first paper over liao.. sigh~ it's was an ok before i came out to hear people discuss.. after i came out, it became a not so ok paper.. nvm, it's over.. hope to clear it, that's all...
marathon papers tml, tues and wed.. zzz 5pm, 5pm, 9am... i think by wed i would have blown up.. haa. now, it's panic and stress at its maximum...
roooomie~! u need to start! i see ur notes ard, but i dun see you!!
tml's rmie's birthday.. 23/04. Happy 21st birthday rmie! =) ya i know its unfortunate ur first paper is on ur birthday... hope u like the bag we got you! =D cheers and take care my dear! =)
jia you everyone..
thanks for the huge mugging bottle(mug) hahaa...
hw would i live without you....?=)
hugs..take care people..

my first paper, is tml... arhHhhhhhhhhhhh!
thanks yippie for his 'artwork'...=)
i know i have wonderful friends...
thanks ddd for the note..and breakfast..
thank you! muackz...

in fright i flee..
under stress i crumble..
jia you jia you!

take care all, and good luck=)
take a break, have a kitkat...

you know it's stress saturation when u gouge on chocolates big time. paper starting on friday... and. rmie isnt coming back till sunday.. and she didnt bring back her notes to study.. roomie, u qiang! haha. =x.
jia you jia you!
no worries about me..
i get exam stress, everytime!
=) cheers people, jia you!
jia you jia you jia you...
ddd, sick le.. must take care alright? *hugs*
back to studies.. the early bird catches the worms..
the late bear gets bitten! =X haha. how it rhymes..

ps: any guy getting a single rm next yr, who's going for IA 1st sem and willing to let it out, let me know k?

some people, you just dont want to have anything to do with them..

wth..
the ceiling fan in my hostel rm started making freaking squeaky noises that already kept me up last night.. it's so loud me blasting my music has no impact. it's either i sleep perspiring like mad or i make do with the noise.. so wrong... i sent in a hostel wk repair application.. i hope they come and do something abt it soon. i'm tired.. and damn irritated.

i realised why rmie said sorry in my tag liao... haha.. rmie, u were not the intended person i was talking about. clearing my hp inbox did i realise your 'k' but, no no, if i dun rmb wrongly that post was up before i msged u.. =x so rmie, no need sorry!
had ice-cream yest... yumz... but so wrong... haa..
yeh like wad zhiyang said..he believes i am as guilty as him eating chocs at such amazing rate during this period of time.. you know, i must agree.. =x
jia yoU!
=)
and rmie! no worries la.. no matter what happens, ur rmie loves u too =x hahaa =D jia you for exams!

-fatique-...
worn down...

it's a wonder why people say they dont like certain things that others do.. yet they never fail to do it themselves.. just like the way a one word sms reply irrirates you, you never fail to reply people with one word or one letter reply...
it's a wonder how u can irritate people anytime you like, but when someone else's does that unintentionally to you, you get pissed off.. isnt that being kind of childish,, just this certain person i would like to talk about... zzz sometimes i just dont know what to do with you.. i realise it doesnt usually pay to be kind to you...
studying has become full-time recently.. haha.
first paper next fri.. ms2008
then 3 consecutive papers on mon tues and wed.. zzz
then 2 more the week following..
jia you ppl..
=)

panic--

this feeling sucks big time...

sigh~

jia you

it's that time of the semester again... where stress cripples me...yet again...
and in addition, the darn headache..has been recurring day after day... causing me to lie on the bed time after time... is it reali time to see the doctor.. for the pain that strikes the right side of my head.. maybe...
dont u think it's a vicious cycle?
jia you all! =)
thanks ping for the tj anthem lyrics..
thanks esther for being a wonderful host! hope u enjoyed yourself as much as we did.. haha u shud see lois's and xin en's reactions when they saw diya.. lol. oopx
thanks ddd...
love you all!
exams...jia you!

heh.. in mse com lab now.. waiting for 803.. zzz tired... superly hot weather la.. thanks yuhan for the ice-cream.. appreciated.. =) going home today.. lugged along with me my super heavy bag.. haha..
want to go home to drive the car... i wil insist man...
pri sch fren added me on msn.. so long never talk to her already liao la... heehee... time flies huh.

in the process of looking for my school songs.. will try to find them and post them up soon.. more updates soon.. going to woodlands this sat... for a bdae party at 7pm... going back hall after that i think... right.. take care people=)

to soar high like an eagle...
cheers...

it's disappointing to realise you are actually like that.. nvm. it's not going to affect me.. just totally disappointed in you.. you dont realise how selfish you are being.. we all see it. you only want the benefits. you only go to where u gain. know how fortunate you are.. leave all you want.
forget about the displeasure man..
=) on a lighter note.. i had my soyabean ice-cream today.. =) thanks ddd for doing grocery shopping with me..i think it'd last me for a long long time till the end of exams.. dont know why two chips ahoy appeared when neither of us took it.. zzz then we didnt check the receipt either...zzzz nvm.. at least i eat them.. and haa ever looking for food, come to joanne's rm man.. hehh =x
and yes yes... i got my bread again..*rmb one of those post i talked abt kaya+butter?* hehh.. ddd thanks! hugs! =D
jia you people.. =)
*big wide smile* :)

i duno how many times thoughts like these went thru my mind.. but this is so true.. the people you care for the most always hurt u the most... and this for the very simple reason.. people you dont care for dont hurt you..
we often dont realise the amount of hurt which we inflict onto those who are dearest to us. because we prob feel that hey since you already know me so well.. you should know how i am.. and not be bothered by the things i do.. but what we dont often do is to put ourselves in others shoes..
for every day is going to be a better day! =D cheers ppl..*hugs*... the little gestures are truly appreciated...
if tomorrow never comes...i would regret not knowing you all earlier...

had a couple of cravings satisfied for today...
i got to drink bubble tea..
i got to eat chocolates..
i got the chance to eat ice-cream...but i decided.. enough for the day...
tml maybe? =X

been pillion on a couple of bikes..
phantoms, vespa..
and today i got to ride on a super4! haaa..zzz
super high la...
further inspired to get class 2b...

been receiving weird messages lately..
from people i dont know..
hope it's not some prank la.
if u wan, just step out la...

jia you..exams are around the corner..
take care ppl=)

sigh.. happened again. irritated. without fail man. nvm.. i know it's over..
yeh i know.. saying is always so much easier... no worries?? like real...

craving for
ice-cream...
bubble tea...
chocolates...
someone bring me out for some??

i duno why, but blogging has become almost a natural thing to do each time i wana find somone to talk to but cant.. it started off in JC1 i think if i am not wrong.. when i was first introduced into the blogging world by a senior of mine.. i havent stopped since then... this blog of mine has seen me through the darkest.. the brightest -x.. u knw if u are ever free enough, u can always read my archives.. though the ones at the vv beginning probably arent there anymore.. cos at some point in the process of changing provider, those posts were deleted and never recovered...

was preparing tech comm speech.. and rmb how i always never fail to falter in presentations.. sighh... better hope for best tml.. wish me the best...

alone in hall.. quiet....

the first time in my entire life playing the soft toy picker thing in arcades? i caught a pooh bear..which i happily named poohbie... lol. it's from japan. and looks slightly different the ones u see in Singapore.. but it's cute.. hahaa.. the couple next to us were like.. dang.. ' u all caught one after 5 mins.." we've been here for like so long and so much money spent.. zzz haha went off hugging poohbie with wide wide grin.. now my bed really no space liao. =x u know arcades are one gd place to stress-relief...

