fly....'

im here because of you....=)

this is the view i see each morning when i go to work.. nice view from the lift platform.. i live on the 10th storey and i realized that if i spend enough time looking out of my window, i actually have a very good view from where i live..
have always enjoyed taking pictures..now with my new cam, i practically take pix everywhere i go, alright maybe except at work, for fear they think i am some terrorist la! these days, i can feel the fatigue overtaking me.. man i am tired, pure tired. but for the money, i am going to go on!
it's going to get more busy, with senior's camp coming up..then publicity stuff.. work..foc etc...
think there's something wrong with my IE.i cant upload pictures to blogger from IE but i can do so from firefox..can anyone tell me what;s wrong?
going to the main office tomorrow for singpass training... after that going for zara sale with my colleagues.. hehh..=)
to those i havent been able to meet, i miss you all=)
love,
joanne

guess what i had yesterday.. i had nice nice durians.. it has been so long since i last touched this beautiful nice smelling fruit which had wonderful thick yellow flesh.. yums,, hehee.. yum i want more.. dar dar we go get some more one day ok! wahaha... had bak chor mee in the morning with family and dar. hahah.. then went off to simlim in search for a cam i could call my own. =) i found it, and yeah from now onwards its going to follow me zipai everywhere.. hahaa. oopx. and bought my new thumbdrive..happily, four hours later, going back to the car, we realised something.. big gigantic shock. we forgot to off the hazards..and yes nightmare came true.. couldnt start the car.. went ard approaching ppl who would lend their vehicle for us to jump start the engine.. and worst thing, we were in a carpark..mind you! so cant do it the manual way.. too little space... came along a cab, first try melted the jumpstart cable. bigger sigh. haiz. after close to an hout and alot of sweat, this mazda6 driver with a nice driver with two beautiful kids came about.heh helpful guy! haa finally started.. and so, pls dont forget to switch off hazards. amazing experience there.. after that went to amk hub with ddd's parents... changed to mio plan and got a phone for his mummy... so tempted to get one for my mum...but in the end, decided maybe bring her along next time.. work's been tiring..and seniors' camp is coming.. hope it be great fun! the weather is crazy these days..hot and cold..take care alright all! hugs tight.. joanne misses all of you~

to someone special...

this entry is dedicated to you...
with ur presence, i feel at ease..
whatever little time we spent together was precious.
thank you for being around...=)

i live my life for you...
i share my dreams with you..
*hugs..

going out for tau huay supper soon... hehe. going with my favourite... =D hugs*
had yummilicious lunch at asian kitchen todayll
decided to get darren's kor bdae present later...dont know if i be able to attend his bdae party but ya if cant go then i send his present thru post..=)
going out tml. supposed to go ubin-ing...but with the weaher these days...decided to do something diff=)
i was blessed because i was, loved by you...

it breaks my heart to know you are unwell.. hugs... i hope it makes u feel better... get well soon ok! or else i will get taggers to feed u more med..=) =p =o...
sorry i cant be there with you.. i'm sorry...
what goes about comes about.. dont u realise that u are getting the same treatment as what i was getting previously? unwittingly, and unintentionally, i realised that i am doing the what u did to me previously... do unto others what u want others do unto u.. and what they always say, what goes around, comes about.. time changes, people do too.

i dream of the times.. when life was free and easy..
when the kite flies free in the winds...
when the leaves sway with no worries..

take care...

u're the answer to my prayers...

hi all..results are out...and i did badly.. but let's forget about that... it's over.
i baked my first cheesecake..and proud to say that it tastes wonderfully nice for the first time..
i am inspired to bake further.. though i am not the cheesecake fan, but people like to eat can le.. hehe. and up next i wanna bake choc chip cookie..i knw not that difficult for cookies.. but i want to make it taste yummilicious.. heh. =)
i wanna go ubin to cycle...=P
some people disappear from ur life for good..some things, once gone, never comes back...
and i wanna say that... ddd.. thank you... =) =o =p heeee
muaggiex..
to han han! take care over there wors..and yun, wen, al, hao and ming.. hehh=) glad u all having great fun there..

results are coming out tomorrow.. sigh, i really hope all goes well... this time each sem... *prays*..
fatigue is crumbling me... i drag myself out of bed each day...and feel so tired each night... joanne maybe u shud accept it and start giving urself a break.only the extra allowance is keeping me going.. watched pirates yest..nicenice.. makes me wanna watch 1 and 2..who has send me k?! hawhaw... i miss my frens... jiayou and good luck everyone...

i dont appear to be around, but i feel for you...
i know how much he is hurting you by not telling you what he wants..
i know how much he matters to you. take a step back and ask him what he wants..
and no, being blissfully attached does not mean they dont feel your pain..
and i know its not your fault, not your fault at all..
i understand the pain of not sharing. please do..
i know i have the tendency not to be around, i cant promise to be there all the time,
but i will be around if u need someone to hug on to.. alright babe? like the way u offered ur
ears, i will too..
sorry if i have neglected you...
and.. more often than not, the heart rules the mind...
it's not your fault.. believe it.
hugs..take care..