nicely done, at few minutes past midnight.. i got tricked.. well done frizal! haha. if not for huat.. i think i totally will be like zzzz kena bluff so long i still entertain u.. haha.. then u called me and start laughing.. u evil laa.. hahaa. my being me didnt realise it's april fools day already.. to think that we were just talking about it..

yes indeed after sometimes, u realise that there are certain things that will never be the same again.. and i sometime wonder how certain people can come back and expect things to be done their way.. and it's just practical isnt it, then when u need help, u come back into another person's life and then when u are having a good time at the other side.. one's existence totally disappears? i realised that i am beginning to tolerate this less and less.. i knw that as a friend, i want to be there regardless of the circumstances but then, have u ever thought about how it feels not? and then u come back into my life asking about how life has been all these while.. and that i am no longer sharing things with you.. ask urself..are u being reasonable laa.. i know me being me will do what i can.. to the extent of putting my benefits behind.. but arent u taking advantage of the situation? so when things go well again.. are u going to disappear again.. hah...but u know what, this isnt too impt anymore...

applied to stay with current rmie in 14-3-209 again next year.. haha. having stayed with her for the past few months.. i must say that she is one of the best person u can have around(other than the exam period=X).. hehe. totally entertaining. i dont think i talked to soft-toys until i met her.. lol.. even to the extent of saying gdnight to 'xiaobai' la.. haha. basically rmie knows her programming vv well.. super good computer stuff.. and knows that her rmie loves chocs=) haha.. thanks rmie for the times=) the times we layed in bed, with the lights off to talk.. throwing ah bai ard... =) and yeh by the way.. i call her 'rmie' to the extent i sometimes need to think what her real name is.. =) anyway rmie, exam period liao wor.. shud stop solitaire-ing for nw and start studying ok.. =) and sleep less? =x

right.. having 2005 quiz next week and tech comm presentation.. jia you wor people=) Hugs*

yesterday had 2002 quiz.. it was a fairly ok paper..for the amount of time she spent on studying it, i know it shouldnt be that tough.. but it just goes to show that i didnt work hard enough.

you know joanne.. ur problems arent anything to mention of.. there are also people around who are in pain...
no worries... joanne will pick herself up..it's just a matter of time.. yes i will learn to hold on to the people around me... it's just that.. she has learnt the hard way.. she doesnt want to use anyone as support.. cos she had the experience of holding on to people when she needed them most... and to realise that they would just let go.. and when they did.. they never knew how far deep they throw me in.. these so called friends, never really took another look... they just went on with their life..

i am just afraid to reach out anymore...

just like to share the many things that have gone wrong lately..more often than not, my friends are placed high up in my priorties.. i think this is true for most people.. ya i know sometimes it goes to the extent that u dont care about yourself anymore because u are trying to do something for your friend... you get upset when the someone shares the problem with you and there's nothing u can do about it. ya.. though i believe in the fact that just being around someone when they need friends with them is already alot to ask for.. sometimes, just the presence of your friends around make alot of difference.

--met Y recently in NTU when he came back as an 'employee' of A* IMRE to give a talk to year3&4 students from MSE.. from my primary school and we met again in JC.. D is under A* scholarship and going off overseas to study coming August.. met awhile outside LT4 where he was giving the talk.. then realised..this one friend of mine, has thinned down to such an extent i almost couldnt recognise him anymore.. further talking made me realise he's under some condition, exercise bulemia or something..not too sure how to spell it. he has been exercising to such an extent that.. he doesnt do anything else other than his research in IMRE. he told me that he has cut off totally from his social circle.. that other than exercising and studies, he doesnt see anything else anymore.. his condition led him to break up with his gf couple of months ago, because exercising numbed all his other feelings.. he stopped going out with friends because he thought exercising gave him the 'high' he wanted.. i soon came into realization what a lousy mei i was to him... i never knew about all these.. when he didnt reply msges anymore.. i thought oh, maybe he has already left for overseas... just hope that he will once again come out and be his old self.. cheerful old self.. i know my kor is trying... wishing him the best...--

--recently C has been facing problems with his relationship with his gf.. i only came to realise recently how upset he has been in this r/s... despite everything... i know he loves her alot.. just that i saw no point in a relationship when they quarrelled week after week..and the same problem happens each week.. i can only say that at this point, cool down and decide what you want to do.. if u love her and have the every intention to carry on this r/s.. then do something about it.. it may or may not be ur fault.. from my angle.. i definitely be supporting you.. but i never know what's going on on her side.. she may have her reasons for doing all these.. take good care of yourself alright.. or else if u break down..who's going to support her if she needs you? --

--Prince shared with me a story of his past.. Princess and he had a wonderful relationship 5 yrs back.. then things started to crumble... He's still suffering from the pain that she cheated on him.. couple of months back..Princess came back.. telling Prince that she wanted to try again... Prince doesnt know if he can go back to the ship that sunk.. for the ship held too much memories... dear Prince.. looking at the situation urself, you would have said that.. move on and find another more deserving girl.. i would choose to believe u still care.. definitely you arent heartless.. but betrayal more often than not kills the love. i know it doesnt sound nice if i said the girl is looking for a sub when things go wrong on the other side.. then what if she thinks of him again, is the same thing going to happen again? my point of view is definitely that things will never be the same again. i believe no amount of love will cover up the hurt.. good memories linger... but if u dont let go, you wouldnt be able to achieve better ones.. that i am pretty sure.. like i said to few, sometimes it's good to be harsh.. then u will realise what's best.. you know yourself best though.. weigh the both sides.. then decide what you wana do.. jia you! =) i dun have a strong hand..but i can offer both hands if u need.. cheers too=) --

to all.. take care... it has been a long entry today.. i be in hall the next couple of weeks.. shouldnt be going home.. joanne jia you! *hugs*...

feel lousy...really lousy...
hey joanne since when did u become so weak...
argh. damn irritated with myself...
='(

it's a choice i made.
doesnt matter it hurts..

something is wrong when u sit in front of ur laptop.. stare, and start tearing.. i duno wad's wrong..

u knw..those were the days..
the indian 'breadman' and his daily appearance in the neighbourhood were just a joy for us little kids.. everytime we hear the distinct 'poH poH'..'loti..'.. we'll go like...mummmyyyy! then mummy will fish out a note or 2 from her purse..and there u see little kids surrounding mr breadman. the daily white bread spread with kaya+butter and the occassional sugi was simple pleasure.. haha..
still today.. i still enjoy eating it. when i sometimes reach home in the early evening from hall.. i will look ard to see mr breadman was ard.. although so many years down the road later, it's a diff indian breadman.. =x ya..such simple pleasures.. it's a rare sight these days.. and once in a while.. u may see this at confectionaries..

was reading a friend's blog lately.. i strongly believe that at times.. u cant say that things happen..cos u let them happen.. i often believe that it may lie that in the circumstances that surround it. but ya, all things happen with a reason, for some, if u dont see it, just accept it.

since when did things become so complicated..?
cheers...

and chocs never fail to cheer me... =x

it's tough.. but you got to try ya?
it's a wonder, how things change so much sometimes..
very different people with very different views.
you dont get to see both sides of things..
hey to u.. knw u are feeling upset..that things turned out this way between the both of u, but jia you ok? work it out ba.. cheers..