my grandmA and aunty are leaving for indo today... i realised i am one emotional person.. i dont really like to send people of at the airport.. cos i will feel so sad they are leaving la.. heh i just wish that everyone important to me will never leave my side... but yesh, that's a stupid thinking. it seems like a natural reaction, something i never got to be in control of since young, feeling sad,frustrated, this heat will rise in my face, and my nose will turn red.. then i wil start tearing.. yes, i am one emotional girl. even seeing a dead cat makes me cry.. i also dont like my last day of work, or the last day of work for my friends.. i will try not make too much contact with them on the day itself..cos i will feel so sad..
i like the night scenery, the night breeze, but i hardly get the chance to go out late at night.. so i really enjoy every moment i get to spend outside at the beach, the park at night.. the quiet nights listening to the nature sounds..is soothing to the ears... and soul..
i want to go k.. again!! more more! its an expensive past time, but i think its great fun.. honestly! want to get people to go out k again! *catch the hint!*
the past often hold memories, sweet or sour... but when some things change, they change for good.. sigh...
results are coming out.. i m worried. prays hard for the best!
i often believe that a hug cures a million pains.hugs all! =)
i miss all of you...

some people dont know how to appreciate things till too late.. and when the heart is cold, i believe no amount of effort will ever move it again... it's not being cruel or that you dont care for someone anymore... its just that when some things are lost, they're lost for good..think about what you are doing, the possible consequences in future..
went to the hairdresser...thanks dar.. =D you're the best! MuaggY! accompanying truout though u r that tired..nw i've got nice nice hair...
i becoming more and more ba dao lately? i really dont think so la.. sorry...
missing u alr..

it has been a long long while..hi all... i miss all of you.. it has been more tiring than the exams.. work... i havent gotten a proper rest since the exams ended..probably time to take a break soon.. they're laying people off already.. so i am looking around for new jobs..anyone got job lobangs must let me know ok? =D been very busy with the designing as well.. haiz..
have fallen sick as well.. almost one week liao.. and u all know joanne, she doesnt like to see doctor... dont ask me to...
i know more often than not, it takes alot of courage to do something... but i believe that some things, u just cant be too generous.. hold on to the things that matter... because once u miss it, u might not get the chance again. alright?
something i realised, when someone matters that much to you, any small thing u would definitely feel greatly..u really dont want to lose that someone...
time, and often disappointment, leaves the heart cold..
some people, u just dont want to care anymore..
*simple pleasures,
i just cant resist you..*

saw a ran over cat while driving today.. felt so sad for it..=(

hey all..how are all of u? life's been more busy then ever.. work's been tiring as well... fell ill.. was down with fever yest... so wrong la.. but then.. panadol strong does it all... woke up once in the middle of then night to eat one and yeh i am feeling better already.. hope that han han yun and wen wen and the guys are having fun in US! must keep warm warm hor! and no worries ok! joanne is fine in singapore too=)
had a great time at kbox last thurs.. first time ever.. i sang so much la. cos i know i cant sing...pardon me if i hurt ya ears... =X
u know sometimes u just dont know why some people are that unreasonable.. it used to affect alot...but not as much anymore.. some people are just pure selfish.. they want you to be there when they need u..but when u need them, they're nowhere to be seen..
i sometimes dont understand why people are like that la... been trying to be more understanding.. but i cant.. not anymore...
some things... when done overboard... just dont work out anymore... some things cannot be recovered anymore... when efforts no longer get recognised.. for a long long time, the heart becomes cold as well ok? i do miss the days.. but its over...
to ddd. thanks lots lots..

you know it when u are tired... i know it... i try to get some eye shut whenever i can... and it's worst than before.. the lack of sleep is driving me crazy... man.. i'm missing so many people... roomie, sophia, xiaobai..u know and the list goes on.. my gang of OG mates from mse are going for work and travel from tml.. i am so going to miss all of u..
perhaps.. meeting u is the best thing that has happened.
life is good because of u...
hugs.. people, take care ok?

some time ago.. walking down to mse lab to study with a couple of frens.. we started to talk about school anthems... hahaa. then they started singing. and i realised.. I SO forgot all the lyrics of all my school songs la.. and my pri sch sch song suddenly sounded foreign to me when i went online to search for it the other time. now that exams are over! haha! nothing else better to do.. sooo.. here goes...
TJC
It matter not where we are from
To Temasek we now belong
Sharing experiences, yours and mine
Giving more meaning to our lives
Giving more meaning to our lives

Let's pledge today with heart sincere
To Serve Temasek we hold so dear
With pride, truth and joy
We now proclaim
Our will to blaze Temasek's fame
Our will to blaze Temasek's fame

Chorus
We're here with a purpose
We're here with a will
Temasek's aspirations to fulfil
We'll give our best in all we do
Steadfast and valiant to duty true

Cedar
Unite Cedarians unite,
We’ll perservere all the way,
Make sure our torch is burning bright,
Courteous,honest everyday,
Forever loyal ‘ever true,
For Cedar our best we’ll do.

Chorus:
To Cedar Girls’ School we belong,
With pride and love let’s sing this song,
Let us unite and together vow,
To dedicate our loyalty now.

Holy Innocent's Primary School

=)

enjoy the holidays my dears.

=)

sometimes i think i am the most fortunate 'little girl'...

=)

hugs..

have not been blogging for some time already.. dont really have the time to man. it's worst then exam times now... i'm waking up so much earlier then before.. the travelling and everything.. yaa i learn this each holiday when i find a job.. that man, money doesnt come by easy. the amount of energy put in.. the fatigue... but ya need the money.. =) jia you joanne.. missing so many people.. so many people i want to meet up with..sorry..
=D my indo relatives are here.. but havent reali got the chance to interact with them yet.. heh by the time i came back from mse meeting, they were fast aslp.. many many things to do... gimme time to rest then i start designing ok? sigh.
hugs.. tired..

first day back at work today.. it was a battle..
couple of familiar faces here and there..sigh. i should have rejected starting work this early..i'm tired.. from the lack of slp during exams and now..i wake up even earlier than during the exam period..
man i shud stop complaining laa..
tired tired tired... joanne!!!! get a life laa..
looking forward to meeting indo relatives..=)

at long last! i am free from exams! yeh free!! free! Free!!
not too happily left the exam hall for last paper.. it stunned me..
i felt so sad la...sigh u know how terrible it feels when u put in so much effort and yet at the end of it u get nothing out of it? i mean... i've never been this disciplined in my life can. study so hard..
but then as i walked further and further away.. the realization hit me, i am finally free from torture for the next 3 months.. could take a good break away from school before starting work on monday.. was driving out of jalan bahar when CPF's HR called..
"hi.. would like u to start work tml, is it ok? report to 37...."
amazing i thought.. super zhun la. it wasnt even 1/2 hr la since my paper last ended..
in the end, U-turned back to hall to pack.. packed like mad laa.. superly tired...
went to work the very next day...had training.. man macham studying for exams all over again la..the amount of things that need to be remembered.. yes.. i have started work.. cannot believe it man. havent even started to play yet....zzz be posted to tampines branch.. from tml onwards i be there. sigh.. i want to go out and play... =(
after wk went back to hall.. shifted everything back home... definitely, i am tired man.. and i got bruises all over my hands.. sigh. this sucks more.
BUT.
the feeling of being free is good...
hope to enjoy work... times at tampines previously hasnt exactly been the most pleasant one i can recall... zzzz.
i wanna go cycling, swimming, tennis-ing and gyming... haha...
and i am so looking forward to the arrival of my indo relatives.. hehe excited.
going off to bed... work tml... ppl.. jio me out on sat afternoons and sunday ok! hahaa...
rmie, jia you!! last paper liaooz=) cheerios.

joanne one more! wad's over is over. concentrate on the last!
jia you to people with remaining papers! =)
anw, i be starting work next monday.. agency called me yest..
going back to cpf to work(again!).
supposed to have started work yest but haha! exams laa!
alright man! last paper.. come on man, let's hang in there...
that's called postivity to the max..
i miss home.. i havent seen them for a month liao..
i miss my dog.. do u miss zhu ren?
and wow i beginning to miss saying goodnight to rmie and xiaobai..lol.
study hard rmie...
cheers everyone!
PLAY HARD after exams ok!

feeling down... =( haiz... super down.

2 more papers to go... jia you everyone (mse peeps and ppl who havent ended exams ONLY) haha.. it's has been a long and tiring battle.. not ending soon.. =( haiz..
but on a happier note.. my indonesian relatives are coming to singapore! yay! haha excited my fav uncle is coming! =) with my grandma and my auntie. grinz.. happified!
be packing my stuff on thurs..moving out liao. i hope one day is enough for me.. realised my house may not have enough space for my tazs as yet.. with my relatives staying in with us..
nvm think abt it after exams.. paper at 1 later.. jia you!
hUgs!

alright.. 4 papers down for now.. still having two more cores next week.. sigh by this time i think most people have ended their papers already.. something i learnt thru the first part of my examinations... never try to have 3 continuous papers in three running days.. it's deadly and i mean it... in quad after 2002 paper... tired.. all the things that i took such pains to memorise.. seem to just fade away.. sigh.. nvm..
everyone still having papers.. jia you ok=) cheers..

first paper over liao.. sigh~ it's was an ok before i came out to hear people discuss.. after i came out, it became a not so ok paper.. nvm, it's over.. hope to clear it, that's all...
marathon papers tml, tues and wed.. zzz 5pm, 5pm, 9am... i think by wed i would have blown up.. haa. now, it's panic and stress at its maximum...
roooomie~! u need to start! i see ur notes ard, but i dun see you!!
tml's rmie's birthday.. 23/04. Happy 21st birthday rmie! =) ya i know its unfortunate ur first paper is on ur birthday... hope u like the bag we got you! =D cheers and take care my dear! =)
jia you everyone..
thanks for the huge mugging bottle(mug) hahaa...
hw would i live without you....?=)
hugs..take care people..

my first paper, is tml... arhHhhhhhhhhhhh!
thanks yippie for his 'artwork'...=)
i know i have wonderful friends...
thanks ddd for the note..and breakfast..
thank you! muackz...

in fright i flee..
under stress i crumble..
jia you jia you!

take care all, and good luck=)
take a break, have a kitkat...

you know it's stress saturation when u gouge on chocolates big time. paper starting on friday... and. rmie isnt coming back till sunday.. and she didnt bring back her notes to study.. roomie, u qiang! haha. =x.
jia you jia you!
no worries about me..
i get exam stress, everytime!
=) cheers people, jia you!
jia you jia you jia you...
ddd, sick le.. must take care alright? *hugs*
back to studies.. the early bird catches the worms..
the late bear gets bitten! =X haha. how it rhymes..

ps: any guy getting a single rm next yr, who's going for IA 1st sem and willing to let it out, let me know k?

some people, you just dont want to have anything to do with them..

wth..
the ceiling fan in my hostel rm started making freaking squeaky noises that already kept me up last night.. it's so loud me blasting my music has no impact. it's either i sleep perspiring like mad or i make do with the noise.. so wrong... i sent in a hostel wk repair application.. i hope they come and do something abt it soon. i'm tired.. and damn irritated.

i realised why rmie said sorry in my tag liao... haha.. rmie, u were not the intended person i was talking about. clearing my hp inbox did i realise your 'k' but, no no, if i dun rmb wrongly that post was up before i msged u.. =x so rmie, no need sorry!
had ice-cream yest... yumz... but so wrong... haa..
yeh like wad zhiyang said..he believes i am as guilty as him eating chocs at such amazing rate during this period of time.. you know, i must agree.. =x
jia yoU!
=)
and rmie! no worries la.. no matter what happens, ur rmie loves u too =x hahaa =D jia you for exams!