we have a choice:
how we want to feel
how we want to think
...

it's in the mind...

to move out of denial into realisation...

my right knee feels wrong again. =(

jia you!

you know it when people are trying to get u to chill..
and i know it when these people care... thanks.
well.. quizzes this week and week after..good luck to everyone..
for a long while after so much running back in cedar.. from that fall back then..not forgetting the few klics twice each week in tj.. i started to shy away from running at any chance possible.. so people, forget abt asking me go run.. hahaaa.. =x
off to lesson.. take care.
with love, me

this entry marks my 200th post.. =) according to the new blogger la. not too sure though where it starts counting.
things all happen for a reason. got to accept that. yes, some things, no point in letting it go on and on. no worries man. we all walk out of darkness. i will too ok? if i take a little longer, let me.
there's no use indulging in self-pity. it just hurts more..
exams are here.. jia you peeps.
=) hugs.

it all happened with a reason. no way out. take care.

it's been exactly a month since i last got my license.. and i havent drove my dad's car yet. sigh. when will i get the chance man.. u know my license didnt come cheap nor easy. nvm.

i thought i would never want to come out again... till a long long time later... i hid away.. but soon enough realised that it didnt make too much of a difference.. it pained to realise so.. that in no time.. i would be living in my world..own world.
the recurring headache, constant fainting spells... got me pissed off lately.. why doesnt it just go away.. i dont need my world 'revolving' around me as it already is. thanks guys for panadol n pokey. appreciate it lots=) and honest, your smiles always brighten up my day.
there were times when i dreaded to go home.. must find it amazing huh.. each weekend, ppl look forward to going home.. but then i dont.. i hate to find out things on my own... to find the problems that we're facing.. to realise that 'hey girl, you arent very useful at home you know that'.. i dont share... i knw i dont put in any effort in starting conversations......forget it.
you dont knw how sad it can get feeling lonely.. i dont turn to ppl, i chose to hide away even more, even more....
exams are round the corner.. think i'm going to stay away from home for the next few weeks.. people, ask me out to study ok?
sorry to those who reached out but rec lil from me. i knw i need to learn to talk to people, but i dont knw hw... thanks.
hugs.. thank you to those who care enough...

what happens if i dont come out...?

far far into hiding... till then.

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have,

and one of the best things you can be.

A friend is the one who will always be beside you,

through all the laughter, and through each and every tear.

A friend is the one thing you can always rely on;

the someone you can always open up to.

A friend is a sanctuary.

A friend is a smile.

A friend is a hand,

that is always holding yours,

no matter where you are.

A friend is a feeling of forever in the heart.

something so simple...yet.. how many atimes do friends really go to such an extent for you. we do things trying not to have too high an expectation. yet when some friends who touched your heart once seem to never fade away in your heart..you seem to have disappeared from theirs... like i told someone not long ago.. i dont make very good friends with anyone anymore... maybe it isnt as much the fact that i dont trust anyone that much anymore..but the fact that i dont let go of the ties that bind that easily anymore.. i guess i wouldnt mind going around alone anymore...not as much anymore..it's fine, fine to be alone... sharing is no longer that simple a job anymore.
feeling lethargic. zzz. neck aching. =( sigh
IA allocation is out... think it's going to be so different next semester..
with people missing here and there...sighz..
sometimes, i realised that in order for certain things to come to an end... lies are told.. always found it easier to let someone hate u then to explain things.. maybe it really isnt the right way to do things.. but it saves lots of explanation. in time..we can only hope they forget...the pain that u choose to give them... some times, there's just no point in finding out the truth anymore...
i'm probably not that nice anymore..really not that nice... so. leave me alone if u cant take the way i choose to handle things..
we all crack up one day..

pek chek mood.
knee injury back i think.
strained it i think...never went to find out what's wrong since sec sch tennis days..=X
dad refuses to let me drive his car still..close to one month since i got my license..no matter hw short dist, he will tell me, 改天啦。。。duno when but it seems like its going to be a long long time. my bro got to drive it the very day he got his. i know i know...
take care ppl...
hey da ge..u take care.. jiayou ok? cheers=D
thanks ddd for the tazzie handphone stand...=) nicenice.

you know the hairdresser overdid it when u see too much of hair on the floor and u cant tie a proper ponytail...sighz.

lesson 1: get enough sleep before u go for night cycling..else u will really regret it....
lesson 2: dont get blue-blacks even before starting off.. but too dark not my fault i din see the pedal of the bike beside..
lesson 3: ....

it was fun though tiring... hee rmie, one more time? =X
went from pasir ris to changi v, simpang bedok, kallang, esplanade.. took close to 7 hrs for simpsons. as in tradition, we got lost again.. amazing.. always go up extra slopes for no reason...
still tired.

*snap out of it joanne... snap out. *

confirmed starting point--pasir ris park
ending point--esplanade
i dont think i should go home after that.. my dad will probably go like..'wad the heck are u doing at this time..' maybe not in this context..but something along that line.. if it ends at 5am-6 which it did last yr.. i think i might just linger around and see who is free to accompany till day-break (as in like 8-9am)
last yr it started in hall 1 ended at east coast park..
rmie thinks i am blogging too consistently it's scaring her..
dont worry la...=x
it's worrying why i cant get to slp recently...take care

so amazed..just blogged about going to ubin on wed, then thurs morning realised a group of friends going to ubin today..but going to night cycle tonight... Hmmm yeh duno when yet but i wana go there..when i going i let u know ok liping.. went out to study last night.. ok ba.. quite stoned.. didnt manage to get to sleep.. not much later went for techcomm meeting.. then lecture.. couldnt take it after that.. skipped 2002 tutorial..going for it on Mon i guess.. went back rm.. yawning away.. tried to slp..yaa. still with a heavy head... acty feeling weird.. hope i'm up to the cycling later..
i'm sorry about how i always make people worry unknowningly. i'm sorry my dear friends. i'm sorry. i will take care no worries ok? you all deserve a hug from me(though most of u know i dun reali hug people)... take care..
dear rmie and toiletie.. hope we have fun tonight okiex? i will go slow with you all=) dun worry la yeh?

going for night cycling on fri night...but meanwhile.. i feel like going to ubin to cycle if i can get the chance..anyone else interested let me know k. we organise a trip out one day.
sometimes..it's not that you dont want to reach out.. u just dont know how to. it's internalised.

been having trouble sleeping lately... used to be able to 一觉到天亮.. these days i have been flipping around at night and waking up way before my alarm goes off.. i feel tired. thanks to people especially for the past 2-3 nights..for accompanying me thru sms, msn.. it has been a tough time.
thanks ddd...
people walk into your life..some leave colourful footprints, some leave behind dirt prints.. no matter what kind of prints they leave behind, i believe something can be learn from each of them. as each person enter my life.. 我都希望他们能够留给我美好的回忆..but this does not apply all the time i know..
as i fight my own battle, i learn of people who will be around. i know of people who will let me have my space to think but just being a call or sms away. thanks and i appreciate it alot. thanks especially to people who are also fighting their own battle..know it isnt easy..*big hug* for all of you. As i lose myself into the stoned land at this moment.. i think of people who i would like to apologise to.. more often than not, one big mistake will overwrite whatever good things that have happened. forgive me if i never want to change things..or to allow them to go back to the way they used to be..
leave the good memories as they are, sometimes, there's no point trying to get things back, there's going to be more irritation and pain...
from young, i never very much liked the idea of sharing problems with anyone.. hate the idea of letting others see the tears.. the weakness sucks.. it has always been easier to appear cheerful.
i enjoy being by the sea. hear the waves wash against the shore.. place where i get to relax..think i am going to visit the beach soon...maybe some night soon..
take care all...love all of you=) cheers...as the going gets tough..

tired.. i think i need a break..