-fatique-...
worn down...

it's a wonder why people say they dont like certain things that others do.. yet they never fail to do it themselves.. just like the way a one word sms reply irrirates you, you never fail to reply people with one word or one letter reply...
it's a wonder how u can irritate people anytime you like, but when someone else's does that unintentionally to you, you get pissed off.. isnt that being kind of childish,, just this certain person i would like to talk about... zzz sometimes i just dont know what to do with you.. i realise it doesnt usually pay to be kind to you...
studying has become full-time recently.. haha.
first paper next fri.. ms2008
then 3 consecutive papers on mon tues and wed.. zzz
then 2 more the week following..
jia you ppl..
=)

panic--

this feeling sucks big time...

sigh~

jia you

it's that time of the semester again... where stress cripples me...yet again...
and in addition, the darn headache..has been recurring day after day... causing me to lie on the bed time after time... is it reali time to see the doctor.. for the pain that strikes the right side of my head.. maybe...
dont u think it's a vicious cycle?
jia you all! =)
thanks ping for the tj anthem lyrics..
thanks esther for being a wonderful host! hope u enjoyed yourself as much as we did.. haha u shud see lois's and xin en's reactions when they saw diya.. lol. oopx
thanks ddd...
love you all!
exams...jia you!

heh.. in mse com lab now.. waiting for 803.. zzz tired... superly hot weather la.. thanks yuhan for the ice-cream.. appreciated.. =) going home today.. lugged along with me my super heavy bag.. haha..
want to go home to drive the car... i wil insist man...
pri sch fren added me on msn.. so long never talk to her already liao la... heehee... time flies huh.

in the process of looking for my school songs.. will try to find them and post them up soon.. more updates soon.. going to woodlands this sat... for a bdae party at 7pm... going back hall after that i think... right.. take care people=)

to soar high like an eagle...
cheers...

it's disappointing to realise you are actually like that.. nvm. it's not going to affect me.. just totally disappointed in you.. you dont realise how selfish you are being.. we all see it. you only want the benefits. you only go to where u gain. know how fortunate you are.. leave all you want.
forget about the displeasure man..
=) on a lighter note.. i had my soyabean ice-cream today.. =) thanks ddd for doing grocery shopping with me..i think it'd last me for a long long time till the end of exams.. dont know why two chips ahoy appeared when neither of us took it.. zzz then we didnt check the receipt either...zzzz nvm.. at least i eat them.. and haa ever looking for food, come to joanne's rm man.. hehh =x
and yes yes... i got my bread again..*rmb one of those post i talked abt kaya+butter?* hehh.. ddd thanks! hugs! =D
jia you people.. =)
*big wide smile* :)

i duno how many times thoughts like these went thru my mind.. but this is so true.. the people you care for the most always hurt u the most... and this for the very simple reason.. people you dont care for dont hurt you..
we often dont realise the amount of hurt which we inflict onto those who are dearest to us. because we prob feel that hey since you already know me so well.. you should know how i am.. and not be bothered by the things i do.. but what we dont often do is to put ourselves in others shoes..
for every day is going to be a better day! =D cheers ppl..*hugs*... the little gestures are truly appreciated...
if tomorrow never comes...i would regret not knowing you all earlier...

had a couple of cravings satisfied for today...
i got to drink bubble tea..
i got to eat chocolates..
i got the chance to eat ice-cream...but i decided.. enough for the day...
tml maybe? =X

been pillion on a couple of bikes..
phantoms, vespa..
and today i got to ride on a super4! haaa..zzz
super high la...
further inspired to get class 2b...

been receiving weird messages lately..
from people i dont know..
hope it's not some prank la.
if u wan, just step out la...

jia you..exams are around the corner..
take care ppl=)

sigh.. happened again. irritated. without fail man. nvm.. i know it's over..
yeh i know.. saying is always so much easier... no worries?? like real...

craving for
ice-cream...
bubble tea...
chocolates...
someone bring me out for some??

i duno why, but blogging has become almost a natural thing to do each time i wana find somone to talk to but cant.. it started off in JC1 i think if i am not wrong.. when i was first introduced into the blogging world by a senior of mine.. i havent stopped since then... this blog of mine has seen me through the darkest.. the brightest -x.. u knw if u are ever free enough, u can always read my archives.. though the ones at the vv beginning probably arent there anymore.. cos at some point in the process of changing provider, those posts were deleted and never recovered...

was preparing tech comm speech.. and rmb how i always never fail to falter in presentations.. sighh... better hope for best tml.. wish me the best...

alone in hall.. quiet....

the first time in my entire life playing the soft toy picker thing in arcades? i caught a pooh bear..which i happily named poohbie... lol. it's from japan. and looks slightly different the ones u see in Singapore.. but it's cute.. hahaa.. the couple next to us were like.. dang.. ' u all caught one after 5 mins.." we've been here for like so long and so much money spent.. zzz haha went off hugging poohbie with wide wide grin.. now my bed really no space liao. =x u know arcades are one gd place to stress-relief...

nicely done, at few minutes past midnight.. i got tricked.. well done frizal! haha. if not for huat.. i think i totally will be like zzzz kena bluff so long i still entertain u.. haha.. then u called me and start laughing.. u evil laa.. hahaa. my being me didnt realise it's april fools day already.. to think that we were just talking about it..