我感觉有点疲累。。。
什么也不想做了。。。
i know it has been disappointing.. i'm sorry.
sorry to those i left abruptly in the msn conversations...
tired. dont feel like talking...=/
this sian diao mood has not gone away.
the tears holding back...
pissed off with myself....
and the damn headache is not gone...

retail therapy today..alot of money spent..but then.. mood is still bad, temper is still soaring. damn it. so if i keep quiet, just leave me to be...its probably better that way. snapped at a couple of people on sat. sorry. irritated with myself. Argh. u know, what appears on the surface isnt always the way things are. take care people...*hugs.

i tossed and turned in bed last night. i couldnt fall asleep.
woke up with goldfish eyes this morning.
i could have been crying...
take care...

it's friday..usually i would have gone home on thursdays..but guess maybe from nw on i wouldnt.. heh. there's open house tml, another reason why i am not home yet. have to do some duties tml. *yawns* tired... started feeling unwell this morning..then it got worst through the day. went to jp to get a bank stamp..by the time i got back to room..kind of immediately kua on the bed...cold sweat, spinning head..irritated.
anyway, not sure if i ever mentioned..but then after getting my class3..thinking of going on to get a 2b, and ride on a xiao mian yang...heh. will see about that.. doubt my dad will agree with it, but yep.
dinner 'cut' my throat..swallowed this piece of meat with 'pointed edge'...argh. thought it might just go away..but it dint. high level of irritation..
sorry if i irritated anyone lately... i really dont mean to.

i know we are all fighting our little battle within...=( sigh.

wanted to do my tutorial..but feeling really tired..drained.. suddenly feeling emo. been in the sian diao mood since a couple of days back..that kinda burning sensation in the eyes, yet u dont know what's wrong. then yep, i had alot of chocs for the past few days..one way i use to destress. heh cos chocs make me happy! =x i dont know if the problem lies with me, but some things, i truly dont realise cos what i felt was insignificant could be taken as something so serious..
i duno if this is the correct path that i am taking now...but i probably wont know until something crops up. sigh. shall leave it here. ...to be continued.

it has been some time since i last blogged..busy with mse events, studying for quizzes..and heh! here to announce that i finally got my license..grinx. 8 points for going too slowly.. nvm..after my third try, i passed.. xing fen for a moment..+) happy. and quizzes are finally over for this moment.. spent the past few days studying...diligently..but still didnt do well. expected since past few days was probably not enough for 2008.. nvmm. over.. i should be happy! =D hee haaa!! well had many thoughts for the past few days but for nw.. let's forget about it.. =D alright, take care to all and to rmie..study for quiz la! heh take care ppl... muackzzzz dddddddd...=)

here with a very simple purpose.. want to wish all of you a HaPpy LunaR NeW yr. =) 新年快乐！猪年行好运！best wishes...=)

heh prob be some time before my next post.. it's CNY week and there's lots of things to do...oh no.. haiz.. i guess it almost marks the end of an initially good partnership..no more.. and i realised it's no longer a joy working with you. whatever..not impt..shall not spoil the mood to a happy entry.. thanks all for the wonderful gifts for Vday..=) the bag and bottle from ddd..flowers from daniel jason ujean gladys vivian, chocs from yuhan yingxuan zhiyang lishan, big toy flower from sophia..balloons from aylwin jasmine roomie, sweets from zhenhao andy xiaowen weiming liping, cookies from woods qiuyun...hehe thanks alot everyone.... sorry to those i missed out.. but thanks for making it enjoyable...=)
anyway, i received a love letter from tazzie today! hah!! =x tazzie says i love u in this letter looking cushion...=) heheee.. so cute can! nice nice thanks thanks! grinx.. then got new nailpolish too.. =) tired.. driving coming up..third time already.. hope to pass*prays hard*
hereby wishing all chinese out there..happy new yr=) ang pows many many! =p hahaa...cheers..

heh this is my latest desktop background i designed..zzz. thank you photoshop once again... was doing my isg publications stuff last night amidst helping mum with her baking..then realised how draining life has been..feel so tired...comm stuff, isg things..i really need to finish them soon.. hasnt been easy with the lack of cooperation from the other schools..argh... comm stuff wont be ending till some time..sigh. nvm... this i shall not complain here for fear of who might be reading this not-so-private blog of mine... at home now..didnt go for lessons today..2 hr lectures.. i intend to listen to them tonight when i get back to hall.. so far so good, i am happy that i have listened to all online lectures for those i skipped/missed..=) but for electives, unfortunately..no recordings...=X but i only skipped CBC once..=X so far so good right... been helping mummy with her baking.. and going for driving later so kinda explains why i am home too..
mentioned in the previous post that i wanted to post a little about living? =x yepp.. here i am.. life is fragile.. you never know when it be the time you find yourself lying on the deathbed.. we all make mistakes in life.. some choose to amend, while others prefer to just learn and move on... sometimes, there are situations where trying to amend may just make things worst..better to just let go and forget about it..
to think it took so long for me to realise how lucky i am in certain ways.. i didnt realise the fact that nothing will happen if i dont help myself..zzz realised that many of my posts have been about the fact how lucky i am in certain ways..but it's true... maybe we dont realise it cos we are being blinded by the things that are upsetting us.. why not turn all these negative energy into positive energy and put them where we best excel in? dont search for a permanent solution for a temporary situation...right right enough about this...
it's Valentines' Day tml..to all lovers out there.. hapPy vday..to all singles out there.. i wish you all luck in finding ur miss/mr right... Happy Friendship Day to all...thank you all out there who has made my life ever interesting..ever colourful..thank you all for all the love in my life...i love all you all! muackz...

heh it's the weekend. the long awaited break. fell ill..so wasnt able to make it to shili's 21st in the evening.. so sorry shili...
received few early valentines day gift..thanks thanks.=) nice nice royce chocs=) yummies.alright i know that chocs and being ill dont really come together. muackz.. and the nice nice green bottle... and the nice nice orange+brown bag..muackzzz...heh.
bought all my chinese new year clothings liao. latest collection is a orange-red stripes dress.. =) lol. happy happy..zhen shi de.
spent yest night cutting out cards for mse vday cards...think not too bad looking ba.. =)
Hmmm busy busy week ahead... going for driving lessons soon again...heh alrighty...back to blog later if i can find time...to all take care alright...wana share some things about living..

since someone said i havent blogged for a long while, i shall, post a short entry to tell them that joanne is still around.. i havent gone missing, just that well been busy with things..publications for isg.. publicity for mse.. on n on... =) looking for this nike bag.. almost bought online..lucky i checked.. not authentic.. haizz... nicenice..green and black...nvm.. k k i go slp le...night.take care...