yes indeed after sometimes, u realise that there are certain things that will never be the same again.. and i sometime wonder how certain people can come back and expect things to be done their way.. and it's just practical isnt it, then when u need help, u come back into another person's life and then when u are having a good time at the other side.. one's existence totally disappears? i realised that i am beginning to tolerate this less and less.. i knw that as a friend, i want to be there regardless of the circumstances but then, have u ever thought about how it feels not? and then u come back into my life asking about how life has been all these while.. and that i am no longer sharing things with you.. ask urself..are u being reasonable laa.. i know me being me will do what i can.. to the extent of putting my benefits behind.. but arent u taking advantage of the situation? so when things go well again.. are u going to disappear again.. hah...but u know what, this isnt too impt anymore...

applied to stay with current rmie in 14-3-209 again next year.. haha. having stayed with her for the past few months.. i must say that she is one of the best person u can have around(other than the exam period=X).. hehe. totally entertaining. i dont think i talked to soft-toys until i met her.. lol.. even to the extent of saying gdnight to 'xiaobai' la.. haha. basically rmie knows her programming vv well.. super good computer stuff.. and knows that her rmie loves chocs=) haha.. thanks rmie for the times=) the times we layed in bed, with the lights off to talk.. throwing ah bai ard... =) and yeh by the way.. i call her 'rmie' to the extent i sometimes need to think what her real name is.. =) anyway rmie, exam period liao wor.. shud stop solitaire-ing for nw and start studying ok.. =) and sleep less? =x

right.. having 2005 quiz next week and tech comm presentation.. jia you wor people=) Hugs*

yesterday had 2002 quiz.. it was a fairly ok paper..for the amount of time she spent on studying it, i know it shouldnt be that tough.. but it just goes to show that i didnt work hard enough.

you know joanne.. ur problems arent anything to mention of.. there are also people around who are in pain...
no worries... joanne will pick herself up..it's just a matter of time.. yes i will learn to hold on to the people around me... it's just that.. she has learnt the hard way.. she doesnt want to use anyone as support.. cos she had the experience of holding on to people when she needed them most... and to realise that they would just let go.. and when they did.. they never knew how far deep they throw me in.. these so called friends, never really took another look... they just went on with their life..

i am just afraid to reach out anymore...

just like to share the many things that have gone wrong lately..more often than not, my friends are placed high up in my priorties.. i think this is true for most people.. ya i know sometimes it goes to the extent that u dont care about yourself anymore because u are trying to do something for your friend... you get upset when the someone shares the problem with you and there's nothing u can do about it. ya.. though i believe in the fact that just being around someone when they need friends with them is already alot to ask for.. sometimes, just the presence of your friends around make alot of difference.

--met Y recently in NTU when he came back as an 'employee' of A* IMRE to give a talk to year3&4 students from MSE.. from my primary school and we met again in JC.. D is under A* scholarship and going off overseas to study coming August.. met awhile outside LT4 where he was giving the talk.. then realised..this one friend of mine, has thinned down to such an extent i almost couldnt recognise him anymore.. further talking made me realise he's under some condition, exercise bulemia or something..not too sure how to spell it. he has been exercising to such an extent that.. he doesnt do anything else other than his research in IMRE. he told me that he has cut off totally from his social circle.. that other than exercising and studies, he doesnt see anything else anymore.. his condition led him to break up with his gf couple of months ago, because exercising numbed all his other feelings.. he stopped going out with friends because he thought exercising gave him the 'high' he wanted.. i soon came into realization what a lousy mei i was to him... i never knew about all these.. when he didnt reply msges anymore.. i thought oh, maybe he has already left for overseas... just hope that he will once again come out and be his old self.. cheerful old self.. i know my kor is trying... wishing him the best...--

--recently C has been facing problems with his relationship with his gf.. i only came to realise recently how upset he has been in this r/s... despite everything... i know he loves her alot.. just that i saw no point in a relationship when they quarrelled week after week..and the same problem happens each week.. i can only say that at this point, cool down and decide what you want to do.. if u love her and have the every intention to carry on this r/s.. then do something about it.. it may or may not be ur fault.. from my angle.. i definitely be supporting you.. but i never know what's going on on her side.. she may have her reasons for doing all these.. take good care of yourself alright.. or else if u break down..who's going to support her if she needs you? --

--Prince shared with me a story of his past.. Princess and he had a wonderful relationship 5 yrs back.. then things started to crumble... He's still suffering from the pain that she cheated on him.. couple of months back..Princess came back.. telling Prince that she wanted to try again... Prince doesnt know if he can go back to the ship that sunk.. for the ship held too much memories... dear Prince.. looking at the situation urself, you would have said that.. move on and find another more deserving girl.. i would choose to believe u still care.. definitely you arent heartless.. but betrayal more often than not kills the love. i know it doesnt sound nice if i said the girl is looking for a sub when things go wrong on the other side.. then what if she thinks of him again, is the same thing going to happen again? my point of view is definitely that things will never be the same again. i believe no amount of love will cover up the hurt.. good memories linger... but if u dont let go, you wouldnt be able to achieve better ones.. that i am pretty sure.. like i said to few, sometimes it's good to be harsh.. then u will realise what's best.. you know yourself best though.. weigh the both sides.. then decide what you wana do.. jia you! =) i dun have a strong hand..but i can offer both hands if u need.. cheers too=) --

to all.. take care... it has been a long entry today.. i be in hall the next couple of weeks.. shouldnt be going home.. joanne jia you! *hugs*...