been very busy lately..comm stuff and everything...and all my isg stuff have yet to come to a closure..so wrong.. i better get everything done soon.. been pissed off certain things lately..fine, i shall let u do whatever you want alright.. since u like to do everything, go ahead... i dont care.. be it being irresponsible on my part...you know what.. i hate to be in this partnership with you. since u are so good at it, go ahead... aaaargh. so pissed...it's the weekend finally..sighhx. time to rest a little... stupid headache refused to go away..argh.
hmm...many avtivities coming up...quizzes too.. jia you everyone...acty alot of things to blog about, probably find time on sat on sunday ba...cheers..

hello..joanne and tazzie at home says hi to all of you! dang.. this is the only taz i have at home...imagine if i brought the rest home..haha. duno what my parents will say then... oopx. been a busy day..helping mum with her baking..looking for her mixer with her..catching up with missed mechanics lectures, ATTEMPTING to do my mechanics tutorial, abit of luxor here and there.. i duno if that's considered doing abit of work la.. well in any case.. some things i want to say around here...

realised that some of us dun learn to appreciate things until they are lost for good. yet there are also some people who dont realise how fortunate they are to have the things around them. me for one, used to think that everything else was against me..i didnt mind remaining at the bottom of the pit..probably self-pitying? but it brings you no where..at this moment, i am trying to learn to appreciate the little things around me, that although i am fighting a battle, out there, there are people who are fighting fiercer battles than me..and i must admit that it does make one happier..from hiding in that one dark corner of the world, i took slow but significant steps to make living easier.. i want to let those who are fighting their own little battle know that, hey you are not alone... you have people who will support you..

some promises,can never be kept..

playing tennis on tuesday with mse peeps.. hehe time for exercise!

take care all...*HUGZ*

ddddddddd.....*bite*

some time since i last blogged..been getting lazy..lol. many things happened during the past week. i got my hair dyed, i bought a new skirt, i went drinking with ddd and some other ex-colleagues. and nw, right nw, i am having a sore throat and muscle aches..falling ill? i hope not.. dang...so wrong la. feeling kinda out of place today..feel like roaring at everyone...pre-illness syndrome? zzz..hmmz. sorry if i were to step on your toes, but meanwhile, it would too be advisable not to step on my tail... watched cheerleading competition last night..congrats hall one unisus for obtaining 2nd. you all are good! yeah! in any case, it's the third week into school..and life's busy..back on schedule on certain things.. jia you!

it's hard to think that some things will remain the same. after so much that has been done, after so long time of getting used to things. for some reason.. people dont seem to know how to appreciate till they have lost something..well haaa..

take care to all! =) for those who miss me, here's a pic...=P

i went to watch 'the last dance' today. i didnt really get the whole show..guess i was too tired liao. since after lab i was already feeling super tired. so wrong.. i should think i have slept sufficiently enough liao. =x heheh... today yulia was talking about royce chocs..and i had the sudden craving for it.. then went to taka..but didnt buy in the end.. cos dun think will last thru the movie.. i want! =D
chew and wenx are commenting that joanne has become more senile.. oei.. forgetting things doesnt mean i am becoming senile ok! it simply means i am careless and forgot k! haahaa excuses many many...it's amazing how much one can change.. well. then again, blame it on the circumstances one is under.. u can use to love someone so.. then after some time u realise that hey there's more hatred than anything. and vice versa. like i always say. we all change. i feel that as u get to know someone more and more, and u start to see the flaws in that person, two things can happen. one, u accept the flaws and remain very good friends with this person. two, u start to despise this person and try to distance yourself away. talking about being hypocritical and such, i believe there's this fraction in each person regardless of the extent which tends to be hypocritical...i believe so..going to sleep soon liao.. take care all.. happy belated bdae chewie.. sorry wendy for the senile me...

just came back from dinner with sophia, rmie and ujean... slept quite alot in the afternn. tired..but duno why. lol..yupp so going to blog then go bathe..
been having lots of thoughts lately.. indeed, i used to try to believe that some people look you up because they really want to, not because you are able to do something for them which is beneficial for them. but this assumption is about to stop just there..it's proven that certain people, not everyone, looks u up because there is some thing u can do for them. because once they are done with what they want, they disappear. i think my rmie would agree with me on this point. and the thing is, it hurts especially so when these are the people u care for the most.
maybe i havent realised this before, but i have been more and more sensitive to my surroundings lately...i look at someone and ask..is this person here for a certain reason? why is he/she suddenly so friendly? guess we probably shouldnt doubt people's sincerity.. but yeh that has become the very reality of life..

look around you and wonder...is this the kind of
life u want to lead 10 yrs from nw?

going on to the twenties, i wonder if i would be able to begin making decisions in the things i really want. yet on the other hand, do i really know what i want as this not so tender age of 20? perhaps.time will tell...
once again, i want to learn to appreciate the simple pleasures in life..take care all!

hey all.. havent been able to blog as frequent as i want.. haha... been lazy. oopx. not reali also la.. dont really know what i have been doing lately either...school has just reopened recently..things are stilll going fine.. but wait till everything comes full force...whoa.. sighh...and i feel that 2008 is super duperly challenging..bigger sigh. but nvm...will work hard..
some things.. u never know how to appreciate until you lose it...i realised this is a common mistake alot of people make, including myself.. but we all learn...
some people..are just not meant to be yours.. dont try too hard in wanting to have them..cos it might just hurt you more in the end...
well, i guess some times, after going through certain things.. u just tend to form stereotypes.. the fact that it might happen all over again. and you just dont try to change things anymore..
i know i have been leading a life of no proper beginnings nor proper endings...probably i should just accept it as fate right.. i should be happy that i am fortunate in many ways others are not. with each individual fighting their own battle..i should be glad that i am having it much easier than others.. learning to appreciate the simple pleasures in life..
i dont live to please everyone. i just try to do my best. i wanna minimise the regrets that i have..but at the same time not hold back what i wanna do just to avoid making mistakes...
realised that this post is quite random with all my random thoughts here and there..pardon me if u are reading...
i will post again when i have the time...
take care people...
slowing letting of the hands that hold on...
learning to soar thus high...

argh! whatever i jus typed just disappeared...shittified..
havent been blogging these couple of days..school has reopened.. thanks jason for passing over your notes.. hehe. i am happy to be back and seeing all of you once again. =) cheers. it's going to be the beginning of another hectic life..
2006 has been full of mistakes..and i am determined to make 2007 better. i am not going to be the nice person anymore.. i rather be cold than to hurt eventually. pardon me if u feel that joanne isnt as friendly anymore.
sometimes, i realise that i dont seem to understand the people who were supposed to be closest to me.. i dont understand why.. but this is not important..
i just reformatted my com..i hope that whatever problems with it will be cleared. haahaa. nw i am redownloading all the necessary things..shall do it as i need them..
alright take care to all...
it's happening more frequently nw.. i feel unimportant....

rmie is back in hall.. =) bleah. yeh rmie back to keng gai with me.. wahaahaa! school's reopening soon.. yep.. looking forward to it in some sense ba. whaahaa. i hope all goes well... dun really have much to say tonight. cheerios.

it's raining cats and dogs outside. hMmm. its still raining every other day..when will it stop? well. had tennis semis this morning. though i won my game, overall, hall 1 lost to 15 (1-4) but they were good. wonderful bunch of players. but i thinK due to not eating breakfast, and the lack of slp, there was some point i thought i was going to faint. zzz. so wrong. nvm..so sorry had to skip the cycling and meal, but i was really feeling v nua. another day alright? after that went back to the room to unpack a little... then clean up abit. roomie, i think u need to do it again. i duno why the floor is still so sandy. and it's slippery too... oopx. changed bed spread then brought mine and rmie's previous to wash then! it rains. cant bring in cos still wet( i mean WET and not just damp). lol. and bed spreads+ blankets = takes up whole area in rm. =x school's reopening on monday.. somehw, i am looking forward to it. It has been a nua holiday..and i look forward to doing better this coming sem. joanne jia you! wanted to post up a few pics...been 'zi lian'ing' again..but too lazy. alright. going to rest some. take care peeps. cheers.
learning to appreciate the little things that make me smile.

argh. something feels wrong. i duno hw to describe this.. been cracking my brains on what to do for challenge banner..and challenge publicity stuff, but reali have no ideas at the moment. then there's still isg booklet...argh. where are the creative juices??! so pissed that nothing is done. argh argh argh! and reza is not back from indo. OH man...where do i search for ideas!
been talking to few people about things lately..haa. as usual, i have alot of qns.. when u do some thing for someone, do u expect anything in return? anything at all? when u feel lost..is it due to the fact that you are not trying to pick yourself up, or is it that u did try? but refuse to let go, rather believe that there's an alternative way to solve it? i realised that i am not alone in this. sometimes, maybe u just need to speak to someone to realise that. was talking to rmie online yest..heh, alot of things triggered thoughts..then think about the past. one thing that i could confirm once again... the people u care for the most always hurt u the most. sigh. haaha. what to do? the people u dont care for cant hurt you. alot of times, we only regret after u have lost something. why so, why didnt we appreciate what we have earlier on, why allow for ourselves to make the same mistakes over and again. sigh. why cant i just be appreciative of the simple pleasures in life and live happily? am i asking for too much. yr 2006 marked a year of many regrets. big mistakes made. sorry to people i hurt once again...forgive me though i know alot of things are not forgivable. har. read something i dint know was in existence until rmie told me. hMm. sorry. but ya i dun want things to happen a second time. i want something for myself. i dont want to share. i want to be selfish. for myself. am i not entitled to having something for myself. just learning to love myself abit more. i shouldnt allow myself to get hurt anymore. tired. it is times like this i really feel like giving up. =x goodnight...

hello people... haahaa...just bo liao, so decided to put some pics together. very zi lian these days, so you would see alot of my own pics.. haha. zhen shi de.. past new year liao, then nv reali celebrate..but as usual la...last yr also didnt celebrate...hee. realised that maybe all these celebrating and stuff are not as impt anymore. i realised that each year i dont really have new resolutions..i read people's blogs, then realise that whoa, most people have resolutions, but i think that if i do write them down, i probably not be able to fulfil them. =x so i should just stick to doing what comes along. realised there are still things that i have yet to do... there are lots of designing to do for MSE... and ISG booklet.. almost unstarted. sigh. will get down to doing it.. haahaa. i better start. heh. to all, happy new year! have a happy 2007 right? cheerS!

hello people, it's 31st today.Almost a year is over.. whoa hw time flies... this year has been as extraordinary one for me. many things happened, some good, some bad.. but it has been a most interesting year for me. many lessons learnt. many hearts were broken...i'm sorry for all the unhappiness that i've caused... year 2006 has been a tiring year. a year filled with so many new chapters. and also the closing of many chapters. it is the yr i stepped into my twenties. it has been a year filled with much tears, much unhappiness. sorry for hurting you. sorry that i broke your heart. but thank you for the good times. sorry for the times i couldnt be there for some people while i was trying to fight my own battle. sorry for the lies. sorry for the poor results.
thank you for coming into my life. thank you for loving me. thank you for a wonderful roomie. thank you to those who stood by me. thank you ddd...
goodbye 2006, welcome 2007.
i welcome in the new year.. it will be a better year for me. cheers.

feeling kind of sad...argh... so hate myself.
to you, glad u have moved on. =D jia you with that special someone.
take care ppl..new yr is coming. have fun!

hello people, i am back home. tennis quarters today.. we won 4-1 that 1 being a walkover. duno why my service beginning to drop standard like mad. big sigh..used to be able to serve beautifully... got into semis, 1st time for hall 1 tennis. lucky vynesh was my partner, else, faint. tml going to meet the 04 ppl. going to mrs liim house.. then going to have dinner at tampines. hmm. hope to see them soon.=D well well. i pulled out the zip off my hp pouch, and broke hp chain. sigh... this is bad la. so violent. then last night rammed my last toe into the door. zzzzz. bleeding toe. so sad la. =x. there's a lot of feelings these days...life goes up and down. duno what to say. nvm..time to get busy with comm stuff... take care all... =D cheers ppl. oh to mel...smile ok! =)

i passed my exams. more importantly, i passed my 2001, 2004, 2006. though results are bad, and i mean bad, i am glad i can finally have a gd peace of mind, enough of the nightmares that joanne needs to retake a couple of her papers. *relieve* but with an average of C, joanne needs to buck up and pull up her grades next sem else, sigh. time to get in with life without maths. softball later and tennis tml. hmmm. gd luck hall one.

hello all, been away from blogging for some time. =x so sorry. results are coming out tml and i am feeling super nervous. joanne jia you! hazz. came back for softball and tennis today.. realised that tennis won liao so tentatively no need to play my match. =x as for softball today...we won as well. wad great news..but then i think i need to get a new pair of shoes...cos my shoes may dry in time for softball tml morning, but tennis in wet shoes is wad i call superly dangerous... see hw 1st... whether i should spend the money. lol. yeh. the new year is coming ahead... time to reflect on the happenings of this whole yr. =x. anyway want to thank the many many people for the christmas wishes. and sophia for the xmas prezzie. thanks. and congratulations to xinyi on his marriage. =)
things dont always go smoothly for u, this fact, i learnt it the hard way. sighh. nvm. if things are yours, they will be, if not then too bad.
take care all. =)

it's christmas eve... and here i am, at home. hah. one year is almost over... and resultS are amost out.. panic! been doing very little useful things at the moment. feel so useless... and piggy and everything...haha. bah. much has been on my mind..but since it's the festive pweiod, just want to wish all of you a very MERRY XMAS! take care to all.
it's the festive period...i'm feeling lonely. haa.

home at last... wont be back to school till 27th. =D hehh. results are coming out soon, and i am really worried...sigh. haiz. today was at tiong bahru plaza...then saw this big big big big tAzzie sitting outside More Than Words. heh. hope no one gets it..cos i intend to save up to get it. not cheap..heh. tired... zzz all the best to me for the results. i really hope for the best... merry christmas in advance!