feel lousy...really lousy...
hey joanne since when did u become so weak...
argh. damn irritated with myself...
='(

it's a choice i made.
doesnt matter it hurts..

something is wrong when u sit in front of ur laptop.. stare, and start tearing.. i duno wad's wrong..

u knw..those were the days..
the indian 'breadman' and his daily appearance in the neighbourhood were just a joy for us little kids.. everytime we hear the distinct 'poH poH'..'loti..'.. we'll go like...mummmyyyy! then mummy will fish out a note or 2 from her purse..and there u see little kids surrounding mr breadman. the daily white bread spread with kaya+butter and the occassional sugi was simple pleasure.. haha..
still today.. i still enjoy eating it. when i sometimes reach home in the early evening from hall.. i will look ard to see mr breadman was ard.. although so many years down the road later, it's a diff indian breadman.. =x ya..such simple pleasures.. it's a rare sight these days.. and once in a while.. u may see this at confectionaries..

was reading a friend's blog lately.. i strongly believe that at times.. u cant say that things happen..cos u let them happen.. i often believe that it may lie that in the circumstances that surround it. but ya, all things happen with a reason, for some, if u dont see it, just accept it.

since when did things become so complicated..?
cheers...

and chocs never fail to cheer me... =x

it's tough.. but you got to try ya?
it's a wonder, how things change so much sometimes..
very different people with very different views.
you dont get to see both sides of things..
hey to u.. knw u are feeling upset..that things turned out this way between the both of u, but jia you ok? work it out ba.. cheers..

we have a choice:
how we want to feel
how we want to think
...

it's in the mind...

to move out of denial into realisation...

my right knee feels wrong again. =(

jia you!

you know it when people are trying to get u to chill..
and i know it when these people care... thanks.
well.. quizzes this week and week after..good luck to everyone..
for a long while after so much running back in cedar.. from that fall back then..not forgetting the few klics twice each week in tj.. i started to shy away from running at any chance possible.. so people, forget abt asking me go run.. hahaaa.. =x
off to lesson.. take care.
with love, me

this entry marks my 200th post.. =) according to the new blogger la. not too sure though where it starts counting.
things all happen for a reason. got to accept that. yes, some things, no point in letting it go on and on. no worries man. we all walk out of darkness. i will too ok? if i take a little longer, let me.
there's no use indulging in self-pity. it just hurts more..
exams are here.. jia you peeps.
=) hugs.

it all happened with a reason. no way out. take care.

it's been exactly a month since i last got my license.. and i havent drove my dad's car yet. sigh. when will i get the chance man.. u know my license didnt come cheap nor easy. nvm.

i thought i would never want to come out again... till a long long time later... i hid away.. but soon enough realised that it didnt make too much of a difference.. it pained to realise so.. that in no time.. i would be living in my world..own world.
the recurring headache, constant fainting spells... got me pissed off lately.. why doesnt it just go away.. i dont need my world 'revolving' around me as it already is. thanks guys for panadol n pokey. appreciate it lots=) and honest, your smiles always brighten up my day.
there were times when i dreaded to go home.. must find it amazing huh.. each weekend, ppl look forward to going home.. but then i dont.. i hate to find out things on my own... to find the problems that we're facing.. to realise that 'hey girl, you arent very useful at home you know that'.. i dont share... i knw i dont put in any effort in starting conversations......forget it.
you dont knw how sad it can get feeling lonely.. i dont turn to ppl, i chose to hide away even more, even more....
exams are round the corner.. think i'm going to stay away from home for the next few weeks.. people, ask me out to study ok?
sorry to those who reached out but rec lil from me. i knw i need to learn to talk to people, but i dont knw hw... thanks.
hugs.. thank you to those who care enough...

what happens if i dont come out...?

far far into hiding... till then.

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have,

and one of the best things you can be.

A friend is the one who will always be beside you,

through all the laughter, and through each and every tear.

A friend is the one thing you can always rely on;

the someone you can always open up to.

A friend is a sanctuary.

A friend is a smile.

A friend is a hand,

that is always holding yours,

no matter where you are.

A friend is a feeling of forever in the heart.

something so simple...yet.. how many atimes do friends really go to such an extent for you. we do things trying not to have too high an expectation. yet when some friends who touched your heart once seem to never fade away in your heart..you seem to have disappeared from theirs... like i told someone not long ago.. i dont make very good friends with anyone anymore... maybe it isnt as much the fact that i dont trust anyone that much anymore..but the fact that i dont let go of the ties that bind that easily anymore.. i guess i wouldnt mind going around alone anymore...not as much anymore..it's fine, fine to be alone... sharing is no longer that simple a job anymore.
feeling lethargic. zzz. neck aching. =( sigh
IA allocation is out... think it's going to be so different next semester..
with people missing here and there...sighz..
sometimes, i realised that in order for certain things to come to an end... lies are told.. always found it easier to let someone hate u then to explain things.. maybe it really isnt the right way to do things.. but it saves lots of explanation. in time..we can only hope they forget...the pain that u choose to give them... some times, there's just no point in finding out the truth anymore...
i'm probably not that nice anymore..really not that nice... so. leave me alone if u cant take the way i choose to handle things..
we all crack up one day..

pek chek mood.
knee injury back i think.
strained it i think...never went to find out what's wrong since sec sch tennis days..=X
dad refuses to let me drive his car still..close to one month since i got my license..no matter hw short dist, he will tell me, 改天啦。。。duno when but it seems like its going to be a long long time. my bro got to drive it the very day he got his. i know i know...
take care ppl...
hey da ge..u take care.. jiayou ok? cheers=D
thanks ddd for the tazzie handphone stand...=) nicenice.

you know the hairdresser overdid it when u see too much of hair on the floor and u cant tie a proper ponytail...sighz.

lesson 1: get enough sleep before u go for night cycling..else u will really regret it....
lesson 2: dont get blue-blacks even before starting off.. but too dark not my fault i din see the pedal of the bike beside..
lesson 3: ....

it was fun though tiring... hee rmie, one more time? =X
went from pasir ris to changi v, simpang bedok, kallang, esplanade.. took close to 7 hrs for simpsons. as in tradition, we got lost again.. amazing.. always go up extra slopes for no reason...
still tired.