thanks to all =D for all the birthday wishes, and the various gifts. thanks alot to chew, wenx for lunching with me on my bdae and guansiang for the dinner. and ddd for the whole of 20th! -D happy joanne =D anyway, eragon was good. highly recommended... heex thank you to those who made joanne a happy girl...i am finally twenty... =x welcomed warmly into the twenties club...
sigh i realised that this holiday is so so busyy... zzz and the weather has been cold. =x games postponed over and again! bigger sigh! tml is ISG closing ceremony. zzz. must wake up early go over and carry the 3 boxes of things to SRC. i hope i haf the strength. if not i'll get william's help. =x
i feel tired. but i duno why. zz kept sleeping today. haha... take care to all... hugs`

this has been the colour of the sky, games kept getting postponed due to the rain. sighhh.. hah. tennis tml, then meeting chew and wendy at dhoby ghaut for lunch. =D wont be playing softball tml, dont thinK i wana skip meeting them for it. so sorry. have been getting really dirty. =x heh. rain, mud grass and all... wad else manz. hehh. time flies...in less than an hr's time, i'd be twenty. heh. i'm getting old. silent night, quiet night. cold night.. take care to all! =D

hellOo ppL!, i back.. =D here to thank a couple of people... thanks 04 girls for baby taz in diapers... and the crown neckless..jianhao seng long, kuanthai for the mini log cake..and the great outing out to ecp. =D hehh. and ddd for the big big taz=) nw, i have a big big taz collection liao! thanks people! =D Love all of you..though as of nw, i can stil say, i am stil 19! hehhhh! =D

HellO to all...haaa had a netball game against SCI today. zzz lol. totally thrashed. i dun play netball.. but insufficient players. zzz hahaaa. and those people were tall...amazing la. HMm. then had lunch with jason. lol. that day just asking melvin where jason disappeared to, lol. wahhh still crappy as usual. hope u enjoy ur blading wor... =) been alone in hall quite often lately..rmiee is away in ubin.. then i am still dwn with isg and ihg...there's tennis and softball ih on mon. hope all goes well. yest one was cancelled due to rain... but wah realised that the pressure is huge la... siggh. in any case,take care to all... i miss you all. cheers. HUgs-

i realised this hard truth, it gets lonely in hall, during the holidays. rmie went for npcc stuff, so she'd be away till sunday. heh. i woke up at 10++ just nw, realised that every single inch of my muscles are aching. If they get enough ppl to play IH later then i shall just go and watch, cos i dun wana pull the team down, with aching muscles as well and a stupid recurring knee prob. sigh...dear right knee, stop doing this to me! haahaa. it just rained, so ya, going to have really muddy shoes again. oh mannzz. time i invested on a new pair of sports shoes..eh though i know i dun have the $ to. LOL...softball match against hall5 later. all the best. so sorry to those who people who have been asking me out ah. heh. thanks appreciate it that you all wana celebrate my birthday with me, so so sorry ah. but caught up with IH and IS games.. heh. paisehpaiseh. =X take care to all! JOanne misses all of you!

i duno why but i suddenly feel so like crying...zzz. maybe i am just tired...

suddenly have this very lost feeling. but i duno why. suddenly feel kind of depressed, but i duno why. sigh! got this feeling i let people down, but i duno who. well, maybe it's just one of those sad days.

shall use green since green is mse isg colour. heh. yest was too tired to blog. hheeh. whole day was so so packed. meeting with the comm in the morning, followed by ihg softball and tennis traning. 4hrs of training left me with an almost useless right arm, and a wet and muddy pair of sports shoes.. zzzz... heh. today was isg opening ceremony.. blogging abit before i go off for ih softball training..so nua, muscles aching left right...sigh~ not too bad ba, o/r than my batt dying before the ceremony ended. heh. following the crowd with the camera was ermmx tiring la. jiachuan and anchyi are amazing la. i took shortcuts here and there lo. =x well, nice isg comm tee as well as isg tee. thanks max...hah. anndddd lastly, i wana say that, rmie! hw could u intro me to such a game! abit the out of date cos i bet a million other ppl are playing it before me liao. hahaa. introducing...need for speed most wanted. wahhaahaaa.. alright to all, take good care k! cheers.

hello all, back in hal looking at roomie polish her boots. lol, looks so interesting la! =x but she dun wan burn down the room, so decided that i should just watch. hehee..busy day ahead from tml onwards. need to lose some weight. i think i said that like a million times liao lor.haha. haaa. rmie is done with one side of her shoes. =x. supposed to finish at 12, but then yaaa. erm. bleaH... haaa. i am still coughing abit la, still fine, no worries. =D take care take care! more updates soon.

coughing madly now..cant really fall asleep. cough till backache liao lei.sigh. haha.. what to do
joanne is stubborn one, and she refuses to go see the doctor for the cough. hmmm.. at the
moment i'm relying on panadol cold. hope it works for me la. but then erm erm... haha...
sigh..guess by now those reading would have realised my theme. rainbow. haha. i often
wonder who's going to to be the rainbow of my life. hmM. maybe this is not as impt nw ba?
bleh. yeh, just realised that i dont really want to make the same mistake over and again. but then
how many times have i really been able to not let myself go into it? sigh, thiNk my life is full of
contradictions. i dont blame the characters in it, but rather, the writer--me. haiz. it has been
an eventful year for me. each time it comes to the end of a year, i would reflect and hope for a
better year ahead, but then year after year, not much changes. sigh. i better start living properly
before all is too late and i start regretting it.
was on this topic of "everyone deserves a second chance..". to what extent should this statement
be true? i duno..maybe we all dont want to be hurt a second time, but i believe that as long as the
circumstances allow it, then why not? eh this is a chim statement ba. but i guess it's really up to
the individual ba. dOnt know la. always thiNking of weird things. lol. but that's me...hmm.
someone said that i was complicated but a fine lady upon knowing me. dun really know what it
means but fine lady, i am definitely not. not anymore. i learnt to love myself more. i dont give in
to everyone anymore. i dont do things to please people and upset myself anymore. i am no more
that person who gives all she can as long as it is within her means. i have become more selfish.
i duno hw to survive in this world without getting hurt anymore. i want to defend myself. well, tired.
going to rest soon. coughss..take care people.

heh, my flu hasnt got better yet..nor the cough. i stil havent visited the beach, i so wanna go....anyone wana bring me there? hahaa. alumni dinner thing is cancelled and brought to next sunday. i need to get well soon, so many events next week... sigh. i dun want to see the doctor. =x

sigh, i'm sick. wrong timing. =x lih tyng is coming back. =D

sick liao. sigh. down with flu and slight cough. it's so diff for me to kena flu one lor. haiz. yest had stupid connection errors. seriously i dont know if it's the wireless at home or msn, but ya lor. pek chek la.. esp when i am computer idiot lo. yesterday i went swimming and yeh a hair cut. =/ was telling rmie i wasnt going to cut my hair in the next few months but cannot tahan the dried and split ends lo. so went to cut.. and like back in jc, it was a great sense of relieve. =) yeah hoo.. then momentarily i will complain and then forget. =D ddd ddd ddd! hah. muahahaha! well well.
there are certain things that despite trying, one would never be able to do de ba. there too are certain people you realise are easier to share things with right? duno why suddenly having such thoughts la, but something that passed my mind. in a way, these days i feel free.. and yeh kinda happY too. =D ddddddddd! haha. next week going to be superly busy liao... take care wor everyone....--HugS--

back again..today i went to queenways shopping centre to make a new pair of specs. guess what? my degree has gone down! amazingly. for the right eye. the optician kinda coudnt bleieve it so checked quite a couple of times. dang. haha. yes indeed it has gone down but i m wondering if it went down or or the previous one had prob. lol. alright... want to thank for such an expensive birthday present la. goodness... i feel bad can. realised that i'd really be quite busy the upcoming week... ISG and stuff..oh mannnz... i still havent started exercising, someone, make me start. haha still i wanna go out! tennis tml is cancelled so home sweet home before i go back again i go back to hall on sat...
sigh, sometimes i really duno what u r thinkin, u want to say something then after that u say nvm and nothing. alright, i duno wad i can do alright but it also seems like it isnt up to me. one day u are like that, the other day u jus change. up to you la, as long as u are happy, fine with me, nothing i can do for you also alright. i know la, i dun tell u things, so yu[p like what u siad there are some things that you'd not want to say, so...
* know there are certain decisions that need to be made, i know that u wont be as heartless as me, but i want you to know that i am not that heartless one ok. u take your time. i'll respect the decision. no you are not a ball. but i just thought that you may be happier that way. weigh your priorities ba. and the commitment.
to all, take care.

helo~ haa..i'm in hall right nw, instead of exercising, which i should have been doing, i've been leading this piggy lifestyle. hey joanne arent u supposed to lose weight? oh man, i realised that i'm eating more than before. what if i grow so fat that nobody wants me? HOW? missed tennis training today cos had lunch with my family. dim sum. so wrong...hey joanne what happened to your plans to exercise? u've been eating and sleeping! so wrong! haha... but ya tml no matter what, i'm going swimming, that's that. LOL. been mapling and doing nothing else. been online, and offline when slPing. Piggy! so so so wrong la.... but yeh. today the new shirts came, at last. breathes a sigh of relieve! the shirts turn out well. looks nice enough =D fortunately. maybe next time should jus use something less challenging so that it'd wont be so much trouble. maybe meeting xinwei and lp and jialing to go to vivo later, but depending on what time my meeting ends.. to all! take care... going off for my meeting liao. cheers... people, pls get joanne to stop sleeping! hehe. ask her out! =D hugs tight tight!

ah! i so so angry! haha. blogged halfway then went to do other stuff then disc kena stuck inside, then i restart then i lost the whole entry! so angry can. =( haiz zhen shi de. haa yeh was saying that i'm here to blog again. hehe. ya so here i am for the second time tonight. spent today lying around, repaying my slp debt and fussing over my computer and the wireless connection that has been dying on me today. hehe. tml going back to school liao. tennis training at 12. there's softball at 10 too but i decided not to go,cos yeh as much as i wanted to exercise, 4hrs at one go is not too healthy for someone who has not exercised for a long long time. heh. so i am going for tennis tml and the meeting at 6 with ISG com.. then pang coming over to deliver the long waited tees. i hope all goes well. there's so many many ppl i wana spend time with this holidays. heh, da ge, dun worry la ya, i'll find a day la, u also have to let me knw ur schedule lo. and oei, there's some things that i dont like u asking over and again, cos nothing changes ok? and to ddd, sorry i know you r busy too but will try to fit the timing in ok? and i also wan2 meet up with lih tyng, i duno when she's coming back from aussie but i look 4ward to seeing you! =D yeh so many things i want to do! hMmz.take care to all! i miss you all and i look forward to seeing whoever wants to see me! lol! =D hugs tight tight to all...

my life is a storybook.
where the characters change all the time...
but who would be the one? who will enter and stay??
haahaa.

new layout...

hello all! here to announce the end of my exams! today is my 1st freee day. I've learnt, this holidays, i'm going to enjoy myself to the fullest. i dont knw what will happen after the results come out, but then.. it's over, i just hope for the best.
anyway i went to read through the archives for the past 2 yrs. my blog is more than 2 yrs old liao, but had one earlier on which got deleted. seems like haha, alot of things have changed la. previously i realised there was this certain period of time where the entries were like really sad.there was a period of time when everything was so pessismistic. i realised that hey, i said that i was no longer the joanne i used to be for a long time already. and guess what? i really havent done anything much to change it la. i realised that i am still as pessimistic. much as i say that i want to go back to being who i am, i realised i m not putting in much effort. hey joanne, it's time u learn and move on with your life.
there's this particular thing that i want to decide on. actually i thought that i almost came to a conclusion, but then i realised, there are still things that make me hold back from making a decision. no doubt that period of time has taught me that hey, u need it, as much as u say u dont want it. Hmm, yeah there are things that i really cant put down. so sorry, it may take an even longer time for me until i can be sure.
in the midst of the exam period, one chapter of my life ended. yeah, to the character(s) in that chapter, i wish you all all the best okiez? =D
hehe, i packed my room after exams yest. spent so many hours. zzz. so for once, joanne is proud to announce that she has a very neat rm! her side i mean=x alright la rmie's side has been quite neat also la if u dun consider that she dont make her bed. =x so she is consistently neat. i've decided to have a new layout for my lappie. heh =)
so many things that i want to do... but next up will be having ISG and IHG =) hehe. wannnaaa have funnnnnnnnnnn. =D
i bought a new mouse yesterday. =D and sorry girls i didnt join u all at orchard yest. Joanne needed her beauty slp lei. hehe.
anddd for my birthday, i want....
i want...
i want...(oopx i'm doing this again)
haha.
1) pass her exams ( no 1 goes out to her exam markers)
2) my loved ones to be happy =)
3) xiaobai (rmie, make a sacrifice? hehe)
4) more taz (what about a real one?)
5)more
6)more
7)more!
heheee loveeeeeeeeeeeeee=) wahaahaaa, so on my birthday, u al come forward gimme a hug and smuack will be enough...
hehee... i be back to blog =) off i go go go to slp.
take care to all....
and GUAN SIANG!
Happy 25th Birthday to you!
oh and to my elder bro too...
=)

here to screaMMmz.again. joanne is down. again! =S sighx. 2006 down also but then again i really dont know what i am doing. where has all the effort go to? argh. sad diao... one paper to go. i have to do it, somehw. take care to all....

in a sad sad mood. =( dont know what to say. just sad. arghhhz... 4days2papers more...jia you to all alright. =D

here for a very simple purpose....*SCREAAMMMMMMMMMMZzzzz* argh just came back from 2004. ouch it really sucks la. help me manz... kind of sian 1/2 after the paper...zhen shi de la... i mean what the !! hehe... well in any case it's over... shall go nap nap a little for nw... 7 days..3 papers to go... sighhh. good luck and take care to all!! -hugs- love you all! heheee.... =D jia you to all...

i dream of walking down the beach with you... it will become a reality wont it...?

in the midst of exams...with 10days and 5 papers to go, i decided to drop a note...
to all jia you for exams alright? meanwhile... despite the stress level... i am a happy girl... with all the chocolates around me...lol... dang~ more updates after the exams...all the best everyone...=D
p/s: ddd... =P (bite u for all the lemon juice u fed me with...)
and special note to rooooomieee dearest(LOL) study ahhhhhhhhh! =) jia YOuuuu!

hi all, i think i havent blogged to close to a month liao. haha. taking a break from my studies. having 2004 quiz tml... sigh all the best to me yeh?
haha here to ans the so 'important' question which many people have been asking me. lol. what do i want for my birthday....
i want...
i want...
i want...
i want...






lots and lots of love!(haha)
lots and lots of happiness for everyone around me... =)
eh lots and lots of As??
the list goes on... =)
honestly, dont need to give me anything, just dont forget my existence can liao. =)
and for now, i am still in my teens... heehee =P
take care to all alright.
LOve You All!!
hugs- all the best for exams...