*snap out of it joanne... snap out. *

confirmed starting point--pasir ris park
ending point--esplanade
i dont think i should go home after that.. my dad will probably go like..'wad the heck are u doing at this time..' maybe not in this context..but something along that line.. if it ends at 5am-6 which it did last yr.. i think i might just linger around and see who is free to accompany till day-break (as in like 8-9am)
last yr it started in hall 1 ended at east coast park..
rmie thinks i am blogging too consistently it's scaring her..
dont worry la...=x
it's worrying why i cant get to slp recently...take care

so amazed..just blogged about going to ubin on wed, then thurs morning realised a group of friends going to ubin today..but going to night cycle tonight... Hmmm yeh duno when yet but i wana go there..when i going i let u know ok liping.. went out to study last night.. ok ba.. quite stoned.. didnt manage to get to sleep.. not much later went for techcomm meeting.. then lecture.. couldnt take it after that.. skipped 2002 tutorial..going for it on Mon i guess.. went back rm.. yawning away.. tried to slp..yaa. still with a heavy head... acty feeling weird.. hope i'm up to the cycling later..
i'm sorry about how i always make people worry unknowningly. i'm sorry my dear friends. i'm sorry. i will take care no worries ok? you all deserve a hug from me(though most of u know i dun reali hug people)... take care..
dear rmie and toiletie.. hope we have fun tonight okiex? i will go slow with you all=) dun worry la yeh?

going for night cycling on fri night...but meanwhile.. i feel like going to ubin to cycle if i can get the chance..anyone else interested let me know k. we organise a trip out one day.
sometimes..it's not that you dont want to reach out.. u just dont know how to. it's internalised.

been having trouble sleeping lately... used to be able to 一觉到天亮.. these days i have been flipping around at night and waking up way before my alarm goes off.. i feel tired. thanks to people especially for the past 2-3 nights..for accompanying me thru sms, msn.. it has been a tough time.
thanks ddd...
people walk into your life..some leave colourful footprints, some leave behind dirt prints.. no matter what kind of prints they leave behind, i believe something can be learn from each of them. as each person enter my life.. 我都希望他们能够留给我美好的回忆..but this does not apply all the time i know..
as i fight my own battle, i learn of people who will be around. i know of people who will let me have my space to think but just being a call or sms away. thanks and i appreciate it alot. thanks especially to people who are also fighting their own battle..know it isnt easy..*big hug* for all of you. As i lose myself into the stoned land at this moment.. i think of people who i would like to apologise to.. more often than not, one big mistake will overwrite whatever good things that have happened. forgive me if i never want to change things..or to allow them to go back to the way they used to be..
leave the good memories as they are, sometimes, there's no point trying to get things back, there's going to be more irritation and pain...
from young, i never very much liked the idea of sharing problems with anyone.. hate the idea of letting others see the tears.. the weakness sucks.. it has always been easier to appear cheerful.
i enjoy being by the sea. hear the waves wash against the shore.. place where i get to relax..think i am going to visit the beach soon...maybe some night soon..
take care all...love all of you=) cheers...as the going gets tough..

tired.. i think i need a break..

我感觉有点疲累。。。
什么也不想做了。。。
i know it has been disappointing.. i'm sorry.
sorry to those i left abruptly in the msn conversations...
tired. dont feel like talking...=/
this sian diao mood has not gone away.
the tears holding back...
pissed off with myself....
and the damn headache is not gone...

retail therapy today..alot of money spent..but then.. mood is still bad, temper is still soaring. damn it. so if i keep quiet, just leave me to be...its probably better that way. snapped at a couple of people on sat. sorry. irritated with myself. Argh. u know, what appears on the surface isnt always the way things are. take care people...*hugs.

i tossed and turned in bed last night. i couldnt fall asleep.
woke up with goldfish eyes this morning.
i could have been crying...
take care...

it's friday..usually i would have gone home on thursdays..but guess maybe from nw on i wouldnt.. heh. there's open house tml, another reason why i am not home yet. have to do some duties tml. *yawns* tired... started feeling unwell this morning..then it got worst through the day. went to jp to get a bank stamp..by the time i got back to room..kind of immediately kua on the bed...cold sweat, spinning head..irritated.
anyway, not sure if i ever mentioned..but then after getting my class3..thinking of going on to get a 2b, and ride on a xiao mian yang...heh. will see about that.. doubt my dad will agree with it, but yep.
dinner 'cut' my throat..swallowed this piece of meat with 'pointed edge'...argh. thought it might just go away..but it dint. high level of irritation..
sorry if i irritated anyone lately... i really dont mean to.

i know we are all fighting our little battle within...=( sigh.

wanted to do my tutorial..but feeling really tired..drained.. suddenly feeling emo. been in the sian diao mood since a couple of days back..that kinda burning sensation in the eyes, yet u dont know what's wrong. then yep, i had alot of chocs for the past few days..one way i use to destress. heh cos chocs make me happy! =x i dont know if the problem lies with me, but some things, i truly dont realise cos what i felt was insignificant could be taken as something so serious..
i duno if this is the correct path that i am taking now...but i probably wont know until something crops up. sigh. shall leave it here. ...to be continued.

it has been some time since i last blogged..busy with mse events, studying for quizzes..and heh! here to announce that i finally got my license..grinx. 8 points for going too slowly.. nvm..after my third try, i passed.. xing fen for a moment..+) happy. and quizzes are finally over for this moment.. spent the past few days studying...diligently..but still didnt do well. expected since past few days was probably not enough for 2008.. nvmm. over.. i should be happy! =D hee haaa!! well had many thoughts for the past few days but for nw.. let's forget about it.. =D alright, take care to all and to rmie..study for quiz la! heh take care ppl... muackzzzz dddddddd...=)

here with a very simple purpose.. want to wish all of you a HaPpy LunaR NeW yr. =) 新年快乐！猪年行好运！best wishes...=)

heh prob be some time before my next post.. it's CNY week and there's lots of things to do...oh no.. haiz.. i guess it almost marks the end of an initially good partnership..no more.. and i realised it's no longer a joy working with you. whatever..not impt..shall not spoil the mood to a happy entry.. thanks all for the wonderful gifts for Vday..=) the bag and bottle from ddd..flowers from daniel jason ujean gladys vivian, chocs from yuhan yingxuan zhiyang lishan, big toy flower from sophia..balloons from aylwin jasmine roomie, sweets from zhenhao andy xiaowen weiming liping, cookies from woods qiuyun...hehe thanks alot everyone.... sorry to those i missed out.. but thanks for making it enjoyable...=)
anyway, i received a love letter from tazzie today! hah!! =x tazzie says i love u in this letter looking cushion...=) heheee.. so cute can! nice nice thanks thanks! grinx.. then got new nailpolish too.. =) tired.. driving coming up..third time already.. hope to pass*prays hard*
hereby wishing all chinese out there..happy new yr=) ang pows many many! =p hahaa...cheers..

heh this is my latest desktop background i designed..zzz. thank you photoshop once again... was doing my isg publications stuff last night amidst helping mum with her baking..then realised how draining life has been..feel so tired...comm stuff, isg things..i really need to finish them soon.. hasnt been easy with the lack of cooperation from the other schools..argh... comm stuff wont be ending till some time..sigh. nvm... this i shall not complain here for fear of who might be reading this not-so-private blog of mine... at home now..didnt go for lessons today..2 hr lectures.. i intend to listen to them tonight when i get back to hall.. so far so good, i am happy that i have listened to all online lectures for those i skipped/missed..=) but for electives, unfortunately..no recordings...=X but i only skipped CBC once..=X so far so good right... been helping mummy with her baking.. and going for driving later so kinda explains why i am home too..
mentioned in the previous post that i wanted to post a little about living? =x yepp.. here i am.. life is fragile.. you never know when it be the time you find yourself lying on the deathbed.. we all make mistakes in life.. some choose to amend, while others prefer to just learn and move on... sometimes, there are situations where trying to amend may just make things worst..better to just let go and forget about it..
to think it took so long for me to realise how lucky i am in certain ways.. i didnt realise the fact that nothing will happen if i dont help myself..zzz realised that many of my posts have been about the fact how lucky i am in certain ways..but it's true... maybe we dont realise it cos we are being blinded by the things that are upsetting us.. why not turn all these negative energy into positive energy and put them where we best excel in? dont search for a permanent solution for a temporary situation...right right enough about this...
it's Valentines' Day tml..to all lovers out there.. hapPy vday..to all singles out there.. i wish you all luck in finding ur miss/mr right... Happy Friendship Day to all...thank you all out there who has made my life ever interesting..ever colourful..thank you all for all the love in my life...i love all you all! muackz...

heh it's the weekend. the long awaited break. fell ill..so wasnt able to make it to shili's 21st in the evening.. so sorry shili...
received few early valentines day gift..thanks thanks.=) nice nice royce chocs=) yummies.alright i know that chocs and being ill dont really come together. muackz.. and the nice nice green bottle... and the nice nice orange+brown bag..muackzzz...heh.
bought all my chinese new year clothings liao. latest collection is a orange-red stripes dress.. =) lol. happy happy..zhen shi de.
spent yest night cutting out cards for mse vday cards...think not too bad looking ba.. =)
Hmmm busy busy week ahead... going for driving lessons soon again...heh alrighty...back to blog later if i can find time...to all take care alright...wana share some things about living..

since someone said i havent blogged for a long while, i shall, post a short entry to tell them that joanne is still around.. i havent gone missing, just that well been busy with things..publications for isg.. publicity for mse.. on n on... =) looking for this nike bag.. almost bought online..lucky i checked.. not authentic.. haizz... nicenice..green and black...nvm.. k k i go slp le...night.take care...

been very busy lately..comm stuff and everything...and all my isg stuff have yet to come to a closure..so wrong.. i better get everything done soon.. been pissed off certain things lately..fine, i shall let u do whatever you want alright.. since u like to do everything, go ahead... i dont care.. be it being irresponsible on my part...you know what.. i hate to be in this partnership with you. since u are so good at it, go ahead... aaaargh. so pissed...it's the weekend finally..sighhx. time to rest a little... stupid headache refused to go away..argh.
hmm...many avtivities coming up...quizzes too.. jia you everyone...acty alot of things to blog about, probably find time on sat on sunday ba...cheers..